I am once again here to complain about my stupid, chronically ill body. I don’t have anything interesting to say about it. Just fuck this shit man. I can FEEL that the endo is growing inside of me, and the pain has changed tone just enough that it makes me worried about what’s going on in there, and if it’s something more than the endo. I know when they went in 5 years ago organs were sticking together. It’s entirely possible things have fused together in ways that cause different pain than I’m used to! Which sucks but is still a known issue and won’t kill me.
But also, what if it’s something else?
Probably time to talk to my doctors again and think about getting the hysterectomy they recommended last year, but I was hoping to put it off a few more years for various reasons. The risks of surgery vs the quality of my daily life is a complicated balance. Plus there’s the trauma of all my years fighting for a diagnosis and then my no good horrible very bad year of 3 surgeries in 11 months. I am reluctant to go under again until I absolutely have to.
I’m exhausted and just so so tired of being in almost constant pain. It’s low enough that I can function but it’s just this constant grind.
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***note: not looking for any medical advice please and thank you!
