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Identity is relational. People reinforce who they expect you to be. Going home means re-entering an environment where the old emotional architecture is still intact, where everyone unconsciously participates in entrenching the older version of him. So naturally, he internalizes it again: the obligations, the debts, the responsibilities, the old guilt structures, the belief that stability and endurance matter more than personal fulfillment.

So yes, I absolutely think there’s a pattern to the cycle resetting whenever he goes home, because the performance resets too. Suddenly he is no longer new Hudson—he becomes the old version of himself reflected back through everyone else’s expectations. Oh, there’s my long-time friend Hudson! The same Hudson I’ve always known! The same Hudson who should still relate to success in the same humble, grounded way as before!

I’m still me, so you’re still you—right?

Which is why “maintaining the old life” feels so comforting in the short term. It allows him to temporarily talk himself out of transformation. The farther away he is from home, the harder it becomes to fully sustain the illusion that nothing has changed. Fame is invasive. It constantly reminds him of the expectations, scrutiny, and pressures attached to it. Honestly, I think that freakout earlier this month came after the isolation of filming because he still had not fully processed the scale of his own visibility.

He isn't an influencer! His level of success demands adjustment, adaptation, little acts of self-editing just to survive inside that level of visibility comfortably. It is not a temporary phase. It is an entirely new performance to learn. But that's daunting—especially for someone sensitive, someone who deeply craves understanding and stability, someone whose neurodiversity likely makes abrupt shifts in identity, routine, and social expectation even more emotionally overwhelming to navigate

Familiar pain, even when limiting, often feels safer than the uncertainty that comes with becoming someone new.

But the Tower keeps appearing because the cycle no longer resets perfectly. Something has changed in him, and keeps shifting every time. And once a person becomes conscious of that internally, maintaining the old structure starts requiring more and more effort

Which brings me back to ego—not ego in the shallow sense, again, but the deeper structure through which people organize identity, morality, and self-worth—because that’s another thread I kept circling throughout the reading and never fully finished:

Just from the insight tarot has given me, H’s ego is attached to responsibility, humility, endurance, and the moral framework of “doing the right thing for the people who stayed with me when I was nothing.” His sense of self is deeply tied to masculinity—being dependable, grounded, morally serious, stable, and present for others as repayment for everything he feels he has been given.

But C’s ego functions very differently.

C’s patience—especially with H—almost feels sustained by certainty: this underlying belief that authenticity eventually wins in the end. I mentioned it in that April 2nd reading where I pulled so many cards tied to authenticity, selfhood, and ego for him: the Emperor, the Queens, all those cards about fully inhabiting one’s identity instead of fragmenting oneself around expectation. I cannot remember what triggered it exactly, but there was a tiny “bruised ego” moment recently that honestly made me laugh because it fit the pattern so perfectly.

Because C will stay quiet. He will tolerate discontentment because fundamentally, he believes he will eventually get what he wants. Part of that confidence comes from this almost unnerving trust in his own intuition: the belief that his observations are usually proven correct over time if he remains patient long enough.

That creates an interesting contradiction in him: there is genuine care there, but also a subtle sense of certainty that can drift into judgment. Check out my interpretation of his spread pattern here. It doesn’t come from a sense of superiority or manipulation, but from the conviction that reality will eventually have to align with the emotional truth he already perceives as obvious—in this case, that the performance cannot sustain itself forever. He believes authenticity eventually forces its way to the surface, no matter how long people try to delay it.

Even in the VF Oscar “hard launch” reading for K and H, C’s cards kept circling around ideas of what’s right, what’s appropriate, and what relationships are “supposed” to look like. His frustration isn’t directed at Hudson or the horse itself; it comes from recognizing that, emotionally, things are no longer aligning with the narrative everyone is still trying to preserve externally. Very Air dominant of him: this is not how this was supposed to be.

I think that’s why he is the Sun for so many readers. Not simply because he represents warmth or happiness, but because the Sun illuminates. It exposes what people are trying not to look at. It makes things visible whether people are prepared for that visibility or not. C represents the reality that the transformation is real, irreversible, and necessary: embrace it, or eventually be burned alive trying to outrun it

Which is precisely why he disrupts the comfort of the old life so profoundly for H!! Because C represents the unresolved future for him—the bright, horribly scary and beautiful expansive future that keeps pulling at H whether he wants it to or not

You think someone as intentional, ambitious, and emotionally discerning as C would casually share milestones like SNL with just anyone? Spend his Met Gala debut hoarding just anyone to himself?

