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The Family Disease // Oceana

Oceana | 2009

--Breather II-- Let it be reborn invited and I (hate my ways now) I looked possessed in a focus of pure hate (And I was gone forever gone forever gone) I didn't mean it and now I'm faded and wasted I'm throwing up the old I knew that id live it admit it my demons were beating me down Cut out the black space the blood and frustration (of a wasteful life) And I sent myself away with the medicine another (sleepless night sleepless night) I didn't mean it and now I'm faded and wasted I'm throwing up the old I knew that id live it admit it my demons were beating me down Down Demons were I were I be were down My demons were I were I be were down --The Family Disease-- I'll vomit illusions, Trick myself that I'm happy, But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty. I think my heart could receive it, Cheap impostor, where you headed? Thank you my love, would you believe me? Thank you my love, would you be listening? But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty. Feel me, my anger's gone, I don't breathe I only am a son, It's not me (it's not me) I'm not real, I was never born. [x2] I am forever alive, I hook my heart to my eyes, I reach from birth just to die, I keep the devil inside I grow him in me. I think my heart could receive it, Cheap impostor, where you headed? Thank you my love, would you believe me? Thank you my love, would you be listening? But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty. Feel me, my anger's gone, I don't breathe I only am a son, It's not me (it's not me) I'm not real, I was never born. [x2] I watched you choke on me, You leave me unbalanced, You come back to break them. [x4] Feel me my anger's gone, I don't breathe I only am a son, It's not me (it's not me) I'm not real, I was never born. [x2] I AM FOREVER ALIVE, I TIE MY HAND TO MY EYES. [x2] --The Constrictor-- Divided I'm carelessly counting my sins The sight of growing too old to begin Sentenced to find the one that is gold In a pile of nothing To our hearts we wreck we're reborn I grow inside you I feel nothing And when I'm side you I will be ready There's not enough of a reason to be ugly I'll crucify you and burn until you're nothing And if my body is bruised would you believe me That I am more than you and what you're reading There's not enough of a reason to be ugly I'll crucify you and burn until you're nothing And if my body is bruised would you believe me That I am more than you and what you're reading Medic I feel headless Leave me Medic I feel headless Leave me Divided I'm carelessly counting my sins The sight of growing too old to begin And if the world never died I'd live long enough to forget what its shape is I lost each one of my eyes In a world mind versus the question --Dead Speaker-- Something didn't want you to live in me my body rejected you you don't belong to me And after the body's clean they have to make room for me to sleep Something didn't want you to die in me my body accepted you you don't belong to me And after the body's clean they have to make room for me to sleep Bleeding You took it all away from me you're nothing Was I supposed to see Mother You're going too fast for me I was a growing seed it ended Mother I was still so afraid of my grave I was buried as a child Father And after all my organs were choked do you still feel me Something didn't want you to live in me my body rejected you you don't belong to me And after the body's clean they have to make room for me to sleep (for me to sleep) Something didn't want you to die in me my body accepted you you don't belong to me And after the body's clean they have to make room for me to sleep I'll find sadness it matches my sound Its vicious as sex I'll find sadness it matches my sound Its vicious as sex Devil you fed it your son isn't finished Devil you fed it your son isn't finished Something didn't want you to live in me my body rejected you you don't belong to me And after the body's clean they have to make room for me to sleep Something didn't want you to live in me my body rejected you you don't belong to me And after the body's clean they have to make room for me to sleep (for me to sleep) Something didn't want you to die in me my body accepted you you don't belong to me And after the body's clean they have to make room for me to sleep --Mother Love-- Fear love. A failure to nothing but an empty shape we collide and we were dead on. Are you tired enough? I think I hurt your head enough. Bruising me the first touch. We'll fall asleep, we'll close it up. Count the days till you get rid of me. Till I fall asleep I am meaningless endlessly. You'd feel fine if you could bury me six feet underneath, I won't see it. And now I'm recklessly ending it. As it falls from the stage to the floor. The day ends when I say it does I'm afraid of him. I'm afraid of him. My mother sings when she's afraid of me because I hurt her more, More than the son she sees it scares her half to death. My father sings when he's afraid of me because I hurt him more, More than the son he sees it scares us all to death. Oh my son, why did you leave me? Where