It's honestly sad how excited I am about the new marching uniforms. And I never thought I'd say this, but I'm kind of sad this is my last year with this band. I love all the contests so much and it went by way too fast and I just want to start over. Growing up sucks. I don't want Jeffrey to turn 22. I want him to be 14 and hate me again. I don't want to have to worry about college and all that. I want to play recreational softball and basketball and soccer again. And I don't want to only have one year left with my bass drum because I've fallen so in love to the point where I can barely stand to not have it with me. I just wish things didn't have to get so difficult and I want to be able to reverse time but I can't and it sucks and I'm just so sad because moving on in life is scary and change is scary and whether I like it or not it has to happen so I'm just sad.
