bb development || letters / (3/?)
colter finnick baker,
my baby. writing a letter to you seems like the hardest thing in the world because I’m so overwhelmed with emotions right now over knowing that tomorrow you’re supposed to come into the world and meet me. the past 9 months have been such a learning curve for me and your dad, we’ve gone through fights, doubts, sicknesses, and come back full circle again every time. 9 months hardly seems like a long enough time to prepare myself for a lifetime of existing for the sole purpose of making sure you have the best life possible. but I’ve spent 9 months wondering what it would be like to finally have you in my arms and I’m ready. you’ve already changed my life and you haven’t even been born yet, I can’t imagine how my life is going to change once you get here.
I want to be the best mum in the world, and I know that sometimes I might not be, but I’m going to do my damnedest to make sure that I give you all of my understanding and patience throughout your life. I’m sorry for the times when I’ll get frustrated with you and for the times when I’ll get mad. I’m sorry for the times when I won’t seem strong and when you’ll doubt my ability to keep our family together. but I promise you that my love for you will always be stronger than any of those feelings and that no matter how frustrated or weak I become, you’ll always be my baby.
your dad, and your big sister and I are all very excited to meet you. they’re both wonderful and they’ll both always look out for you and take care of you if I’m ever not around and when I am. please be good to them. be good to your godfather too, he’s the kindest, gentlest person in the world and if you’re ever afraid to come to me and your dad, he’ll be there to give you all of the love and understanding that he’s given me throughout our years of friendship.
I can’t wait to meet you and I hope you get here soon.
