#billythemuppet

YEAH YEAH YEAH EXACTLY! i agree with you!! it’s like i said in my post he was just afraid, and didn’t believe it. there were a few epiphanies, one was when oz refused to give him up to babs (”i…. don’t know what it means…” that line REALLY messed me up bc… it meant he didn’t completely disregard what oz did, it meant he was reassessing what he thought. ‘don’t know what it means’ is code for ‘i thought you didn’t truly love me but you just almost sacrificed yourself for me which, bc i know you so well, i know is a huge thing …. i don’t know… if maybe what i thought was wrong. i don’t know what it means…’) and another was when oz gave up his revenge for him. see, most people seem to think all of ed’s ??? about what oz does is him being stupid and not seeing oz loves him, but for me, and for you it looks like… to me i think he DOES know he just doesn’t BELIEVE it fully until later, until oz repeatedly proves he cares about HIM beyond his own desires. that’s the reason ed is always asking WHY oz is doing stuff for him. why are you doing that? that doesn’t benefit you. why are you saving me? that’s only for my own sake. why did you forsake revenge for me, when you could’ve just gone and gotten it? why did you save me, when you could just leave me to die especially after everything i did to you? i’m not WORTh saving, i’m not WORTH your love, i don’t DESERVE it, i don’t have ANYTHING TO OFFER you, so WHY??

i think he was projecting a little again, you know when he was talking about all the shit oswald had did to him, bc he knows he’s done worse. the only part that was him was when he thought oswald had broken his trust and brought him back to use him JUST LIKE HE THOUGHT OSWALD WOULD DO. and THAT’S WHY it broke him so much. that’s why it broke his heart. it was like proving all his doubts and fears. but then oswald was showing him that he had nothing to do with it, and ed must still have a lot of trust for oswald, bc he believed him OVER his own fears and doubts. when he said he didn’t do it. so i think… maybe he’s starting to truly believe oz loves him. he wouldn’t believe him if he didn’t think that maybe, actually, some part of oz loving him were true. and so he steps closer, into the space oz has left between them, and stands very, very close. close enough that oz could do something, snatch the gun, catch him off guard. bc he trusts him, and he begins to believe the love, even if he still can’t understand WHY the love is there.

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what was that fucking childrens book or movie or whatever that had The Scoop where if you were a bad kid you got your brain scooped out of your skull?? speaking of creepy childrens shit lol

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