I usually don't get depressed.. it's really weird actually.  I usually don't vent my feelings either. I usually just keep them inside until I explode... or implode whichever comes first. I also have nothing to vent about. I mean I REALLY have no idea what's going on. maybe it's just the pain?? I'm not mad or angry JUST REALLY FUCKING DEPRESSED. I honestly have no reason to be.

Thanks you so much for caring. I don't know what the problem is. I'm just in pain.. like everywhere. Maybe I'm working too hard? it's mostly in my lower tract.. maybe I lifted someone that was too heavy? idk what it is. I'm also really depressed. It's the holidays, and the pain mostly... I just want it to stop.