#bingefreechallenge

Do you reward yourself when you reach your short-term goal? What are your rewards?

Day 1: Why are you doing the 30 day binge free challenge?

I'm doing the challenge because it's the biggest thing I've never been able to overcome.  I am in no way diagnosing myself as having binge eating disorder; I'm not based on the definition.  However, I would say about 1-2X/week for the past few months I have had a serious binge.  It almost always happens at my parents' house and usually consists of me eating a days worth of calories in 1-3 hours.  It also usually includes me eating a lot of non vegan foods even though I'm vegan.  

All I want is to get through a month and prove to myself that I'm strong enough to stop that behavior, that I'm worth it, and that I'll be a happier person for it.  I don't have the best body image, and never have, so I'm hoping that if I can make it through this month, I will be able to improve my mentality towards my body and my self-control.

Day 2: What do you define as a binge?

I don't feel like I am in the position to define a binge, so I adhere to the accepted definition of eating a unusually large amount of food in a short period of time characterized by a loss of control but does not involve a punishment like purging or overexercising after (which would be considered bulimia).  

Hmmmm. 

Cause I really feel the need to actually gain control over myself again. Lately, I've been waaaaay out of my portion sizes. It's been out of hand. Like, I could eat 4 tablespoons of Peanut Butter in a day, every day! A jar wouldn't last me 4 days! -.-

And when I come face to face with cakes and pastries, it seems to lure me in. And no matter how hard I tell myself to eat just 1/2 of the slice, I almost always end up eating more. And those peanuts! Gaaah!

I hate how unhealthy and disproportionate I feel after I indulge myself in such circumstances. It messes up with my mind. Although what I usually binge on are mostly "healthy" and "clean" foods, I still need to practice portion control and serving size again.

This started after I got back on track last June. I used to be soooooo in control of everything before that. Eeeek?