Sketch of my Barbarian Balzar ~ first time drawing him full body ☆ Today was a really stressful day. This'll be a long post, feel free to read it or not Everything is fine, I'm just still a bit jittery about what happened today and writing it down might help??? (I'm taking a chance) My sister accidentally threw away my plastic bag. Now, i know that seems like a dumb thing to be stressed over. Thing is, I'm pretty chill, I'm autistic but it's barely noticeable. (It doesn't bother me in the slightest) but the one thing I REALLY can't handle is people touching my things. I panic. It doesn't matter if it's just a pencil or an eraser, if they didn't get permission to use it I freak out. For the past two years I've had a bag with some of my things in it. My pencil case, a sketchbook, headphones etc etc. It sounds a bit mundane now that I'm listing it down, but the things were important to me. Every single day, whether I was in school or at work, I ALWAYS had those things in that bag. They never left my side. Those things? Were in the plastic bag that was thrown out. It was an honest mistake, it wasnt my sisters fault. But fuck. Having someone take my things without permission and throw them down a garbage chute really screwed me up. I haven't cried that hard in years. Physically, I was in my bed sobbing, but mentally I was in down in that trashcan. Everything in that bag means so much to me, so to have them dissappear forever in a moment really felt like a punch in the face. Luckily everything worked out, my friends came over and helped me. It made me feel so much better to have them around me I wasn't as anxious, and it definitely made me want to stop crying (which is the mood I'm always aiming for) I contacted the company that takes care of garbage chutes in my area and we got permission to look through the trash. I have everything back ♡ ♡ ♡ Long story short; don't put important things in plastic bags. If it looks like a trash bag it might be thrown out. And you don't want that.
