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A/N: this is a scrap but since it's christmas, i decided to share it with you <3 marry christmas if you celebrate

it was christmas time. we were all at the avengers compound, tony, dummy, steve, peter parker, clint and wanda were decorating the christmas tree that stood in the main living room, natasha was just hanging up the mistletoe on the doorway between the kitchen and the living room.

"hey, you, i need a hand." she nodded my way, since i was the only one that wasn't busy: i stood in the kitchen, watching natasha. i had a thing for her and seeing her hanging up the mistletoe was just so adorable to me, imagining how it would look like to spend all the christmases left in my life with her.

as soon as she asked for help, i went up to her and looked her in the eyes, waiting for her to say what she needs me to do.

"i need you to, uh...to hold me because it feels like i'm gonna fall down." she said as she got on top of the chair so she could reach the top of the doorway since she was too small to do so.

i held her by the waist with one hand, and her hand with the other.

as soon as she attached it, she got of the chair and mouthed a small 'thank you'. she was ready to take the chair back where it belongs, but i grabbed her arm to stop her. she looked at me, confused but put the chair down again.

So, roaming around the corner of this shady area of trees and stems made me feel like these trees are just like “ME”🥀.

sumarry: nat feels stressed out from her missions lately and can't sleep because of it, reader wants to help her and suggest a trip

A/N: this is a longer one. anyway i think it turned out pretty well, i really like this one and i hope you will too. requests are welcomed and feedback appreciated <3 enjoy

natasha and i thought it would be a good idea to take a trip and spend some time somewhere else than our home or the avengers base. we packed only the most important things we couldn't go without like toothbrushes, some clean underwear and money. natasha took her favorite bomber jacket in a bag. she was wearing a black leather jacket and she knew damn well that i'll steal it from her at some point even though i was already wearing her favorite hoodie. we packed two peanut butter sandwiches, put it in the bag too and threw the bag on the backseat of our car. natasha was driving, one of her hands on my thigh, the other on the wheel. we were both quiet, enjoying each other's presence in silence, only to the sound of radio at a low volume.

"thank you for doing this. i needed a break." she said suddenly. the whole thing was my idea, knowing natasha was stressed about all the missions lately and couldn't sleep well because she felt the need to be ready if anything happened. to get her away from all that, trying to make her feel better and help her relax, i recommended that we should get away from here and she agreed immediately, the next morning we went. natasha was in for everything. when it came to spending time with her loved ones (or saving them) she was down for any idea.

"of course, nat." i placed my hand on top of hers and smiled, getting lost in her eyes even though they were focused on the road. she was chewing a gum, her face was relaxed. her hair was tied back into a braid. i sank deeper into the seat. i was so in love with the woman. i smiled to myself at the thought of her being all mine. i even chuckled quietly, looking down to our hands as i played with the ring on her ring finger - it was a ring i gave her one day because it reminded me of her. she never took it off eversince.

"what's up?" she rasped softly, smiling, only glancing at me by the corner of her eyes for a second. she was overly careful when she was driving with me in the car.

"uh, it's nothing." i said, looking back up at her.

"oh?" she glanced at me for a moment, but brought her eyes back to the road right after. she was smiling. she didn't know why, she was smiling because she was happy i was smiling. she had no idea what i was smiling about.

"it's just- i'm so lucky." i mumbled, knowing she'll deny that i'm lucky because i have her. she stood by her own thought that i deserve the whole world, that i deserve the best, which, in her opinion, wasn't herself. in my eyes though, she was the whole world and i felt like i didn't deserve any part of it. not even a small part of it such as a small rock from the ground or, in this case a one glance from her or even breathing the air around her.

she rolled her eyes playfully and shook her head.

soon enough, we stopped at a hotel somewhere. we booked ourselves in so we could have a place to spend the night. but since it was only around lunchtime, we put the bag on the king sized bed, took our sandwiches and went to look for a nice place to have our lunch at. i walked around the city with natasha's arm around my shoulders, our fingers interlocked as my hand was bent in the elbow towards my shoulder so i could reach her. her soft kisses on my face, in my hair, everywhere, just enjoying and celebrating the fact i'm all hers.

"careful, tasha, they might know you as a deadly assassin." i joked, making the redhead playfully shaking her head in response.

"quiet, детка (detka), enjoy the attention while you've got it." she teased, smiling widely.

