Went to see my mama & grandparents. I miss my mama SO damn much it hurts. This is a pain I would not wish on my worst enemy. If u still have ur mama, u are so Blessed beyond anything! I will never hear her laugh, see her smile, hear her sing Happy Birthday to me or feel her when we hug. So many out here treating their mom like ish & all I want is mine back! I love u mama & I wish u were able to meet Sa'Mari, Jayce & Karter. I often think about what ur nick names for them would be! I know when they are smiling in their sleep, that u r talking to them. You r my diamond in the sky & our guardian angel! It's been almost 2 years since God took u took ur mansion in Heaven, but the pain I feel is like its fresh. Not a day goes by that I don't think of or miss u! Thank you for being you & raising me to be the woman, mother & grandmother I am today. Sophia tells Colby all the time that Granny is in Heaven watching over us & it touches my heart to know that they think about u & know how much u loved them. I just hope you are as proud of me as I am proud of you!!! I'll luv u forever & u will NEVER be far from my heart!!! 😇😇😇😇 #barbaraann #forevermyangel😇😘 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxp6rPWAkB5csw8t64ZSbZfipwHA_Oj5wyckhM0/?igshid=1izl9yd1dkuzo