Trying to overcome the (online? Maybe this is actually pretty niche. Idk) transmasculine tendency to be comfortable with all variants of "boy" but uncomfortable with some unspoken implications of "man" it feels very like
Driven by a history of (misdirected or not) misogynistic interactions and the same man-guilt as any socially conscious cis man
"Man" is not any more heavy or symbolic of anything than any other gendered qualifier and I think you can know that and you can find the men you prefer to emulate and look to them as the blueprint for your own definition of "man" but still get bogged down in some weird like. Mind shit
I dont think it helps when you feel like you have to meet a very specific definition to even be halfway considered. I get why it happens. But I think it's dumb at the same time. And at the same time I'm just stupid nonbinary so I don't like being slid too far either binary direction