That’s part of what makes the dynamic feel so destabilizing!! C does not relate to Hudson primarily through the lens of who he used to be, but through who he is actively becoming. Through potential. Through transformation already in progress.

So while C cannot fully enter the "structure" while Hudson remains psychologically anchored inside the old one, H also cannot completely return to that old structure unchanged anymore either—because C now exists as living proof that another version of himself has already emerged elsewhere

That’s the difference with C compared to the horse(s). He does not represent responsibility in the same suffocating way. C is independence. Comfortable in himself even when alone and willing to stay alone rather than be misunderstood. Someone with a million different interests he pursued long before fame validated them, because they mattered to him intrinsically rather than performatively. Even the way he handles visibility feels different: controlled, intelligent, self-possessed. He moves like someone fundamentally certain of who he is and what he wants from life

And most importantly: C sees through H.

Not just the performed version. Not just the socially reinforced version. The actual contradictions underneath it. The exhaustion. The compartmentalization. The places where responsibility has started replacing fulfillment. The places where endurance has become confused with emotional truth.

Have you ever had someone ask you, “Hey, why do you do that?”

And suddenly, something you had been doing automatically—comfortably, unconsciously—becomes visible to you for the first time.

You become aware of it. You start interrogating it. Why do I do that? What purpose is it serving? Why? Why, why, why?

And once that awareness exists, you can never fully return to the old, unconscious version of the behavior again. Even if you keep doing it, the self-consciousness remains. You do it, and you remember the time someone pointed it out—even if it wasn’t malicious, just curiosity. The question lingers in the background every single time: Yeah… why am I doing that?

That’s what C feels like in relation to H

his feelings towards h are the same as always: three of pentacles for admiration, shared goals, wanting to invest and keep investing—he wants all the beautiful things a union between them will bring, because the dedication of the card promises fruition through consistency, effort, and mutual building. there’s pride in this card too, the desire to create something real that can actually last instead of something fleeting or shallow.

ten of cups is the happily ever after card—a harmonious life full of love and long-commitment; marriage, kids, a home together. it is soulmates, emotional fulfillment, and the kind of connection people build entire futures around. again, it isn't shallow: it is complete emotional contentment; the ability to say, this is my person, and actually mean it wholeheartedly

knight of swords is the charge forward, through obstacles and anything attempting to deter you because there’s single-minded focus. once this knight decides what he wants, he barrels toward it with tunnel vision. impulsive at times, yes, but determined above all else. it’s active pursuit, not a passive yearning.

all that is guided by the vision of the two of wands: careful planning, consideration of long-term expectations and aspirations, weighing future outcomes and deciding how to reach them. this is somebody looking ahead without even considering clocking out. and it’s fueled by “beyond words,” a connection that’s either so enthralling he struggles to express the depth directly, or one that feels mentally consuming and difficult to neatly define; it could also point to an affection that genuinely exceeds language altogether? either way, the cards suggest he’s locked the fuck IN on that wasian

now, for the row below: does he show signs of getting tired of 'this' and wanting to stop the ‘pursue’?

the fool reversed is missed opportunities caused by hesitation, recklessness, or fear of taking the leap incorrectly; it ties back to the need for better planning. it is the fear of fucking up—being too worried about taking any action where he doesn't know the outcome

so the two of pentacles follows, adapting rather than withdrawing; juggling variables, recalculating, trying to keep balance while figuring out the next move. reinforcing that is the nine of swords—obsessive thinking, worrying, fearing, mentally spiraling. this is someone losing sleep over outcomes, replaying scenarios in his head, overanalyzing every possible mistake and consequence

all that is clarified by judgement—another card of reassessment and reevaluation. it’s literally what i said the other day; he doesn’t give up, he second guesses the strategy, but he will change and change again for the sake of guaranteeing his success. judgement is the realization card: understanding what needs to evolve in order to reach the desired outcome. “giving up” doesn’t even register to a person who is strategically recalibrating