did you run my son? Why did you leave me? Oh my son, why did you leave me? Oh my son, why did you leave me? Where did you run my son? Why did you leave me? Oh my son, why did you leave me? Where did you run my son? You left me empty? --In Birth-- We lose them to sudden defects Our minds are not open yet And all all the time you had growing out of your seed And all all the life you had you'll finally see There's no there's no life here We welcome you to the world In fascinating views we consume you you will all be alone You're breathing like youd never wanted to Always gonna lose When no one's there for you You're barely human yet We thought we'd see you soon We'll all abandon you We're always gonna lose There's no there's no life here We welcome you to the world In fascinating views we consume you you will all be alone You're barely human you're barely human You're barely human you're barely human Those who says theres nothing after Well they're all ghosts And none of them will matter Those who says theres nothing after Well they're all ghosts And none of them will matter There's no there's no life here We welcome you to the world In fascinating views we consume you you will all be alone There's no there's no life here We welcome you to the world In fascinating views we consume you you will all be alone --Boneworks-- When feeding the ones left breathing It's our only way to live My minds past growing in the salt With the bone community They took my tongue for the things I Wanted but couldn't but couldn't say When your taking my child away My colors will surely change My voice will be the same Things were never that way again After they came and left we're nothing When your taking my child away My colors will surely change My voice will be the same Things were never that way again After they came and left we're nothing Your voice is a cannibal Your child got taken away Your life is an open wound Exposed to all of those around you Exposed to all of those Your voice is a cannibal Your child got taken away Your life is an open wound Exposed to all of those around you Exposed to all of those Exposed to all of those around you --The Abortion Plan-- I left my head when I was home I caught an evil side of me I only breathe when I'm alone The days await till I am gone I grew right next to your heart I should have grabbed it and pulled it down I feel what your feeding me I hear what you really speak Could the eater rot in time He's sucking out the lines that make you notice world as an illusion Your body pushed through it In birth it all confuses us what do I do when I'm lying on a table My mother didn't want me my whole life I've been starving 9 months to grow inside you my life was as fresh as the mind of an infant Where did I go hell I knew that my heart wouldn't make it And the due date is close Well heaven knew it take a part of me But I only speak I only speak when I am hungry Now the lights on my face And I've never felt more ugly When the devil grabbed me by the legs and shook me I was gone (I was gone) Could the eater rot in time He's sucking out the lines that make you notice world as an illusion Your body pushed through it In birth it all confuses us what do I do when I'm lying on a table My mother didn't want me my whole life I've been starving 9 months to grow inside you my life was as fresh as the mind of an infant Where did I go hell I knew that my heart wouldn't make it You said it you said it Homes where death is I'll just forget it You said it you said it Homes where death is I'll just forget it Could the eater rot in time He's sucking out the lines that make you notice world as an illusion Your body pushed through it In birth it all confuses us what do I do when I'm lying on a table My mother didn't want me my whole life I've been starving 9 months to grow inside you my life was as fresh as the mind of an infant Where did I go hell I knew that my heart wouldn't make it --BOA-- If I was fearing the world I'd be generous In habit the world seems to feed what I need And in a separating ground pulled apart from me Where's cause me I erase everything When we were first born The liquid covered our bodies it harder to breathe Without a clue in the world Our fathers poisoned their wives and the life that he made for me Are you afraid of us This isn't a place for us your body is surely as sad as can be Wish I could feel again The sadness will never end Invited forever we sleep Sleep Hail deliverer the skin the skin will peel off of me Hail deliverer the skin If I hadn't meant to live If I hadn't meant to live what would I give I had a part of you You were a part of me and now it doesn't exist If I hadn't meant to live If I hadn't meant to live what would I give I had a part of you (I had a part of you) You were a part of me If I hadn't meant to live If I hadn't meant to live what would I give In hell we decide In hell we decide Hiding in the lines of the sand with the old blood I'm dying and living alone in a home with nothing I'm nothing And I mean it And I saw the afterlife you had a reason to be You had a reason to be and now their all alone We'll all be living (we'll all be living) And if they eat us