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Better Fishing and Beach Foraging has now been updated for 1.6!

ALL fish, aquarium poses, crab pot catches, foraging, tank decor, and misc related items have been completed and are now live and functional! Thanks so much for your years of patience, I hope you can enjoy the completed mod.

Rewriting history takes more skill than I think I have

No matter how many times i try to write a story

Or poems

Or journals

All I do is circle around watching my life flash around my head

Never learning how to make things better 

If I learn anything it’s another way my pain, and her pain, and our pain manifested over the years

Staring at the pages I have filled with words I see how broken I really am. /

And I don’t even get to live any adventures 

All my pain is stupid and pointless

Because my story is empty and dry

Not even good enough to be in a realistic fiction story

If I was the lead of a story people would call it boring and drab

/

The history I can read through my files of words tell me I was sick before I even knew

Good to know that no one saw, or cared 

Should have known this before, it took so much to make them see this time anyway

And way back in childhood when we all had our heads screwed on wrong

How would any of them have even known how to help

/

The story can’t be rewritten 

Accepting that I will never have gotten to not have suffered in the past

It has passed 

I can not have not lived through it

Sickness, abuse and pain will live in my bones forever more

I just don’t get a do over 

/

At least i know no one else gets one either

/

History is written by the victors sure, but we can’t re-fight wars, save lives that were lost

But I really hope that maybe the story I look back on in many years 

And not regret all of it

If I only get a day or multiple years 

The story might get to be better

/

But I don’t see how

Living with the same body, the same people, and as alone I will ever be

Life has not gotten better

If anything everything is worse with more grief and more hatred

/

All I can do is try

But I’m running thin on hope