"damn you, tash." i leaned in to kiss her cheek, but the russian saw it coming and turned her head so i'd meet her lips instead of the soft skin. i was taken by surprise when i tasted the chapstick and felt her tongue parting my lips to get it. we stopped walking and we could hear the people behind us complaining, whispering about us or even making sounds of disgust.

natasha took her arm down from my shoulder but took my hand back in hers, caressing my knuckle with her thumb.

"cmon i know a place." she whispered into my ear, glancing into my eyes quickly, checking if i'm ready to run with her. she nodded forwards, and slowly began running. i understood right away and run with her, still holding hands. she took me to a park with a small gazebo. we ran to the gazebo, sitting down to the bench.

"how do you know this place?" i asked as natasha handed me one of the sandwiches since she had them both in her pocket the whole time.

"uh. google." she confessed and i laughed at her, wondering what she searched up to find it. when we finished our lunch, we explored the city and visited a few shops until the sun went down.

"let me take you out for a dinner." natasha said as we left one of the shopping centers and pushed me against its wall gently.

"alright. but let's stop at our hotel room real quick." i placed a quick kiss on the tip of her nose. she smiled and grabbed my hand, leading us the way to our hotel. when we entered the room, i took a black dress from the bag. i went to the bathroom to change and when i came back, i saw nat with a white button up shirt tucked in her black pants. the first two buttons from the top weren't connected, showing her perfect golden skin and a silver necklace with a tiny heart outline hanging over her collar bones.

"damn." i cursed under my breath, looking her up slowly. guess the both of us didn't only take the important things.

"like it?" she smiled, waiting for me to look into her eyes.

"you look...you're breathtaking." i said, placing my hand on her shoulder, pulling her in for a kiss, feeling the weight of her hand slowly falling on my waist.

"you know you look pretty stunning yourself." she whispered as we stood there, foreheads connected, hands all over one another, just enjoying our time together.

i blushed at her comment, remembering how tight the dress was, revealing the shape of my figure, silver earrings hanging from my ears. natasha held out her hand in the air, waiting for me to hold her. my fingers were decorated with a few silver sings, while natasha only wore the one i once got her.

"are you sure you wanna go into public like this? people might want to steal you from me." i chuckled, pulling aways so i could look at her one more time. natasha chuckled at my words, kissing my cheek gently.

"they may want to, but they won't. i'm only yours." she smiled and picked me up by my waist.

"all mine." i whispered, running my fingers down her cheek, not being able to believe my own words. natasha smiled and pulled me into a kiss. deep. hungry. beautiful kiss. heaven-like.

we found a restaurant nearby. we waited a few minutes for the waiter. once he came, he was slightly panicking, not sure whether it's because he got to serve the famous black widow or simply by her outfit. she wore no bra and the waiter took an advantage of that, trying to get a cleared view somehow. i told him what i'd like to order but he didn't quite listen, staring at my girlfriend.

"i'm sorry am i distracting you?" she said suddenly, anger and disgust filling her voice and held out my hand on the table.

"no, of course not. pardon me. could you repeat your order, please?" he gave his attention to me. natasha and i both ordered some food for dinner, nat took care of the drinks. she ordered the best wine they had, to celebrate our wonderful time spent together. when the waiter left, we both started laughing.

he brought us our food later but he barely look at tasha this time. he probably knew he wouldn't be able to get his eyes off, which i totally understood cause i had that problem myself.

we finished our food, paid for it and left.

"i don't wanna go to sleep yet. ooh, i've got a nice idea. we can go to a club or something, i wanna dance." she said, grabbing my hand excitedly.

"i don't really feel like socializing tonight, sorry. could be rather go tomorrow?" i confessed carefully, trying not to disappoint her.

"oh no that's completely okay." she smiled, leaning in to kiss my cheek. "let's take a picture since we look this nice." she suggested, about to pull her phone from her back pocket.

"i've got a better idea, nat." i said as i grabbed her hand to stop her from taking the phone. i got her adorable confused facial expression for a response, making me chuckle and my eyes softened at the sight of her.

"we could go to that little photobooth that's usually at shopping centers." i said, capturing her lips softly with mine. natasha agreed, took me by the hand and we ran to the shopping center near us.

we took pictures. there were four of them: on the top one we were making silly faces, the second from the top was a picture of us kissing, the third was tasha giving me a kiss on cheek while i was smiling and the last is just her and i looking at each other, laughing which we did on accident but it ended up well.

we only got one stripe of pictures but we were planning on making a copy when we got back home so each of us could have one copy of their own.

"you know we're actually pretty fucking cute together." tasha laughed, pressing a kiss into my cheek.

"yeah, we really are." i agreed, turning my head to gaze into her eyes. i couldn't look away for a while, her eyes were mesmerizing.

