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Be About It zine number 16: "experiment" 👩‍🔬✂️🌗get it today

The long-awaited “experiment” themed issue! Cover art by @gremlins_3_official, work inside by M; Margo, Kimberly Kim, June Gehringer, Jennifer Blowdryer, Sam Albala, Nancy Patrice Davenport, Paul Murufas, Abe Becker, Tim Xonnelly, Lauren Suchenski, Tom Snarky, J de Salvo, D.S. Black, and Alexandra Naughton. 

{It's the 90's : It's tang. It's 792-1234, at the dial tone the time is.}

{Kill Me. 

i feel so incredibly sad. no one understands me. sees me. the only things that care about me are burdens i never asked for. a life i never asked for; forever reminding me of this irony, driving me mad. isolated by my conscious ability to see this folly. crafting a concise art in balanced rituals, routines and escape routes in a labyrinth existing through biological idiosyncratic fashion pronounced by depressive flair. i am a mad house no one wants to come near, used, neglected, infamous and feared, a curious waste. kill me.}

{Speed. just like we can’t speed without avoiding turmoil, we can’t relinquish the control we can maintain over our emotions thrills and whims lest we find out their true canon power; a universe a reflection of their collisions}

{                        .being here today is like having a knife up to my throat in what i thought would be a different situation entirely,   

                        one i paid for with money i earned, only to be stuck bleeding to earn more for the pleasure of pain.                           }

Cuhsandra is a writer based in SF and her favorite Britney Spears track is “Hot as Ice”

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Part of My Story Will Always Be Dark

Part of my story will always be dark;

those ever-nights

and non-stops, those always theres

and forever nots.

Part of that story will never end;

those smiles-be-gones and

cry dreams a lot.

Part of my story will always be dark;

but that is just part of my story…

while part of it’s not.

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Second Chance Somedays

White lights and

phantom glows—how did

I dine in the dark? When did

I escape that cerement?

Did something push me in

this right direction—from

when I only held 

peripherals—maybe I fell

here myself.

Time-lapse from night

to day. Scattered in the

wind there,

lost and found, reestablished

in the hope of

second chance somedays.

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Call Me an Aside

Call it an aside in 

me, there

are some delights I find in

my way, to warm an 

un-constellation—my 

time in humiliated conversion

It’s not divine or 

wanted, but

reestablished every night 

and day

in retro finesse and 

vertigo

Turn me around, turn me

around to wanton 

daydream 

and hold

me there, where I 

can call me home,

where I can call 

something mine

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check out this essay on @hobartpulp today from Nooks Krannie whose book DISASTER HORSE: smol essays is also out today from @beaboutitpress

DISASTER HORSE: smol essays, by Nooks Krannie is born and can now be purchased! 

Happy official release day, Nooks <3

Look at these lovely blurbs:

“Disaster Horse: Smol Essays surrounds us with abundance, but this permeation requires us to be thoughtful about so much access. “i don’t expect the same from you, i expect more. our thoughts are random. you and i are random,” writes one of the essays. The book dissects small instances in a material life—the body as it dreams, walks, gazes—and unfurling from each of these moments is an explosion of vivid memories, wry observations, and surreal parallel moments. Krannie refuses to be anchored by anything but the second-by-second potential of every physical act. The essays are confident with their vulnerability and disclosure, and though the worlds described are brimming and unceasing, they course straight past easy nostalgia or the overwhelm of present-time frenzy. These pieces are sure about the multidimensional reach of every person: our physical and emotional desires, our intergenerationally beholden relationships, and our daily contact with others. Disaster Horse also asks how we, the readers, have been changed by these essays. Read Krannie’s gorgeous writing and afterwards catch yourself walking through the world thinking, Where have we been, and where are we going?”

 - Ginger Ko, author of Motherlover

“Disaster Horse is a gorgeous, emotionally risky, book, filled with language so unique and heartfelt, you'll want to read it twice.”

- Chloe Caldwell, author of I'll Tell You in Person and Women 

"This book is a throbbing hallucination. Each sentence twists into a new landscape Nooks Krannie has a way of working over the details of the intimate relationship we have with ourselves and with others and presenting them to you in new, neon packaging, as if you’re looking at life for the very first time or as a visitor from an alien planet."

The 15th edition of Be About It zine: WATER, with work by: Bianca Niño, Brice Maiurro, Chad Redden, Christine Hall, Cordelia Morgan, Donnie Martino, Is Sullivan, Joanna Anabo, Jonathan Aprea, Kevin Ridgeway, Kristina Ten, Maggie Grabmeier, M; Margo, Rhea Smith, Seth Berg, Sierra Ventura, Ted Tarnovski, Theo Konrad Auer, and Thomas L. Winters. 

Short poetry, short fiction, and art all inspired by water.