#blaming myself

I know people are the hardest on themselves but I would do anything to be skinny skinny

when i was younger i used to look at old posts/messages i exchanged w people i used to be friends with and wasn’t anymore and it used to make me so unbearably heartbroken and angry… i would go out of my way to not see any of it and would have to delete everything in order to not trigger like a downwards spiral… which in turn actually destroyed a lot of the good memories i had w those people that i would’ve liked to have kept bc whether it ended badly or not they were special moments in my life i would like to have the ability to look back on if i so wished. i am glad i grew out of that. it’s hard to see when ur in the middle of the hurt but to be able to look at things that had a happy middle but ended painfully and still be thankful that they happened is like. not 2 be dramatic but it is life changing

"Relationships involve two people and the dynamic of the relationship itself is what determines if it is toxic or not. Currently, our society is obsessed with finding a person to blame or view as an enemy, but from that perspective no resolution is possible. The only way to improve a relationship is to improve the dynamic itself without making either person into an enemy or wrongdoer."

The worst part of my shoulder slipping out of place and into pain is the feeling that it's my fault for not managing to keep up my exercises the last week.