is this literally not what i said yesterday? on may 10th? all the way back in march too? you genuinely cannot make this up anymore 😭 the pattern keeps repeating itself in different forms. every spread circles back to the exact same conclusion: a victory, a hesitation, overthinking, recalculating, adapting—but never disengagement

i think there’s merit in the idea of being “tired” of a cycle. it’s well within his right to reach a point where he decides enough is enough and wants to end something, whatever that may look like. i don’t think that’s an unreasonable interpretation on its face

at the same time, i think people sometimes jump from “he feels tired” to “he is definitely ending everything,” and those are two very different statements. emotional fatigue and a final decision are not automatically the same thing in tarot because tarot isn't definitive

where i start getting a little stuck too is when people frame him as someone who is somehow shocked, blindsided, or newly wounded by the complexities of a situation like H’s. if we’re applying a romantic lens and saying his feelings for H are romantic, real, and significant, then i think we also have to allow for the possibility that he understands the reality of the situation better than most people looking in from the outside

i don’t think we can have it both ways. we can’t simultaneously say that C is deeply intuitive, emotionally attuned, perceptive, and in love with H, and then treat him as though he has no awareness of the complications involved. if we can look at this dynamic and immediately recognize that it’s tangled, difficult, and full of contradictions, why wouldn’t he?

okay: that doesn’t mean he can’t feel hurt. i think he probably can feel hurt, frustrated, exhausted, disappointed, hopeful, and conflicted all at the same time. but i think those emotions can exist without necessarily producing some dramatic final action

now, i do think the strongest argument in favor of this interpretation is simply that enough time has passed: months of wanting something complicated have finally caught up with him, because people don't necessarily reset back to zero every time they withdraw and recover just like i said for h and masking; disappointment can accumulate. simply logic in eventually what felt tolerable at one point may stop feeling tolerable and that emotional intelligence doesn't necessarily protects someone. people can know exactly what they're getting into and still eventually hit a wall. it could also be argued that nothing external has to change, sometimes the thing that changes is the person. people do wake up one day and realize they don't have the energy for something anymore

i think all of those are fair points. where i part ways is that i don't automatically see how they get us all the way to "he's ending everything," particularly when the broader narrative many readers were describing not that long ago involved transformation, growth, investment, and building something on stronger foundations. if we're treating readings as part of a larger story, then i think we have to account for all of those themes as well.

cards about closing a cycle, ending limbo, or feeling exhausted can absolutely explain why someone might want distance, clarity, or a different way of relating to a situation. what they don't necessarily tell me is what concrete action comes next? note to track

to me, it makes more sense that he internalizes a lot of these feelings while continuing to live an otherwise busy, productive, and relatively stable life. this connection may be important to him, but it’s still only one part of his life, not his entire life. if blind items are to be believed, he’s out there socializing, hooking up with people in atlanta, working, going to trader joe's, living. people sometimes talk about this dynamic as though it’s consuming every waking moment of his existence, and i just don’t see that.

i also think some of the narratives people construct around him fall apart under scrutiny. for example, “H is leading him on.” okay, but leading him on how, exactly, while maintaining a highly public relationship? “maybe H promised he would leave.” maybe. but again, that brings us back to the version of C people themselves describe: highly perceptive, emotionally intelligent, and capable of reading between the lines.

i absolutely think he can romanticize people and hold onto hope, but i also think he’s protective of himself. i think he knows when to step back, recharge, and preserve his peace. and the reality is that he has always had the freedom to do that. he has never been publicly tied to anyone. he can go out, meet people, hook up with people, date people, be seen with whoever he wants, whenever he wants. whether he chooses to exercise that freedom is another question entirely, but the option has always existed. that's part of why i struggle with narratives that portray him as trapped, helpless, or indefinitely strung along. whatever his feelings may be, he still possesses agency

i personally don’t really think he’s “putting an end” to anything. i’m not even sure there’s a concrete thing there for him to end unless we’re talking about some kind of ongoing emotional or physical affair, which i personally doubt given both the distance and the way their connection seems to manifest. to me, withdrawing, recalibrating, creating space, and ending a facet of a relationship are not necessarily the same thing

