“ You and Tiamat are two unlike things. Don’t fool yourself that she can ever understand you. ”
a ghost of history stumbles backwards into the darkness. it eludes her again and she almost mourns it. she wishes she understood it, wishes she could try, but following myths has always been a futile task, even for her. she watches the view from the doorway: and, wrapped up in potent emptiness, she thought she imagined the silhouettes taking shape across the street. and still, she knows what hides in the darkness. she has always known. she was so young when she came to tiamat, her chest nearly torn apart and her soul sorely bruised from the pain that had scarred her. for years, she would have sobbed at her feet, knowing there would be no comfort. shams wanted a choice and the two of them gave her the barriers, the ghosts, the inevitable curse. tiamat, however, felt more brutal than her brother. when she wanted comfort, all she was offered was the truth.
it often felt as if she walked beside her: as if she lived beneath the bridge, as if she felt the yearning of a monster. whether she ought to hate the dragoness or not, she has always felt like she was a friend not much behind. because bahamut might have been a mentor to her, but that was all he ever truly was. his goodness was radiant (and perhaps so was hers), but she knew the rot inside of her had no place in his home. so as she stares out into that inescapable darkness now, it begins to storm. thick, unrelenting, the rain soaks through the streets, the buildings, trees obediently in the way until they snap. misty raindrops blow into her eyes and nestle like needles in her skin. she lets out a breath as she studies @bendwill. how alike do you have to be to someone for them to understand you? she thinks it, but what comes out is more of a speculation than anything. either way, it is one worth making. ❛ do you understand her, then? tiamat? ❜
when she says her name, it is almost as if she's hunting for the shadow she swore she saw earlier so she can confirm it wasn’t real. it doesn't matter, in the end, because she is no longer the blind girl from before. the days before the divine statis were long gone. the cave has never been her refuge: it was only a place where she had chosen to die. in the celestial downpour that almost wiped her from the face of the earth, she still stands and with the greatest reverence she holds out her hand. to what, one may ask? everything, nothing. ❛ i know i am not, but your words aren't heard by unwilling ears. thank you. ❜ she stops, head tilting. the sorceress has never truly worshipped either gods, but she had heard whispers about the betrayer here and there. it's hard not to, considering the stories others share. it interests her, truly, because it is not often she meets someone who had dealt with the archdevil. ❛ what do you think of bahamut, then? or have you not given him much thought? ❜