#battleinside

Your entire body is tense to the point of tears. It’s as if your body is trying to tell your mind that you need to get into a ready position to pounce on some unsuspecting prey or protect yourself from an unknown threat. That achy feeling travels up your back through your arms to your fingers. The tips of your fingers tingle. It’s like the only way to satisfy this tingle is to dig your nails onto something that you can rip apart with your bare hands. Your jaw is clenched to keep from baring your fangs, lashing out an innocent person with some illogical rambling that could destroy any relationship you have with that person. Everything about this time screams to let your carnal side out. Let that animal run wild, damn the consequence. But you have to hold back. You have to remember that no matter how you’re feeling right now, and how good it would feel to let loose, you have to remain civilized. The civilized world around you demands normalcy and you can not disturb the collective calm without the chance of being kick out of that society. So you keep it in check. You push that pure, raw instinct back.. You force it back behind your rib cage hoping the bars are strong enough to hold it. Then it passes and you forget all those animistic reflexes for a blissful 28 day.