#bltfuldays

Her mind was else where. They all hadn’t even been their for very long and not too many people had died, yet she felt... Numb? She didn’t shake in fear or cry. It just felt... normal. Getting threatened, someone found dead, and then someone getting ‘punished’ before their eyes. It felt normal. Fuck, even when her secret of being a Golden Gai Siren was at risk, she didn’t bat an eyelash. Just went to her room and starting building a gundam model even deep in her mind during the trial she just wanted to get it over with so she could do as she pleased. Like someone didn’t murder one of their classmates and was going to be killed themselves. That thought made the Akiba idol sick. Disgusted with herself and her thoughts actually. Honestly, that hint of disgust made her feel better. As if she were still capable of feeling even if it was a degree  of self loathing. 

Gripping onto her jacket the girl made her way to the Cinema Arcade. She just needed something anything other than being in her room to make herself feel like Miki Iwai. The girl who was lighthearted and fun. And didn’t act the way she was now. 

[Location: Cinema, Game Arcade] 

After grabbing a bottle of cola soda and a turning in the few coins that she had, though she wasn’t too happy with what she got. Seriously, a rock and some friendship bracelets? Talk about cheap prizes... The Akiba idol set herself up at one of the dance games. It ended up reminding her of all the times she’d take Fumiko to the arcade with her. Who knew a girl could move so quick in such thin heels! Smiling at the memories, she took in a breath and began to play. Playing each song in order on the hardest difficulty, hitting each arrow with no trouble.

“Huh? ..Oh! Hey! Needed some mindless fun too?”

She spoke to the student, she’d spotted in the corner of her eye without looking away from the screen or stopping till the song was over. With the grade Perfect on the screen, she smiling to herself. Looking pretty proud and allowed herself to have a drink of her soda that had been resting on the machine. Finally giving the other her attention she smiled to them.

Miki was still shaken from the bear telling them they were expected to kill one another if they wanted to leave. She’d never considered taking anyone’s life with her own hands before. The very though made the idol feel ill... After spending time with Nodame, Miki returned to her room, avoiding practically everyone up in till the bear called for them again. His voice made her heart sink in her chest. Taking a deep breath she went to see what he wanted. Upon a arrival she listened with complete attention. A motive. Shit. This was serious... Wait. Someone special? Oh god... Her heart rate began to spend up and her thoughts began to dart through the names in her mind. Her mother, father, brother, was in the boss? Or... Oh dear god! Don’t let it be her of all people, anyone but her! Panic filled the blue haired girl as she pushed her way through the crowd of students and dashed toward the apartment complex as fast as her feet could take her. Nearly tripping on herself in the process. 

Fumbling to open her mailbox with shaky hands, her heart pounded rapidly in her chest. Once it was in her hands the Akiba Idol ripped open the envelope without hesitation. Only to regret it as she read the name in bold red ink. Fumiko Wakahisa. Miki could have sworn that her heart stopped for a moment. Using the wall to keep herself up as her legs shook, she shoved the paper into her jacket pocket and quickly made her way back to her apartment unit. This couldn’t be happening. Why did it have to be her? ---

Once back in her apartment, the girl shrugged off her teal track jacket and allowed herself to fall onto her bed. Laying in the silence, she took in deep breaths in attempt to calm her racing heart. Closing her eyes tight, she curled her body inward and wrapped her arms around herself. 

“Hey Fumi...”

‘Hm...?’

“No matter what, I’ll protect you, okay...? I won’t let anyone ever hurt you again! Not those stupid boys, your grumpy grandma, no one! I’ll be your knight and you’ll be the princess like in your books! We’ll be together forever, no matter what.”

‘Together forever and you’ll protect me...? You promise?’

“Cross my heart and hope to die!” 

Opening her eyes slowly at the though of her promise to her dear friend, a soft laugh escaped Miki’s lips. Such a childish promise. So naive. And yet... Even till this day she was living by it. Together forever, doing whatever she could to stay with her best friend while she was off have adventures around the world, growing and pursuing dreams that didn’t include her. Having a life out of a story book, prince and all. The idol was sure her friend  had forgotten her promise but still, Miki had to keep her word. Taking another deep breath, her mind began to fill with dark thoughts. In order to keep Fumiko safe someone needed to die. Her heart pounded again. She couldn’t kill someone. It just wasn’t in her nature. She wasn’t that selfish of a person! And if Fumiko was in this situation Miki just knew she wouldn’t kill anyone for her. That didn’t matter though, the blue haired girl was the knight not the one who was to be protected. 

“... Cross my heart and hope to die...”

She repeated her promise as she dragged her fingers along her own neck. The bear never said that they couldn’t resort to something like that, right? Resting her hand across the base of her throat, Miki closed her eyes tightly and bit her lip as tears slowly began to stream down her face.

After leaving her companion who she had been exploring with for a time, Miki retired to her room. It was unnerving to see her things there already but she tried her best to not think too much of it. Maybe this wasn’t as innocent or simple as she wanted to think, the thought crossed her mind briefly before she dismissed it. The last thing she or anyone needed was another person getting stress about their situation, someone needed to counter it all with much needed chill after all, right? 

 --

“Ha... All looks good so far just need to move a few more things-- Huh?”

Miki stood in place and wiped the sweat from her brow as she listened to the announcement. Class Trip? Chaperon? See? She knew there wasn’t anything to really worry about. A faint chuckle escaped through her teeth as she hurriedly pulled her track jacket over herself before making her way down to square. 

Upon arriving she saw that other students had already beaten her, what a shame. Making her way through the forming crowd, the idol raised a brow. A plush toy? It was cute but what? This was seriously mad confusing. Readying to take another step forward, she jumped slightly as the toy... Suddenly talked? Monobear? This thing was their class chaperon? The more the bear talked the more confused Miki became. What the hell was even going on? Being trapped on this island was one thing but this? Her head started to spin again as she tried to make sense of all this. Not getting anywhere, her heart suddenly dropped, her blood went cold and a cold sweat formed on her brow as her eyes went wide. 

“K... K-kill someone...? Aa.....”

Her body trembled and her breath became shaky while her insides knotted and tightened. What the fuck? Holy shit! This had to be a joke! There was no way! Trying to keep calm, the blue haired idol pulled out the small guidebook the bear mentioned trying to make sense of all of this with the information given. Her mind was a mess. Taking a deep breath she began to mutter to herself as she clenched her jacket. 

“Clam down... Breath... You’ll be okay... Come on... What would BJP do...? He’d be brave even in the face of an evil like this and resist the villains attempts at temptations of dark forces like this...! He’d be brave and strong during a time like this, not just for himself but for everyone else... Gotta be like BJP... Miki, you got this... You got this, calm down....”

Releasing a shaky breath, she smiled a laughed halfheartedly.