#balderdash-core

[🍻] What type of drunk are they? 

This may be cheating, but I’d say it just makes whatever emotions he’s feeling much stronger, with fewer inhibitions on expressing them. Incidentally this means he can’t drink when he feels sad or anxious, since it’ll just make things worse. But usually he drinks at parties, so ends up as just a silly/ happy drunk.

[🕊️]  When did they feel the safest? 

Any time he was in his rooms and people he cared about were there. Ideally Dr Worm or TJ (yes, TJ constantly gets him into Situations, but he feels safe with them regardless. And Dr Worm is obvious.)

[💤] How do they sleep? 

If he doesn’t feel safe he sleeps the way military folks do— aware of his surroundings and stiff as a board. He never feels rested after that type of sleep, though. His default, when not tense, is constantly moving around throughout the night. He’ll roll around, alternately hug and elbow people he’s sleeping with, and sprawls out as much as possible. 

[🦇] What’s a fear they never talk about?

He tries not to even think about it, but he’s scared someone is still controlling him the way Aleph was, that his life is still a spectacle/ game for some higher power. Which is why he is never going to be allowed to know about the Players. I’d rather have the Players not even be a canon thing, but since they are they’ll at least never be a canon thing for him. 

[⛓️] What does guilt feel like to them? 

Like sinking, and the only way out is trying to fix whatever the guilt is about. Usually this means he’ll be full of frantic energy, pushing himself to do anything that might be helpful (a great example of this was in the era where children kept getting kidnapped). Even if he can’t directly assuage his guilt about something, he’ll try to keep busy helping in some other way. It’s better than letting himself sink. 

[🌪️] What’s one choice they regret (not) making? 

Not saying goodbye to his family before he first left for his adventures. He can’t bring himself to regret going, despite it all, but he wishes he had found a way to leave a note or something. 

[⚓️] What does “home” mean to them?