in my feels today bc ive been reminiscing on the vtmb rp fandom (on how it used to be) and man... i wouldnt think id miss my muse so much out of the sudden. the interactions. the bonds she developed and the bonds that didnt have the time to bloom. like the one where feelings developed between her and a certain assamite. obviously a bad idea. obviously, and yet. like the one where she didnt realize a certain malkavian looked at her with more than just respect. like the one where another became her beating heart. i wish i hadnt deleted her blog back then, but the fandom wouldve fizzled out anyway, i guess. i just wish i could come back to that blog and read through my replies, the stories, the sorts. maybe i couldve kept some of the connections and i wouldnt have to think oh, i wonder how that couldve gone, and we couldve just plotted it and written it out :')
