Chapter 22 of Life in Reverse: “Let’s start with-” Dr. Fisher’s eyebrows furrowed. “Did you have a plan at any point, of how you would kill yourself?”Loki looked at his hands, twisting on his legs. “I did,” he said, after a moment.“You did have a plan?”“No,” Loki said, and he could hear some faint tone slip into his voice, a very slight edge of bitterness. “I did kill myself. As you can see, it didn’t exactly take.” Unquote. Wow. It's been months since I read that and it's stuck with me.
I feel like this is a little bit of another instance of the “making other people uncomfortable when you’re uncomfortable” and honestly this is...it’s interesting to me that Dr. Fisher is the first person Loki owns up to about his suicide attempt. And I actually think...unless I’m mistaken, the only one in Life in Reverse, ever.Â
The people Loki chooses to tell about his trauma, and how he does it, is something that’s very interesting to me and I feel like I play with a fair amount.
I also think it’s easier for him to talk about something like this by being flippant about it, which he is, a little. And honestly, this is how Loki thinks about it: not as an attempt that he surprised, but a death that he came back from.Â
(Anyway I’m mostly responding to these by rambling a lot because I’m bad at compliments and don’t know what-all to say, but I guess “thank you!” will do for a start. I’m...once again, the idea of “people thinking about things I’ve written” is wild in a really...really cool way.)