They'll only show us their life is broken in pairs With the old love I'm extending my way as a full blood in this life --I Came As Dust (Left As Dust)-- I kept a cross in my right hand I dropped it into the quicksand the wood went to waste Waste faith It's broken You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving I left it there for a blind man He pulled it out with no questions and I took his place Waste faith It's broken You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving And when there's nowhere to fit It leaves us here to be compared to him How could you bend your fears The day was reduced to tears Your stomach was armor an aid that would save your life It's impossible for you to hear I kept a cross in my right hand I dropped it into the quicksand the wood went to waste Waste faith It's broken You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving I left it there for a blind man He pulled it out with no questions and I took his place Waste faith It's broken You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving And when there's nowhere to fit It leaves us here to be compared to him Breather followed me here you followed my footsteps here You fit in my head like a father I'll never remember you ever Breather followed me here you followed my footsteps here (you ever) How could you bend your fears The day was reduced to tears Your stomach was armor an aid that would save your life It's impossible for you to hear (It's impossible for you to hear) And when there's nowhere to fit It leaves us here to be compared to him And when there's nowhere to fit It leaves us here to be compared Waste faith It's broken You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving Waste faith It's broken You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving --The Spine Collection-- The old ways always get at me Throwing myself on the floor when I'm empty Call me I'm falling in front of a demon possessing Making me talk My throat gets rid of a part of me Anxiety could end it all Physically I've found that I'll stay the same And you all should have nothing to say Was afraid of living alone You could of changed it They could have saved us I need something to fill in the hole I was afraid of living alone You could of changed it They could saved us I need something to fill in the hole How pathetic my face is allergic And everything my spine gives Wanna get rid of it When there's something saddening The room writes a scene I could not exist I want to get rid of it The patches that hold my blood in I've invented a new sin The whole world takes part of it In learning I'll love him I'll love him does not exist Till then I'll be over it It's one thing I'll never miss And I'll never find a way to be happy And there's no one here no one here that's like me No one here that's like me And I'll never find a way to be happy And there's no one here no one here that's like me No one here that's like me I was afraid of living alone You could of changed it They could saved us I need something to fill in the hole I was afraid of living alone You could of changed it They could saved us I need something to fill in the hole I was afraid afraid afraid I was --Devil Walk, God Walk (Heaven Walk, Hell Walk)-- For those who mean it your skin will be cleaned The scales you have shed for the family disease Wash the salt from you palms You're sweating it out I beg for the taste of it Believing in him Devil the fear of you in me Delivering the failures that made me believe There's no life worth living that children will leave We'll separate the family disease we'll create If we're dead we'll believe It was diseased I was left just to see it The rotting flesh my teeth were all broken from feeding I found a better love as I aged It progressed and left It's not over till It's over I said Devil the fear of you in me Delivering the failures that made me believe There's no life worth living that children will leave We'll separate the family disease we'll create If we're dead we'll believe Guard them demon Let them to be headed Kill them burn them We'll be left seedless men Kill them burn them We'll be left seedless men Kill them burn them We'll be left Found myself with a cheap mask in hand Drowned out Birth has it's hands reached out to welcome the sound of hell Open your eyes breathe now But don't move your mouth Open your eyes child breathe now now But don't move your mouth All of my heartless life I die My voice will change when I start to smile My mind gets eaten away our children die die Wash the salt from your palms you're sweating it out I beg for the taste of it Wash the salt from your palms sweating it out I beg for the taste of it Guard them demon Let them to be headed Kill them burn them We'll be left seedless men Kill them burn them We'll be left seedless men Kill them burn them We'll be left All of our sons and our daughters are dead And the birth that we stole Eater grows old

There's no life worth living

This song has to be one of the most emotional songs ive heard the " oh my son why did you leave me" always gets me, its clearly about abortion and the affects of it. If you never heard this song I recommend it!!