#beaubrooksimagines

"Happy birthday baby" beau whispers in your ear, pulling some hair away from your ear his hot breath lingers on your skin as he rolls on your back as lay in bed on your stomach

"Mmm" you whine as beau lays on top of you, rubbing your eyes you yawn as he tolls off you laying next to you.

You roll over to face him with your head still on the pillow, “hows it feel to be 19” he smirks laughing, you just shrug and bite your lip. “Well we’ve got special plans today so get up” he smiles throwing the covers off him and walking towards the bathroom.

"Beau i——", "no excuses!" He says pointing back at you as he shuts the bathroom door. You sigh falling back onto the pillow. Your birthday just isnt a good day for you like it should be. Mostly because of the memories that come with it that happened on your sixteenth birthday.

Before you met beau, on your sixteenth birthday You lost your parents in a car crash. You’ve never told beau about your parents. You’re guessing he just assumed they were never around as you were living with relatives before you came to live with the boys in L.A.

Ever since then the last few years youve just wanted to forget about it and not celebrate, but its hard to forget something like that when its on such an important day in your life.

*

* After getting out of the shower you head downstairs to the kitchen where all the boys and Mariam and Ronnie are sitting around the breakfast bar and making food. “Morning” the boys smile.

You smile at them as you walk over to beau and he puts his arm around your shoulder. “Babe we’ve got a lot planned today, just for the birthday girl” he smiles down at you. Instantly your heart drops, you don’t want to do anything to remind you of what happened. “Were gonna go to the mall…..” “Bea——” you trying to interrupt him. “Then were gonna go get some lunch” “beau” he continues to talk about the plans.

“Beau stop !” You say throwing your hands up. Everyone looks at you shocked as you step back, “i don’t want to do anything why cant you understand that!” You yell with a tear falling down your face, you run out of the room upstairs slamming the bed room door

*

* Its later on, like 7:30. After the drama this morning beau tried knocking on the door to get you to open up, but you didn’t.

"(Y/N)" you hear a quiet voice from outside your bedroom door, you decide its probably time to face him. Walking over to the door opening it, "hey" you give him a small smile.

"Babe I’m so sorry" he says looking at you hopefully. "I shouldn’t have gone off at you like that", "can i show you something?", you nod your head and he takes your hand leading you downstairs

*

* As you make it to the bottom of the stairs the light are out but you can see flickers of light outside by the pool. “Beau ” you say looking up at him as he leads you towards the pool. Theres candles everywhere, pool, concrete and on the dining table laid out for you both

“You did all this” you as stunned, he looks down at you and nods smiling at how happy you look

*

* You and beau are halfway through your dinner outside. “Babe” beau says breaking the silence, “yeah”, “can i ask you something, but promise not to get mad” he says poking at the food with his fork, your a bit anxious about was he’s going to ask “okay”.

He takes a deep breath, “why’d you get so upset this morning” he said slowly looking up at you. Your heart dropped.

You didn’t know what to say, just looked at him with your mouth wide open, he looked down biting his lip.

But you decided its probably time you told him. You took a deep breath, “on my 16th birthday….”, he looked up shocked that you were finally telling him.

“….my parents died in a car accident” you said with your hands your lap and looking straight at beau.

"Aw babe I’m so sorry" he said shocked pulling you up from your seat and holding you tight. "Its been a while now, but i guess thats why i don’t really like celebrating my birthday, cause it reminds me of them" you shrug looking up at him.

"Baby i wish you would’ve told me" he said resting his head on your chin. "Sorry", "don’t be sorry babe, i should be the one thats sorry, i should’ve realised something was wrong sooner" he said looking down.

"Hey, you couldn’t have known" you said lifting his chin. "You’ll always have me babe, no matter what" he says giving you a small smile. You smile leaning up to him and placing a soft kiss on his lips

After the kiss he pulls you back into his chest holding you close as you wrap your arms around his waist

You’ll never forget how you lost your parents, but you’ll always know that you have beau, a smile spreads across your lips again as he pulls you tighter and you think about how luck y you are to have him

A/N: Hope you guys liked this:)

WARNING: involves cutting

You cant do this anymore you sit on the cold bathroom floor with your knees up to your chin and back against the wall.

With your head in your hands tears hit the cold tiled floor. You cant take it anymore, the hate is just getting to be too much. Everyday you wake up and see comments on twitter and everywhere else about how beau deserves better, some one beautiful, confindent. Normal.

Then you think to yourself, maybe theyre right. As the thoughts race through your mind, and tears pull from your eyes you reach into the bathroom cabnet. You pull out a cold dull razor.

You hold the razor in your hand stering at it as the thought of hurting yourself crosses your mind. You feel like it can take away from the pain that your feeling.