"are you tired?" she asked, looking at the ground, locking her arm into mine.

"not really, but maybe we should get back to our apartment already." i said. nat didn't say anything to that, we just went.

we arrived to the hotel and tasha waa about to change. i took her hand and pulled it away from the buttons on her shirt to stop her from taking it off.

"you wanted to dance." her eyes met mine and i noticed the way they softened. her lips curved into a small smile and her eyes kept exploring mine. her smile was slowly getting bigger and natasha got shy. she looked at the ground to hide her smirk away from me.

"you're the best." she said, taking my hands in hers, looking back up at me, showing me her wide smile, making me smile too. i reached out to natasha's phone since we only took hers in case of emergency and played a playlist with songs to slow dance from my spotify.

we danced, laughed, kissed, fell a couple of times because our legs got tangled up. we had a lot of fun and natasha seemed genuinely happy and relaxed and i loved to see her like that.

when we were finished, she pressed her forehead against mine, holding both of my hands. her eyes were closed, enjoying the feeling of my skin against hers. i was looking at her relaxed expression for a while, then i closed my eyes aswell.

we stayed that way for a while, i waited until she pulled away first.

"hey thank you for doing this." she said, smiling softly.

i didn't reply since there's wasn't much to say.

i went to take a shower and when i came back from the bathroom i saw nat laying on her back in the bed.

"c'mere. let's cuddle." she reached out her arms to me.

"you're going to sleep in this?" i asked, referring to her unchanged outfit.

"yeah i'm too lazy to move." she groaned.

i rolled my eyes playfully and help her sit up on the bed.

"hands up." i tapped her shoulders and she did as i said. i pulled the shirt over her head and threw it on the bed. we were used to being naked with each other, we often took showers or baths together, so this moment wasn't awkward for us at all. but her body, her golden, smooth skin, i would never get tired of seeing that. i ran my fingers over her collar bone and kissed her cheek. natasha watched every movement i made. i took her hoodie from the bag and pulled it over her head. i moved down to unbutton her pants and pulled it down her legs. when she was changed i turn off the lights and laid down next to her. she was laying on her bed and pulled me in. she loved to cuddle. she wrapped her arms around my head, pulled me close to her chest and kissed the top of my head.

"i love you so so much." she whispered into the silence of the room.

"i love you more." i mumbled into her arms.

moments later i fell asleep but i woke up a while later. i glanced at my girlfriend and noticed she's still awake. it was around two am and she hasn't slept for weeks now.

"natasha." i mumbled sleepily, getting up on my elbow to face her. she glanced back at me, she was obviously tired. her eyelids were falling down but she didn't let them.

"natasha go to sleep." i whispered, hiding my face in the crook of her neck.

"i wish i could. it's okay though, i'm okay." she whispered. her voice was exhausted.

"can't sleep, huh? you okay?" i got back up to look at her.

"well i just always expect something to go wrong. i guess i'm just too anxious of my job lately and i need to be ready in case someone attacked us. it's haunting me." she confessed.

"but you're safe here. i'm here, i'll protect you. you need to sleep, nat. you haven't properly slept in what: three weeks now?"

"i know but it's not that easy. throughout my life i've lost everyone close to me. i guess it's affected me and all the time i fear i might lose you, too. and if i did, i'd never get over it. you know, i would pretend i'm okay but i'd never be completely okay. a part of me would forever be missing you and blaming myself."

"natty but you don't have to. i'm right here. i'm okay, i'm safe. and so are you. no need to worry, darling. i promise."

there was a moment of silence, she let my words sink in and thought about them.

"come with me, i'll make you a bath. it might help you relax a little." i said, tugging on her arm.

"котенок (kotenok) you really don't have to take care of me." she said, letting me help her stand up.

"well, tash, you deserve to be taken care of. and also i want to." i said, leading her to the bathroom.

she took her clothes off while i ran her a bath. she laid down in the bathtub and i saw her muscles relax.

"i'll be right back." i said, kissing her forehead gently.

i left the bathroom and went to the kitchen cabinet. i found a box with last two teabags in it and took one of them while i boiled water. i poured it in, waited for it to be done and headed back to the bathroom.

"do you want me to join you?" i asked gently as i handed her the cup of warm tea.

"yeah, if you don't mind." she mumbled, opened her eyes slightly to watch me undress and took the tea from my hand, taking a sip. she placed it on the edge of the tub and sat up so i could get behind her and she could lay in between my legs on my chest. i caressed and massaged her shoulders and soon i could feel her body fall asleep.