#behaps

The last few days have been a whirlwind to say it simply. I uprooted my home and moved it across the city to a fresh space right next to the water. If there is anything I am most grateful for in this moment it is my friends. Thinking back on the past year there are so many instances where I could have literally fallen flat on my face, however because of my friends I made it though better than ever. I was never really in a position of stress which did wonders for what I could create and my work ethic. It is amazing how the people around you can help you achieve your best life. Energy is truly everything.

Now back to the move. 

I never realized how much I loved the water. This perk is something I never considered when choosing a home - but there is nothing like opening your front door and stepping out to inhale salty air, or being able to walk to the top of your street to see the water. Jae and I had been looking for literally months and could not find anything that was right - that was until Eva hit us up with the flaming news. It is hands down the best thing ever living with someone I can create with but also just live life with. I cannot wait for the summer and to settle in to my new place!

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Today is International Women’s Day so I decided to make a thing of it and stage an entire photoshoot. Eva (my dawg) and new roommate tagged along and we sported our new corduroy jackets we thrifted from Savers a couple days ago. She stuck to her aesthetic, layering browns and textures. I also stayed true with an all black look and docs. Check out the shoot below and make sure to let me know what you think in the comments!  

Also, who would be into a house tour?! LMK  

Whenever I find the time to travel down south I am always so grateful. It’s like a different world down there, you can be driving for miles passing greenery on both sides and it will never end. I swear there is nothing more therapeutic. I needed this moment, and so did Jae. He lost a brother last week and though I cannot say I understand completely, losing someone is always hard. Even harder if it is someone you consider to be family or your right hand man. I don’t understand because if I did, I would have been changed. This life is hard enough with the people we love surrounding us... imagine losing one of those people. 

This sadness made me grateful for the never ending land, for the time we got to take away from our busy lives. The long car rides filled with positive words and good music will heal I’m sure, but one of my favorite things about vacation is its ability to refocus you. I’m not sure what it is about being away that makes a fire grow inside of me to be at work, but it happens every time. I get an insane urge to write up todo lists and to achieve my goals, and this trip did just that for me. It allowed me to refocus in so many ways, and it allowed both Jae and I to heal. Mini vacations are great for that alone - and I am committing to making these little trips happen every once in a while. Maybe even once a month for good measure...

You never know ☺️ 

Stay tuned for more travels 💕

I have been back and forth from NY a handful of times throughout the last month and let me tell you, I believe I have graduated from being a tourist. I now have friends there, and am able to do what I love there as well. Though I don't think I’m in a place where I can live there full time, it has been nice to get away and learn a new place. To pass the time between shifts I have been plotting out my modeling career. Deciding who to cast with, and meeting with people who have reached out to me. The entire experience has been liberating and honestly I am SUPER hopeful for what is to come.

I have really been taking my dreams into consideration lately. I've always known that I could model and act in the back of my mind, but I have never felt like had the confidence or support to just do it. I finally feel like I am at a point in my life where it is all or nothing. No dramatics, just the truth, it is finally time to set everything aside and to follow my dreams. New York has been a launch pad. I have gone twice and am already planning my next trip. I will be attending FIVE castings this time, and I'm obviously very nervous. My goal is to maneuver a way to give myself a choice. To devise a plan to follow my dreams and flourish. 

Ok that last part was dramatic, but still, very serious.

 xo