안녕하습니까? 스물 여덟살이 되는 스물 일곱 살의나 입니다. C'etait the last day of my 27th year en cette vie. C'est l'autre annee foullée, isn't it? While my 28/29 is coming in next 100 days, at least I need to leave a trace to mark that this 27/28 age really existed.
28, I'm a person full of conflict. I think in multiple languages but none is perfect. Je sais bien mais je sais rien. I thought I should have achieved well but I'm way behind. Things go like a swift these days although things stand still. Je ne sais pas, juste that I've become more accepting, calmer. Just like 남준이 said we just live, simply live. Looking back one of my success for this year, although failing all other goals is that I view the world/ try to mould myself with a more positive lense. Idk whether it's good or bad but by this, ai have found my 소(소 하면) 확(실한) 행(복들), comme cooking, baking, eating delicious food, listening to new music, watching good movies & even my heart is more openned for more chambers (while previously I would be more reserved, cuz afraid of spending too much money for so many interests. But now like PP said: 'So what?' :P). The more diversified my heart is, the less it would be hurted by cruel world, I guess.
Another thing is that I have come to accept that I am the adult in the room. Like previously I would be looking for the help of other adultier adult and always think of me who is at 15 yrs old ++. Yes it's me now, not any adultier adult nor anyone else. I guess that's the effect of reaching to your 20s' end 🙃 (서른 is otw soon which I don't want, still.. ㅠㅠ).
Like that I also come to the realisation of the fact that my B-day should not be me-centered but a day of giving appreaction & self-reflection. Appreciation for my 부모님 who delivered me, raised me up, forgive all my subborness & support me til now. I'm still such a bad daughter who could not give back to them anything yet even on their B-day now mine. As well as appreciating all the 一期一会 I had & having since the past till now. Thanks to all of those 만남이 that has made me today: 우리 만남이 특별하진 않았지, 그리울 거야.
And lastly, a reminder for myself, let's focus on those few things so that I hope the Winter(or Autumn?!) Flower me can bloom brightly, next year (not those boring work smart & work hard any more I promise 🙃): Focus on yourself, be excellent in things that you do, don't waste time bad mouthing at others, you'll naturally rise; Tiên trách kỷ hậu trách nhân - Blame yourself first. I hope you will bloom. No I'm sure you will (cuz my dear we need $ to finance all of our interests)
誕生日おめでとう! Bon anniversaire! S̄uk̄hs̄ạnt̒ wạn keid! 생일축하해! 生日快乐! Cmsn! Happy birthday!
(I just hope that by the end of my life, I could use fluently all the 7 langues I'm struggling in, lol)
On the other hand, I asked for a peaceful day for myself, now I have it, let's look on the bright side that way 🙃
From the 27/28 me to the me who is becoming 28/29.
