#bellatrix-anon

I'm not going to share my conflicted thoughts with the world. I'm better now. I fell asleep earlier. My head's a bit better. Don't worry. I was just annoyed and confused. These two don't go well together.

Awww, you're so cute, I actually love what we have here. You're not just some random idiot anon posting smut, your replies do make sense.. and you do think about what you write, as we can see here. You're adorable. I lovett.I grinned so much at I'm very pleased to hear that I can be entertaining, and I made the most inhuman sound when I read the part about accurately portraying Bellatrix. and I really mean it. Loren and I are impressed. Not only by your portrayal but by your stalking skills, LOL.I don't really think you've upset anyone, I think the thing is that some people are uncomfortable or dislike it generally. And the main thing was that it was going into the direction of rape. But.. my opinion is split about that. It's obvious I'm not wanting to get raped, or that I promote rape in any way, and I don't think you'd do that either, but we're moving on fictional ground here. You're Bellatrix. And really, Bellatrix. What defines her? ... That's all I can say to that. If people take it too seriously or can't handle it.. yeah, it's my fault for not warning them, but still.. this is fun, and not to be taken serious in any way. (People don't need to read it, if they don't want to. They'd see where it goes when they'd start reading it.. and it's still my blog, right? And there's still the unfollow button.. right?)And, as I said: Don't feel bad. I mean, I didn't have to answer or push you into replying, and replying and replying again. You've not gone too far, not for me at least. (LOL) I agree with your having-posted-something. I was skyping with Loren and we just continued laughing, and we were like: "No.. I'm so not going to post that. Definitely not ... POSTED." it was hilarious. I'd be fine with continuing, actually. I don't see why we shouldn't. I don't care. And I think it's just been the rape thing. I don't know. (You can't possibly play Bellatrix without rape.. can you.) People should calm their tits. Ignore the posts and keep on scrolling. I know it's not always possible, but.. yeah, if there really is a problem -> Unfollow button. It's still my blog.The thing with Dallas. LOL. Uhm, at first, I didn't expect you to do anything about it.. lol, this sounds like I was pushing you into replying, HAHAHAHA. And second, don't take Dallas answer too seriously. I was watching her write that, I was skyping with her at that time. I really love her. She's the boss of me, I'm her fangirl, really, that's completely different ground (at least for me.. LOL, she'll hate me.. not really). We're roleplaying here. And she's real for me, there's a big difference. You're not stepping into anything here, it could be that she's meant that, but she's meant that not in a serious way. You can see that because she replied to your actual Bellatrix character. (You know, she's an amazing writer, you should read her FF, if you haven't already done it.. as you are obviously stalking my blog. LOL.) I agree that it wasn't the time yet, it's better to sort out things before going back to roleplaying, only if you're still comfortable with it, of course.

Uhm.. NONONONONONO, BELLATRIX, PLEASE DON'T END YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH ME DJFGJASDHFJHSD LOL. FOREVER IN LOVE.

I see that you took Dallas' reply very seriously, and I can totally see why.. it seemed a bit aggressive, but that's just.. Dallas. LOL. (I love her for that. I'm obsessed with her.) And she does know how to reply to crucios, I tell you. She'd be up for a duel, she's not weak, haha.

I wasn't going to end it. The posts I made were this morning, and I felt really bad, but now I've calmed down and I didn't see the point in really doing it. Loren's reaction to that was; by the way;

[22:33:27] Loren: LOL [22:33:34] Loren: Wait... are you gonna let her end it? Hahaha, look at her being disappointed. My answer was; [22:33:41] Steph: I was not going to [22:33:42] Steph: LOL Sooo.. yeah. Maybe I'll just put a warning on my tumblr now in the direction of 'MATURE CONTENT POSSIBLE' or.. I don't know. I don't really care about it too much. And I also thought about putting a Bellatrix-Anon button (leading to the tag) on the right side of my blog, LOLOLOLOLOL. I don't even know. It's far too much fun.

I don't mind long messages at all. I enjoy them. I enjoy what people think. Especially when they have something to say and they're not idiots, and obviously, you are not.

Everything's in your hands now, Bella. I bow to you.

Above all, I find it hilarious and clever that you remain anon, and I think you should leave it at that, at least for now.. it's extremely funny.

I knew you'd respond. <3

Well, at first I gotta say that I'm extremely happy that you're back. I know you didn't want to offend anyone, and for this message alone - you're adorable. You really are. Don't feel bad about anything. Little.. conversations, oh god, I love this. LOL. As you could see, some people were also liking your askbox messages, and they are also missing you, because you're absolutely entertaining. It's funny waiting for every message you drop here, seriously. Because it's so accurately Bellatrix. I did make a post about a roleplaying blog, and I really love the idea, but I don't know if it'd be the same. (You can see everything related to you here, by the way. I tagged everything.) There are people interested in it, I guess. But I'd really like to stay on my blog. (Because.. it's my blog.) Generally, I don't even care about people's opinions, and I think it's a bit.. yeah, difficult, but I do care about people I'm friends with. And I do see the problem here. I just didn't think about it, because I considered it all fun.. and you're well.. Bellatrix.

It's cute of you to say you're sorry, but in the end, this is my blog, and you're not the one to blame. If it's gone too far, I would be the one to stop. Because I can decide whether I post stuff, or not.

I didn't really have trouble because of that, no worries. I was just thinking about it and I was feeling bad. But people reassured me that they found it really amusing, so.. I guess we could continue, as long as we don't go far.. (I don't really know where that is, though.. well.. rape, but really.. you are Bellatrix.. I mean.. I don't know..) And I don't know what you'll do about this post, but.. yeah, even if you're Bellatrix and I see you can be really possessive, Dallas can be really possessive too. And I really do belong to her. That doesn't mean I could deny you, though. (Oh god, she'll forever stop loving me if she reads this here)

As far as people have read what we wrote.. I don't know, I'm not sure, I think I'll just ask them if they care, if they want to have it on their dashes, or if they don't. In the end, it's my decision. But I can ask, right?

Well.. I'll await your response to this post, as I can see you do want to reply to that. And generally your 'another ask' that you wanted to send.

Hm.. yeah.. that's enough for now, I guess.

Hm, maybe we could really arrange something like it.

But first we need Bella back on here, else it doesn't make any sense.

I miss her too.

Already.

Well.. people are getting offended by you, Bellatrix.

I must say I belong to Dallas.. I'm sorry. I do love you, Bellatrix, but Dallas owns me. For quite a while now. You can visit if you like, but I think we must end our relationship, even if it was all fun and quite entertaining. I've enjoyed it. And laughed at it a lot, especially with Loren.

Now I'll have to crawl back to my beloved genius, Dallas, and hope that she'll still accept me after what I've done with/to you. I really do love her, you know. A lot. Endlessly. She's my auntie. I'm the Draco to her Bella, and I'm obsessed with her. She is most likely my real mistress, and not you. I'm sorry, Bella. It was fun. If you'll read my last reply message to neeblack you'll understand.