You inch the blade closer to your wrist thats resting on your knee. Squeezing your eyes tight closed tear are forced from your eyes as the cold metal touches your skin as you glide it across your wrist, your mouth opens and you let out a small screech of pain as blood atarts to run from the blade as you dis connect it from you.

Dropping the blade on the ground motionless you stare at the bare white bathroom wall infront of you as tears pour fron your eyes thinking about what could happen to you soon.

"Babe you in there?" Beau knocks. You slowly turn your head to look at the door, too weak to get up. "Babe" beau says pounding harder on the door, you can tell in his voice hes getting more worried every second you dont reply.

"Dont" you whisper barley loud enough to hear. "(Y/N)!?" Beau smashes his fist hard against the door as he hears your faint sound, and the hurt in your voice. He smashes his fist so hard against the door it knocks a hole through it. He sees you through the hole in the door, slumped against the wall, blood dripping from your wrist. "(Y/N)!" He screams, reaching through the door trying to reach for the handle, you can see the worry in his eyes faintly as you start to get drowsy.

A second later he jiggles the handle and swings the door open hitting it against the wall. “No” he says falling on the ground next to you putting a piece of hair behind your ear and cupping your face as tears start to bulid up in his eyes. “Im sorry” you whisper motionless as a tear falls down your cheeks. He snatches a towel off the basket gently wrapping it around your cut. “Babe for what”, you take a deep breath as more tears start to come from your eyes, “for not being good enough, not living up to what everyone expected of me, not being strong enough for you” you say as tears start to pour fron his eyes as you say this. “Babe what are you talking about” he says getting more worried as he holds the towel tight around your wrist. “Im sorry”

"Dont you ever say that stuff, i love you more than anything in this world, you mean everything to me (Y/N)…….." He crys wiping a tear from under you eye. " i cant lose you, not like this" he says kissing your cheek and looking down at you.

“You deserve better than me beau, theyre right”, “no i dont! I love you, im lucky to have you in my life and thats never changing, okay”

Just his voice makes you feel like everything is going to be alright.

"I dont want you hurting yourself" he says brushing your hair out of your face. "Okay?" He says. You look up at him, you can see how upset he is seeing you hurt yourself like this, you didnt want him to get hurt. You nod your head lightly looking up at him.

“I love you” he smiles cupping your face. “I love you too”

A/N: This one was really hard for me to write guys, i was hesitant about writing this one, cause I’ve never experienced this before, therefore i don’t know what happens or how it effects you, i didn’t want to offend anyone that does go through this cause I’m sure it a very difficult thing to go through. And i honestly had a pretty hard time writing this, especially the part when she actually hurt herself, i cried. I know its only an imagine, but i think it hit me then that people really do go through this, and sometimes they have no one to lean on, and i thought about especially how it could be anyone of you/ or anyone else in the janoskian fandom that goes through this, and i had kind of a hard time with that. This is the first time ive ever got a request for something like this so I’m sorry if its too much or offended anyone, it wasn’t meant for that at all

"Babe" you feel some one shake your arm gently trying to wake you up. "Babe " they whisper again.

You roll over squinting your eyes, “beau?” You say rubbing your tired eyes. You look over at the bedside and see the time “3:25am” the clock reads. “Whats wrong why are you waking me up” you say trying to open your eyes.

“Come outside with me” he smile caressing your face. “Are you crazy its like 3am, beau im tired” you whine and cuddle back into the pillow. “Babe come on, i wanna show you something” he whinges. “Cant it wait till the morning” you yawn closing your eyes. “No” he simply says. “Ugh this better be good” you say trying to pull yourself up.

You grab beaus baggy hoodie of the end of the bed and zip it over your singlet, you’re wearing pj shorts and you slip on your matching tan ug boots as beaus.

"Carry me?" You pout holding your arms out to beau. "Get on" he giggle gesturing for you to hop on his back. You hop on and nuzzle your face into his neck smelling his after shave as he carrying you down the stairs of their L.A house.

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* You make it to the bottom of the stairs and beau continues to carry you to thr outdoor doors. “Beau what a——” your mouth drops as he stops in the doorway. Candles and roses every. “Babe what is this” you whisper getting off him. He grabs your hand. Still looking around. He’s made a bed on the ground by the pool with pillows and blankets everywhere.

"Come on" he smiles down at you pulling you towards the bed on the ground. You both get in under the blanket. "Beau i cant believe you did all this" you smile at him intertwining you fingers with his. The stars and the moon reflect off the pool and shine onto you both. "Anything for you babe" he smiles brushing his thumb over the back of your hand, you move closer to his body and he wraps his arms tight around you. "I love you" you whisper smiling at him. "I love you too baby" he says tilting his head down and kissing you passionately. He pulls you in closer and you nuzzle you face in his warm chest listening to his heart beat as you slowly start to close your eyes…………….

A/N: how’d you guys like this sorry if it was a bit mushy hahaha