#bina;

like the snow melts

you need to be loved patiently. you need to feel the love slowly creeping in, a warning, a way to back away if you’re too scared. you need to be loved cautiously, as if you’re fragile. you need to be loved gently, because love is messy and muddy and makes your socks wet and hurts if the sun gets too close. but you need to let yourself be loved, because when you do, it’ll feel like spring.

The guts of Choi Bina

You just know, don’t you? You feel everything so deeply. Your power is instinctual, primal. Your power is only ever obvious when you need it to be; but it’s never failed you. You always know when something has turned sour, you can always feel the shift in the atmosphere. you just do.

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a story that shakes people...

you're a surprising story. people might not like you at first, because you're unlike everything they have met and read and felt before. they will say you lack sincerity. they will say you lack benevolence. they will say you're too weird. they will say your gaze is too heavy. well, you're as heavy as a heart. you beat and thrive and suffocate sometimes. you're a story with plot holes that might infuriate people but also make you unique. you're a story people think about for a long time. you're a beautiful accident in the grand scheme of life and you're marvelous. you're a story i'd like to write, once, twice, maybe forever. the kind of story to remind myself it's okay to struggle - it's a proof energy is still there.

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MY FRIEND

There was once a very lovely, very frightened girl.

Choi Bina as "Holly Golightly"

Breakfast at Tiffany's

Anxiety is your middle name. You need to check in with other people or beliefs when you take a step because the world is dark and you are so small, so fragile, and you've been hurt so many times before. You were bullied or hurt before, by people you trusted or people you loved, and despite all that you find yourself stumbling into other people, into bandaged trust because all you want is to be secure, loved, safe, supported. But maybe instead you long to be loved, long to find solace in the arms of someone else but can't bare to draw near enough to anyone long enough to feel safe and ache, ache, ache for company. The world is dark and you're so lonely it hurts sharper than any wound. How can you trust when it's all be shattered so many times before? How do you trust yourself when you've let so many in? You are a thousand contradictions, a thousand bits and pieces picked up along the way and maybe even this doesn't sound right, maybe nothing sounds right. You are so lonely and so afraid and you just want to be safe. Secure. Loved. You're so tired of being afraid.

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Tagging: @khaoticstar , @witherosario and anyone who like to do it!

CHOI BINA!

1. WHAT DOES YOUR MUSE SMELL LIKE:

Lavender and citrus are her to go scents when she doesn’t visit her flower shop. That’s when she will small like a bouquet of flowers and will even vary depending on the season since many flowers only grow during certain times. She has tired to wear other scents but they are just too strong so she sticks to what she likes.

2. WHAT DOES YOUR MUSE’S HANDS FEEL LIKE:

Even though her hands look small and dainty, they have small callouses on the palms and occasionally cut’s from working with the flowers. Some have told her that they feel like lcold sandpaper. Most people wouldn’t think her hands have seen any hard work but it was her grandfather that trained her to fight and she couldn’t loving flowers and their thorns.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR MUSE USUALLY EAT IN A DAY:

Though her aunt cooks on a daily basis for the family, she like to eat rice and egg in the morning while the rest of the day is just anything she is in the mood for or what is around the house. Bina has never been very picky and just likes to eat good food. Her family called her a glutton since her favorite food is basically everything.

4. DOES YOUR MUSE HAVE A GOOD SINGING VOICE:

Her friends use to say she had an amazing voice but Bina never saw the appeal. Sure it was easy to put her baby cousin’s to sleep and she likes to sing a tune when tending to her flowers but it was nothing praise worthy. She sings a lot more these days but its usually when no one is around to hear.

5. DOES YOUR MUSE HAVE ANY BAD HABITS OR NERVOUS TICKS:

When dealing with her insecurities and mental breakdowns, she would pick at her nail beds or even bite at her fingernails. On occasion, though it happened a lot more when she was younger, Bina would ignore everyone around her and just coup herself up in her room, pulling at her hair until she could need to cut it. The habits are not as common now but they show up once in a while

6: WHAT DOES YOUR MUSE USUALLY LOOK LIKE / WEAR:

Most days she is in business suits and dresses but only what is the latest in season of fashion. Bina doesn’t look it but she is pretty fashion savvy and has the money to cover her expensive taste. Casually though, you won’t see her in anything to extravagant from jeans, skirts, baggy t-shirts, etc. Her style is a bit big for her but she like the comfort and is only keen on anything thing tight if she wants to show off her figure.

7. IS YOUR MUSE AFFECTIONATE? HOW MUCH? HOW SO:

Bina has always been affectionate to family, friends and former boyfriends, though she always respected boundaries. She likes to have the physical contact that allows to others to see her emotions and how much she cares. The only time she is ever reserved in her clinginess is when she is really interested in someone since unfortunately she has scared some people, thinking she was some weirdo.

8. WHAT POSITION DOES YOUR MUSE SLEEP IN:

Her position when sleeping is kinda all over the place. Sometimes on her back, her side or on her stomach, face into her pillow. Once in a while the body pillow will come out and she knocks out clinging to it. She isn’t a busy sleeper and tends to stay in one spot after about 20 minutes of changing what position felt the best for the night

9: COULD YOU HEAR YOUR MUSE IN THE HALLWAY FROM ANOTHER ROOM:

what form of gentle affection are you? - Choi Bina

holding hands

the gentle physical affection... getting to subtly show your love to the world... feeling that new puppy love no matter how long you've been together... you want a love that is sweet and gentle, where every date you go on feels like your first. you want to be showered in romantic gestures, to be praised and adored, for every moment to be worthy of saving in your internal scrapbook. you want every kiss to be a memory. although an admirable goal, it is important to keep in mind that love is not always easy, and occasionally requires some effort. although you should never endure abuse or neglect, it is normal for relationships to have bumps in the road; do not treat these bumps like mountains.

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