#boooooks

Accidentally linked a bad experience/feeling to it, I watched most of the episodes I did watch while in burnout, so now if I try and watch it I feel incredibly exhausted, like a panic attack will happen and disociate. I was watching it every day for literal months while feeling like this.)

Jess gave me such crazy insane gender envy it actually, and I'm not even exaggerating or joking, made it painful to watch

Unfortunately Jess was also one of my favourite characters so it became a little less interesting to watch for me when he stopped showing up so much

And a lot of my other favourite characters started being around less or changed too much

It made me feel guilty for not being able to study (I get anxiety attacks or dissociate if I even think about trying, I'm not exaggerating)

It made me sadder than I already am about not being born slightly earlier

It's low-key a tragedy to my understanding....? I can watch tragedies but I have to be in the right mood

Several of the characters and storylines annoyed me so much that it made me rlly sad

AND THEN THIS