that’s also why i’m a little cautious about how people interpret tarot in these situations. i think there’s a tendency to treat every “ending” spread as though it has to mean the literal ending of the connection itself, when sometimes the thing ending is an expectation, a fantasy, a coping mechanism, a way of relating to the connection, or even just a particular nasty emotional state

for me, historically, one of the recurring themes around C has been the tendency to idealize and over-romanticize people—putting them on a pedestal, becoming attached to a version of them, or investing in what they could be rather than fully engaging with who they are

in practice, i imagine it might look something like this: he develops a vision of how something should be, but struggles to make himself vulnerable enough to communicate that vision openly. so instead, he retreats inward and begins processing it alone. then, when reality inevitably fails to align perfectly with the image he constructed, it can trigger a surprisingly intense emotional reaction—not because the reality itself is catastrophic, but because the gap between expectation and reality suddenly feels impossible to ignore.

and yet those crises never strike me as permanent. they feel consuming in the moment, yes, but also transient—a cycle of push and pull; wanting closeness, withdrawing from it, then wanting it again. the harder he pushes for a particular outcome, the more frustrated he becomes when life refuses to cooperate, and the harder he pulls away in response. if that is the cycle that's ending, which i personally believe it to be, i honestly think that's a good thing, and something i've been anticipating. there’s something really healthy about letting go of the version of someone you wish existed and learning to embrace the person who is actually in front of you, in all their complexity and the ways they've hurt you and you them

letting go of idealization doesn't necessarily mean letting go of the person, or the future vision you share with them. it means replacing fantasy with reality. it means getting to know them as they actually are, recalibrating expectations, adjusting the pace of the connection, and developing a clearer understanding of what each person can genuinely offer and invest

i do also think some readers struggle to connect individual readings to larger patterns and narratives, or at least translate that awareness when, let’s say, they use ai for interpretations (for any reason—I do not judge). i think the nuance in how language is presented matters a lot. maybe not as much to the reader themselves, who already understands what they mean, but certainly to the audience receiving the interpretation. we all bring different instincts, assumptions, associations, and emotional reactions to certain words and phrases.

that's part of why i tend to prefer long-form, written-out discussions like this. not because i think my interpretation is necessarily more correct, but because it gives me room to explain my reasoning, show how i arrived at a conclusion, acknowledge alternative possibilities, and engage with the material more critically. i think there's value in slowing down and examining not just what a reading says, but how we're choosing to frame what it says. sometimes the interpretation itself ends up shaping the narrative more than the cards do.

because if we zoom out, these are cycles we’ve seen over and over again: desire, withdrawal, recalibration, movement, frustration, recuperation. wanting something, denying it, missing it, returning to it. hoping for it, resenting it, trying to let it go, finding yourself drawn back to it anyway. those themes have appeared repeatedly, which is why i'm sometimes surprised when people interpret them as evidence of a definitive conclusion rather than another expression of a familiar pattern because, if anything, i tend to view these recurring themes as part of a larger pattern tied to the healing of his intimacy wounds rather than evidence that some final ending is suddenly around the corner

maybe the counterargument is that the pattern itself is what's ending. maybe this isn't just another round of it, maybe this is the point where the cycle finally breaks

i don't think that's impossible. i just don't know that i see enough evidence to conclude that yet?

i guess i also find myself asking: what exactly is different now? if the circumstances are largely the same, why is this particular moment supposed to be the definitive ending rather than another iteration of a cycle we've already observed? filming is right around the corner—they'll be together for months. that's bound to change so much. so why is this suddenly the moment where he decides he's completely done?

i think, ultimately, what bothers me the most is the weird reductionism in the way people talk about C sometimes. he gets flattened into a character whose entire emotional existence revolves around this one connection. but he’s still a whole person. this connection may matter deeply to him, but it exists alongside his career, friendships, family, goals, distractions, fears, joys, and everything else that makes up a life. "Jealousy arc" "Time to get him a new boyfriend" "Revenge era C"

Every reading becomes evidence for a theory, every emotion becomes a plot point, every moment of frustration becomes a prediction but real people are much messier than the narratives we build around them. they can be exhausted and still care. they can want distance and still feel attached. they can decide something is unhealthy and still struggle to let it go. i think sometimes the desire to identify a clear ending or a clear outcome causes people to overlook the complexity of the person they're talking about.

