#beanwolf

the final bits of the fic are taking so long because of A) life stuff and B) I realised how messy the whole fic has been and thus feel quite shit about it but also the beanwolf brain worms won't leave until it is done

still haven't worked out how to finish the fic. will it ever be finished? am i nervous that the ending won't live up to expectations? do i wish i could just be better at everything? yes. the answers are yes.

now i know people have read some of the fic i am too scared to keep working on it in case it is disappointing (i am disappointed with the resolution but cannot work out how to fix that)

completely lost confidence in the writing (among other things) and now cannot finish the fic but I can’t cope with it not being finished aghhhhhhhh

i either need to rewrite the last few chapters of the cornley werewolf fic or practise drawing so i can get the ideas out of my brain

why has the fic evolved from what i wanted to write and become its own entity. who gave it the right to do that.