#bb.conves

it really did feel like a wonder. like this day would never come and now it was here and for some reason, bambam didn't know how to feel about it. in the end, moving quickly and quietly was most likely the best for him. it was still a little awkward to talk to the members outside of the ones she already had a good relationship with.

and right now? none were around.

it was just him and the stylist who gave him his first set of clothing. ( though he was told he wouldn't have to change too much. )

all in all, he thought he was ready by the time it was time for him to get on set. ( and once the concept was explained, bambam thought it was like a calm chaos. their song was way more relaxed than the music video would be. )

still, he wanted to do well. well enough that everyone saw how serious he was. ( later he'd realize that he might've been too withdrawn in an effort to make sure he did well. ) bambam could say it was fun at least, he did a pretty good job at pretending in front of the camera. that they were as close as the music video made it out to be. he didn't mess up too much, they didn't have to constantly repeat takes because of him and that was already a bright spot in his eyes.

( during break, he called his mom so he could tell her how amazing it was. if they were allowed to have people on set, he would've invited her. )

and after break, it was bad to work. he was sure he'd recall the smaller details later but right now everything was a blur of just wanting to get it right. there was also how tiring it could be, the lights during modeling were now nothing compared to the heat of the cameras. soon enough, they were rapping up and he was changing back into his normal clothing. the makeup was wiped off and he felt strangely tired.