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Gustave Le Bon

Where should I begin this blog? This period of time 2 years ago and this moment, the feeling is the same. It feels like I'm struggling with the mess in my head of not losing the right track. People asking me how can I keep calm like that. But two sides of my brain are colliding actually. One says "Don't change your decision. It has been made and don't even think about it. Remember the ego you!" - "C'mon, run to him and tell him apologies, let's try all your attempts to heal his heart. You know you're no good", the other whispers. But I know I'll never, ever, have that courage. I wonder if ever he gets that feeling too? Saying sorry is helpful to get us back together when everything has been said and done? We both have our own reasons to be torn apart. And this time no one wanna throw it away, none of us wanna throw our ego away and make the relationship up. And there it goes, just flows like it'll never stop again. Letting go, unofficially, but everybody all knows. He used to be... the most important person in my life. Now everything just belongs to the past... like a blink of an eye. I wish time could return right back in the previous days when we were in happiness, I might be smarter. And he would be treated better. Tonight when I saw each story written in my lil' memorandum, I feel regrets. I blame myself for hurting him and ruining our love. I asked myself if that day I ever thought this would happen today. The answer is No. But that's how life is, "what goes around comes around". Eventually it's all my fault. And I don't deny it. I'm not gonna take anything out of the shelf until I'm pretty sure he's by another good girl's side, to remind me about a special man who I let him leave without any legitimate explanation. I am sorry. Becos' we didn't end up together as we did hope it would be yesterday. So sorry for stupid things I did to you... for stupid words I ever said to you... I wish you luck and I wish it true. Think that's the best I can do for you.

Danh hoạ Raphal