so could he be tired? absolutely. could he be wanting to end things? sure. but when i hear phrases like “putting an end to this limbo situation,” i think people often assume the most dramatic and final interpretation possible. to me, ending a period of stress, uncertainty, waiting, or emotional limbo does not automatically mean ending the connection itself. neither does ending a particular way of viewing someone, approaching them, relating to them, or imagining them. sometimes what ends is the fantasy. sometimes it's the idealization. sometimes it's the expectation that things have to unfold in a certain way

those are not necessarily the same thing as ending the connection, and they certainly do not inherently imply a bad outcome. in some cases, they can actually create the conditions for a healthier, more grounded, and more honest connection than the one that existed before

sorry for rambling, i think i missed the point of the question or what the reading was about tbh, but i can share these maybe? they’re from what i share with my friends so i am sorry for the poor writing, but i think the overall idea is communicated

hm, i think c’s natural way of operating is caretaking. i think that instinct was taken advantage of early and often, which made him pull back or become more careful about where he places his energy

i think h is struggling more severely than he lets people see; i think he seems like someone who carries responsibility so heavily that his own discomfort gets pushed aside in favor of keeping things functioning

i think the divide between them was communication and “staying”—especially for c. that feels tied to one of his karmic lessons: learning consistency in vulnerability instead of retreating when things become emotionally real. and i do think he’s been trying to work on that.

i think this may be one of the rare times in c’s life where he genuinely has the opportunity to care for someone who once cared for him out of sincere love, without hidden conditions or expectations attached. and i think one of h’s deeper wounds is a longing to be nurtured—to have someone take things off his shoulders for once, to feel emotionally protected instead of always being the one holding everything together

i think there’s something almost ironic, or fated, in h’s north node being in cancer—the sign associated with emotional foundations, nurturing, the inner child, and the need for safety. his growth direction points him back toward the very territory that was likely wounded early on. not so he can relive the damage, but so he can finally experience what was missing from it.

and i think c’s north node being in leo in the 4th house feels incredibly significant to that—so while h’s path is about allowing himself to receive nurturing, c’s path feels more about learning how to openly embody love without fear. not through caretaking as obligation, but through genuine emotional presence and devotion

so ultimately i really think h is learning that vulnerability and dependence are not failures. c is learning that staying emotionally present, visible, and rooted in connection does not mean he will lose himself or be used up. both of their nodes seem to pull them toward the same underlying lesson from opposite directions: the creation of emotional safety. it’s all about safety

Like I said, Absolute language — “They can never be together again.” “He secretly hates her.” “This relationship will 100% happen.” Anyone presenting Tarot as undeniable fact instead of interpretation is already misrepresenting the practice.

Scarily frequent readings — Daily readings are normal, at least for people you personally know. If you choose to engage in that kind of content for celebrities, that’s your decision, but it is important to stay aware of how easily emotional reassurance can turn into emotional dependency, especially for more sensitive people. And if a reader is posting constantly throughout the day, repeatedly pulling cards on the same situation or person, that is usually a red flag.

So: Building dependency — “The energy shifted again.” “I need to check what he’s thinking right now.” Tarot should not make people feel emotionally dependent on constant updates to regulate themselves

Constant catastrophizing or blissfulness — Every reading cannot be a Tower moment and not every day will come with a Two of Cups. Watch for people who seem more invested in steering fandom opinion than actually interpreting the cards, especially readers who do not disclose their full sessions. That is not a crime, of course, but it is still something to stay mindful of: showing the thought process matters if you want people to engage with it critically. Otherwise it just turns into gossip with a weird air of superiority.

Treating cards like surveillance footage — Tarot is symbolic. It is not CCTV, which is why I tell people to wait after tense moments. Nobody can pull three cards as something is evolving and suddenly know the exact contents of a private situation of people they have never met. Be careful of readers who imply they are uniquely “chosen,” (unlike me, famously a half-angel.)

