#biggod

Inspired by my Queen, Florence + The Machine’s Big God.

In my last post - I said or at least tagged - I needed to shout.

And that's part of the reason I am writing this blog, to find my voice, to find my purpose and to find my identity.

You see I have been hurting for a long time, ladened by the mistaked of my past and not really knowing how to navigate through them. I guess its only when we truly ackownledge the pain and truth of who were are and what we have done can we then take responsibility and move forward. I hope that is where I am heading to. you see I have never really been able to take full responsibility for my actions or behaviour, if anything I have tried to avoid it at all cost. Seeing resposibility as a weakness and not a strength is probably one of my biggest downfalls.

I could list a million reasons why I am unable to take responsbility or ownership for my actions but that would be doing everyone a disservice. so what do I really need to do?

what I really need to do is take action, take responsibility and take ownership of my life. to stop leaving things to chance and hoping things will get better. I need to take life by the horns so to speak and get some control back over my life. but how?

I think the first thing I need to do is to admit to myself that I was wrong, I was wrong to mistreat my parents I was wrong to jump to conclusions, I wrong to do things that werent right.

I probably need to forgive myself for not knowing, not knowing how relationships work, not knowing that people have emotions and not knowing how important it is for all of us to be responsible for our own actions.

It would be easy for me to write on here how my parents never taught be how to be responsible, how to share, to give or to recieve. but again that would be not taking ownership for my life.

so I think the best I thing I can do right now is to give all the things that didnt make sense in my life over to the creator God and ask him to make sense of what is at this present moment, help me to understand the things that didnt make sense growing up, help me to reliquish and guilt, pride or arrogance over to him.

Big God: Unleashing Faith with Terrian's Powerful Performance

The song "Big God" performed by Terrian at the 2024 K-LOVE Fan Awards expresses a powerful message of faith and resilience in the face of adversity. It highlights the belief in a God who is infinitely larger than life's challenges, emphasizing themes of strength, hope, and the importance of community support, as seen through Terrian’s involvement with AngelStreet Memphis. The lyrics convey a sense of assurance and encouragement, focusing on the unwavering faith that believers can have in a loving and mighty God who helps them navigate through struggles and fears. The context of the song reflects the biblical teachings found in multiple scriptures that speak about faith in God, such as: - Isaiah 41:10 (NIV): “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” - Philippians 4:13 (NIV): “I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” - Psalm 34:4 (NIV): “I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.” Terrian was born and raised in Memphis, TN where she has rooted herself in community and mentorship being part of AngelStreet Memphis. AngelStreet mentors girls through musical training in areas with limited artistic opportunities while empowering the girls to understand their value, discovering their purpose and becoming creative leaders.

Big God Lyrics: Terrian's Inspiring Anthem of Faith