#bespal

Like I used to pour it into my cup

my measurements were never precise

somedays it felt kinda light

but somedays it felt too bitter

yet I can't start my day without you

otherwise it will be a long day

with no compass to direct me home

not only to start a day

when the sun goes down

replaced by shimmering things

called moon and stars

I start to think of you

crave you once again

this addiction is not make sense

but the taste of you

perfectly fits my foggy lungs

and that's I can't deny

I can take you as your are

with or without sugar

hot or cold

light or strong

those things never bother me

cos I'm already addicted

to the bitterness of you

oh yes you

It's been a years since then..

but in between my crazy routine, why can't I be alone without thinking about you when no one is around?

Sometimes I feel numb, sometimes I crumble til I feel like there is nothing more left, just an endless rue.

I know that I will always missing you, Liebe. I know that for sure.

"It's been five years and I still feel it all, It's been five years why can't I let you go?"

And that's hurts,

"I internalized the feelings,

I knew I'd never follow