#beaboutitblackout

{It's the 90's : It's tang. It's 792-1234, at the dial tone the time is.}

{Kill Me. 

i feel so incredibly sad. no one understands me. sees me. the only things that care about me are burdens i never asked for. a life i never asked for; forever reminding me of this irony, driving me mad. isolated by my conscious ability to see this folly. crafting a concise art in balanced rituals, routines and escape routes in a labyrinth existing through biological idiosyncratic fashion pronounced by depressive flair. i am a mad house no one wants to come near, used, neglected, infamous and feared, a curious waste. kill me.}

{Speed. just like we can’t speed without avoiding turmoil, we can’t relinquish the control we can maintain over our emotions thrills and whims lest we find out their true canon power; a universe a reflection of their collisions}

{                        .being here today is like having a knife up to my throat in what i thought would be a different situation entirely,   

                        one i paid for with money i earned, only to be stuck bleeding to earn more for the pleasure of pain.                           }

Cuhsandra is a writer based in SF and her favorite Britney Spears track is “Hot as Ice”