#beardy rambles

I just overdid it oops. I went to the school playground with my 7 year old nephew and he ran around the cycle track and halfway through I joined him so we ran together and collapsed in a heap on the ground laughing. It was a beautiful memory. Just the two of us laughing, looking up at the sky. And then he wanted to show me how to make spears and weapons and I swear for a moment I felt like I was playing down in the barrens ahh. I just hate the whole awkward “Hi dad. Still looking for your daughter?” and him getting kind of shocked whenever he sees me. Cause I don’t look like a girl much at all anymore. Thanks dysphoria and testosterone XD 

My cousins/aunt who I have refused contact/anything to do with now made fun of me for the amount of times I’ve seen Bohemian Rhapsody. You don’t understand. I’m genderfluid and I was always ashamed of wearing female clothes as well as male but Freddie Mercury was so himself, he gave me the courage to accept myself more. And I can listen to his music and be taken away somewhere else, far away from the people telling me I’m ruining the world etc by being nonbinary and people misgendering me and refusing to believe in my existence.  

Rambling about Infinity War

That fandom post really if you look on my shelf in the living room: Shelf #1 Usopp, Jaskier from The Witcher, Frodo Baggins minix figures, Chachamaru, Sabito, Giyu from Demon Slayer pop figures. A teeny tiny Muichiro Tokito is sitting on top of Giyu's box. 2nd shelf: Built Tokitos out of blocks I made. 3rd shelf: Pokemon and Akaza from Demon Slayer. 4th shelf: Greedo from Star Wars I got given for a work secret santa. AOT Manga and Demon Slayer Manga (I need volume 2 because my friend got my volume 3 at his work lol) Shelf #2 GIANT Baby Yoda made out of lego. My first present to myself once I got my job 5 years ago! Pompompurin and Kuromi and Hello Kitty.