It’s never against Ryder or about doubting them, it’s her wondering what was Alec thinking. She was supposed to replace him and he threw all plans out of the window. I think she felt blindsided, which is why she put so much hope in Sarissa and other asari. At the time I thought it was a bit vexing (like she’s so sure they’re going to do a better job than me?) but she realizes it’s more complicated than that. And after her loyalty mission she just... analyses herself in such a way that I couldn’t say anything after that. She had say it all herself. I gotta say, characters who are self-aware are always one step ahead of everyone and that’s Cora to me. 

the fact that you sent this at all honestly says more about you than about me. 💕    i wouldn’t have the opportunity to bring any of the muses in my head to life if it wasn’t for awesome people like you taking time to write with me, & you yourself always bring so much to your interactions that sets the scene for something to remember.    i’m humbled & i’m smiling & you’ve made my day that much brighter 😊    take care of yourself too, okay ?

it’s a very merry unbirthdaysorry for some reason alice is just in my head today wekgrge thank you so much for all the kind wishes ❤❤