#bigger rant

I'm like where are you for all less known idols who go trhough the same shit ? Where are you ? Where were you for others? Why Kris has a special treatment ? Why did i see some fan projects for him ?

Don't get me wrong, this shit is sad and Kris was part of the few exo members i like (Kris, Kai, Lay, DO and Chen are the only ones i like) instead i don't like exo as a group. But Why all this fuss for Kris but nothing for others ? Is Kris more special?

At least Kris want to leave and decided it. When Idols like Alexander or Kibum from Ukiss are forced to leave (while everything was good in the group) i saw nobody... Just Kissme to cry

So when i saw other fandoms (in my case, like Starlights or Shawols i'm kind of part) asking me to support Exo, i'm kind of irritated.

Something I just realized is that I don't put up with people's crap! I really don't. I can't stand it when people are fake and obnoxious. It's one of my biggest pet peeves! I hate when I act weird and I'm just trying to be myself and everyone else just stares at me. But no! When they act weird , they're cool and funny, and OMG BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! Gosh, I'm so thankful high school is over because I don't have to put up with all of those people's crap. At least in college you hang out with people who you like, and you all have different schedules! 

I'm in a pretty ranty mood today which is normal for me. Once in awhile it's good to let it all out. I'm human for crying out loud. Like it's a crime or something to be frustrated!!! 

Wow, I was typing really angrily for a second.

Okay I have calmed down.

But you get the point. People are annoying. 

I told you on Wednesday that I have just lost £400. Obviously. I'm not going to "have money for food and drink". Especially not when I owe you £65. 

Also. You spoke to me on Wednesday. It is now Saturday, that is 2 days - not 3. Perhaps you should learn to count, as well as listen to people. 

& Reasonable? You don't know the fucking meaning of the word.

I lost my fucking best friend, okay maybe in pet form, but she was my best friend. And you were pestering me everyday like 'is this long enough?' NO.

I'M NOT GOING TO GET OVER HER THAT QUICK. I'm still not over it yet. I still cry, every single day. But would you even know that? Would you even care? 

You don't take my thoughts, feelings or opinions into consideration, at all. I don't see why I should spend all my life trying to please you, like I have tried (and failed) to do for the last 7 months. I'm seriously fed up of it, you don't give me any of it back or even listen to me. And no, you won't understand 'cause it's never fucking happened to you clearly. You've clearly had people walking around doing your dirty work for you all the time, well it's time to stand on your own two feet and grow up. 

I've done fucking everything for you when I was with you, I never thought about myself and how I felt about something, I did what you wanted, for you. I might have thought to myself, 'I don't want to do this', but I still did anything you wanted because I wanted you to be happy. It's clear you don't feel the same way about me, 'cause you don't do anything I want. And quite frankly, I'm only asking for one thing. 

You constantly throw all your toys out of the pram when things don't go your way, it's like dealing with a toddler who isn't allowed sweets before his tea. It's fucking ridiculous. You're nearly 20, and you go into strops because I'm trying to get over one of the hardest times in my life and therefore need time and space? It's ridiculous.

It's safe to say, you've ruined this for yourself. You claim you've changed, after telling me you'd never change.. And clearly, the first thing was the truth and the second was another lie you'd spring on me to see whether I'd fall for it. Maybe I half did, that's why I tested you with listening to me etc.. and you failed. So it's clearly a lie I shouldn't have fallen for, and I'm glad I didn't. Clearly a leopard never changes it's spots. 

I feel like I can't come on Tumblr, Twitter or Facebook anymore. You clearly read every single thing I post like it's about you. I can't go on Facebook without you popping up on chat, and seriously. It's creepy as.