#blu3oni

cw: shitty angst :), brief drabble (?), past relationship/heartbroken + aged up! suna, gender neutral! reader.

with the moon high in the dark sky and the wind caressing his cheeks, suna gazed from the balcony over the city, the laughter of his friends ringing inside the room, just a glass door separating him from what was supposed to be a christmas eve reunion.

he had told the others that he would be outside for a few minutes to get some fresh air─ which might've been true if it weren't for the fact that the real reason was that rintaro couldn't stand to see his teammates enjoying the night with their partners while he was all alone.

looking at the screen of his phone, the time read "01:42", which meant that the supposed date they were celebrating had already ended to give way to december 25th, also known as the oh-so famous christmas day.

the truth is that he never thought that the holiday he once secretly adored would now be repudiated in this way. huh─ it's pathetic, isn't it? to start the day feeling so indifferent, almost apathetic, only to end up shedding stupid, crystalline tears in front of the stars by himself.

and to think that some time ago rin would now be relaxing by the warmth of the fireplace, a vague smile resting on his lips at all times as his body would be surrounded purely by sincere love... what a time, indeed.

but well, there's no reason to keep thinking about it, is there? mostly because, after all, you're not by his side anymore.

there is no reason for suna to keep thinking about the "what ifs". there's no reason for his eyes to water, for him to feel the way his heart ─ or what he guesses is left of it ─ shatters.

"it's just another december 25 without you." he thinks. it's not his first christmas alone, so it shouldn't hurt that much.

it's a shame it does, though.

this post was made for @k0dzu1 's winter collab ¡!