#bodily differences

This assigned reading happens to my absolute favorite from all the other ones so far. The reason why is because it is completely relevant and I love her attitude in it.

 I understand what she means when people constantly complain about how they look, but they don't realize that by complaining about their own appearance, they are insulting others. I remember throughout high school, I would always complain about how fat I am. Everyone would get mad at me and call me skinny, but at the same time they would call themselves fat and they would be so much skinnier than me! The conversation would be like: Me: Ew, I look fat in these pants! Friend: Shut up! You're not fat, I am! Look at my fat arms and stomach. But the funny part is that I was a size 4 and all my friends would be size 2 or 0. Now tell me where the sense in that is? I'm not complaining as much as I used to about my appearance. I still do every once in a while, but not as often. I learned throughout the years that appearance isn't everything, it's a big part of first impressions, but there are some people who are willing to see beyond that.

It's funny because my boyfriend would constantly complain about how fat he is, but he has no idea how much it affects me because I'mobviouslybigger than he is. When he and I first started going out, I was a bit embarrassed and it was something I wanted to hide. When I see us together, I see a couple that would never be accepted by society. Why? Because we're both of almost equal height and he is skinny, while I am, I guess the best word would be is, curvy. In today's society, a typical couple would be a built and tall guy with a skinny average height girl. I was afraid of what people would think if they were to find out. I remember the first time we actually went out as a couple. I was trying to avoid all that couple appearing tendencies, but he obviously didn't want to hide it. By the end of the day, all our friends were completely gushing over how adorable we were together. It came as a surprised to me. People even told us that we were their favorite couple. It was so weird to get that from others. Through that, I've learned to accept us as a couple, even if it isn't what society expects us to be.

Also, another experience of mine was when I got into an argument with my cousin. She got so frustrated at how low my self-esteem was, and after ten minutes of her nagging, I put all the blame on her. While growing up, she was the favorite of the family because she was taller than me and skinny. I was always the chubby one in the family whether it was since birth until today. Just like Lamm, I also tried many methods to lose weight. I became as desperate as she was, unfortunately. Honestly, I think it's difficult to get rid of that kind of mindset. Once you've experienced it and once you've gotten in deep, it'll become difficult to get rid of. Every once in a while, I go through a phase where I just abhor my body and become desperate to do anything to change it. After a while, I realized that I don't like what I'm putting my body through. I've gotten better over the years. I bounce back up almost right away, but my appearance still gets to me very often. I just never left that mindset.