#benandrey

Artist credit: panacapuccino (I think I spelled that right but it’s also on the image)

If anyone knows her Tumblr, please tag. 🩷

I'm not even sure why I thought about that this morning 🤣🤣🤔🤔

𝒲𝒽𝓎 𝒸𝒶𝓃 𝐼 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁 𝓎𝑜𝓊?

𝐵𝑒𝒸𝒶𝓊𝓈𝑒 𝐼’𝓂 𝒶𝓅𝒶𝓇𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝓎𝑜𝓊.

𝒯𝒶𝓀𝑒 𝒸𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓂𝓎 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓉.

𝐼 𝓅𝓇𝑜𝓂𝒾𝓈𝑒.

your eyes are brown and empty

her eyes are brown too

but they hold something precious inside them

you want to know what that feels like

to hold universes inside the crinkled edges of your smiling eyes

even just a star or two is more than you could ask for

but you could never ask her to give you even a sliver of the light wrapped up within her

it spills out everywhere from all her soft and untouched edges

you want to touch each and every one of those places where the light trickles out

and then you want to touch each and every place in between

but you could never ask her even to touch a single ray of light

and all of a sudden you don’t have to

she sees you and your empty brown eyes

and she smiles at how they reflect the light back to her

and she has never seen anything like you before

no one ever told her about the light that dripped from her eyes

or the glow that wrapped itself up around her

so softly

and she sees it in your eyes for the very first time

the light she imagined on an island in the ocean at night

she had dreamed of it before

she had known you before

a very very long time ago

and all of a sudden you had known her too.

you speak to each other without words of the light on the island out in the sea

she tells you that she would see it at night, desperate to sleep.

you tell her that you see it too.

and you feel her reaching out to you through darkness, for she brings light.

you close your eyes and feel her hands on your face, her fingers lost in your hair.

she smiles and you see it without opening your eyes.

this is what you could not ask for.

your heart may as well explode with how full of love it is, both yours and hers.

and then you feel it, the first and last touch you’ll ever know.

she kisses you, gently, almost asking if you want her too.

and you do, so you kiss her back, not gently.

but there is too much desire on her lips and she pulls you closer, holding you too tight to her chest

and you love it

you love her

and you don’t even know what love is

because no one has loved you or even touched you before.

and all of a sudden you know it, she loves you too.

it’s the same feeling you get whenever she used to look at you before.

but you never knew what she meant until now.

and then a wild peace washes over both of you with reckless abandon

it takes both your soft and tattered edges and with gentleness ties you together

and you hear it whisper almost silently that this is the belonging you both seek.

this is the peace and this is the quiet.

this is the love and this is the light.

now it is your turn to smile back at her, and it is the first time you’ve smiled in years.

you haven’t forgotten how though.

she sees your smile without opening her eyes either.

you feel something changing in your eyes,

a shifting under your closed eyelids and the more deeply she kisses you and more you feel it.

you don’t know how long you’ve had you eyes closed or how long she has been kissing you but you’ve got to open your eyes and find out what that was.

it almost hurts take your lips away from hers, so you cover her hands with yours so you won’t have to feel your skin without them.

you open your eyes and see it, there are new lights reflecting from her eyes.

and you know they are shining from yours. she has given you what you could not ask for.

she has shared with you what you both knew you could not take.

your eyes are brown