Punishing disagreement — If a reader reacts aggressively every time someone questions a reading, that is a problem. Interpretation is subjective. Readers who act spiritually superior or personally offended by skepticism usually want authority, not discussion

Moralizing every card pull — Not every awkward interaction is abuse. Not every distance card means hatred. Not every third-party card means cheating. Readers who constantly turn normal human complexity into moral drama are usually feeding audience emotions more than interpreting symbolism.

Pretending Tarot overrides reality — If observable reality consistently contradicts the reading, and the reader just keeps inventing increasingly convoluted explanations to preserve their narrative, that should tell you something.

Encouraging parasocial entitlement — Any reader who makes audiences feel entitled to invasive access (bodily health like injuries, trauma and family dynamics) has probably lost perspective on boundaries

At the end of the day, Tarot is a reflective tool. Some people will claim higher intuition or prophetic dreams, but those things cannot really be measured, so it is ultimately up to you to decide what you believe

Not everyone can be a psychic like me, user Bompous, famously a half-angel. But then again, not everyone can flop as hard as me, user Bompous, famously only half-angel, either.

there are too many readings where he reaches some kind of “victory,” runs into resistance afterward, and instead of the energy ending there, the cards repeatedly shift toward themes of withdrawal, observation, recalculation, and eventual reengagement

now, when i say i find him terrifying, it’s because looking at everything as a whole, his way of manifestation to me—alongside whatever absurdly lucky placements he seems to have—is genuinely rooted in persistence. trying, trying again, approaching things from new angles, at different times, under different circumstances, with another attitude, until it works

at no point has he ever shown signs of truly giving up; if anything, even back in march, he seemed fundamentally unwilling to even consider it as an option. said with all the love in the world, when he wants something, it borders on obsession—so it isn't intuition in the metaphysical sense alone, but in the sense of someone becoming extremely skilled at reading timing, emotional shifts, openings, patterns, and human behavior through sheer repetition and observation and using them to his advantage

i personally find that sort of adaptation deeply intimidating and inspiring (and a little sad, and really sexy). someone like that is willing to continuously “recalibrate” instead of abandoning the pursuit altogether once they want something, because they know it’s guaranteed eventually (and to be clear, i’m not just talking about romance or his connection to H here—i mean life at large.)

these people do tend to make great teachers because they observe enough and understand enough to recognize that some realizations cannot be handed to you gently beforehand—so they also absolutely let you eat shit for a little while first because they somehow know the exact moment to step in, pick you up from rock bottom, and cuddle you while asking, “did you learn your lesson?” and have you cling to them for comfort because, yeah, you learned your lesson and it hurt but at least you’re here now.

hey, at least H will get his boo-boos kissed or something

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i’m just so frustrated because it doesn’t seem like he’s ever been given time to acclimate—ever. he's being overworked while still heavily sheltered from the reality of what his level of fame actually means: pushed from role to role, paraded around socially, partying with his brand manager, constantly picked up and tossed around until he finally slammed into reality hard enough to realize how fucking ugly parts of this industry and public attention really are

everything surrounding him feels unbearably heavy for someone who not only seems to absorb things too deeply, but literally has a legally recognized neurodevelopmental disability. it’s this tangled shitbag: responsibility, an intensely attached team dynamic, complicated past relationships, a public opinion cycle on twitter that can flip from obsessive adoration to vicious outrage overnight, which he apparently has access to, because his team is full of too-soft-for-him people, and this painfully earnest “everyone is my friend and i’ll keep 1,000+ people on my private instagram account!” mentality that makes him seem way too open to people who absolutely do not handle him gently. how is a person the flower and the gorilla at the same time?

call me parasocial, i don’t care. from the outside, it genuinely looks like twitter is constantly lolcowing him while people in real life are clawing at him for something—pieces of him, clout, explanations from him, reactions from him, anything they can pull out of him

i know he will be fine; i know his career will be more than fine

but more than anything, i want there to be at least one person in his life who asks nothing from him. doesn't matter who, just someone who lets him rest, exist, and just be however unpleasant or exhausted he needs to be without turning him into a symbol, a responsibility, or a dumping ground for everyone else’s projections and expectations. out of every reading i’ve ever done, the one i want to be true most is that c, right now, is a source of stability for him—not out of shipping, not out of “yay brotherhood,” but because everyone deserves somewhere emotionally safe to hide