#beeinghuman

yesterday i was working ...

i got up at 4:30 since i had to drive 2 trains and 2 busses to get to work since i  had to be there at 7:00, i even had to run for 1,2 kilometers to get the next bus, that... on a sidenote, i only got... because it was late. i arrived luckily only 10 min. late, which is well inside my window of arrival... and we still made it pretty  to university in time, where my client is studying to be an electro engineer and since he has a disability (sry i am not gonna talk about specifics... ), he really needs a driver and someone to take notes and help with all his daily needs.

JUST to clarify... i am not talking about my own problems here otherwise i would tell you about depression, cancer, death and how i am fighting that... i am just at a real high at my life, mindwise, but... yesterday there was this guy.

He is a white dude with an afro, fairly odd looking but... generally speaking i like ppl like that^^, he just told me... and i quote “ how i could work like that, he couldn´t do it, since he would not have the feeling of having done anything” implying this would not be worth his time...

After which i told him well... that this is okay, i won´t do this for the rest of my life anyways... and he started to ask with a belittling tone, like beeing suprised: “what do you want to do then ?”

Sadly i replied... but then it just dawned to me. When i asked him about how much he is working for his privilege, since when i was studying to be a special needs teacher i had weekly workhours up to 70 h, to get great grades... when i was looking back at him, from front row... having his head lying on the desk like so many times before, i could just not think of  any words to describe my disgust... 

The lack of social skills this guy has... the profanity... implying that my work would not be worth his time... since he is a socially awkward electronics student who is looking like a clown... and when i see his behaviour in class... probably no better than half of these guys sitting around him... looking up to a future of mediocre challenges and always the most efficient ways to gain more assets and value in a world of deconstructivism...

And all this... just because he sees me once a week in a situation where i don´t have to do anything but turning the pages for 3 hours xD this is but one part of my job... and the rest certainly CAN´T be done as good as i do with such bad social skills...  since he just obviously never thought to empathise with ppl rather than classifying them superficially.