#baedou

Scared of the skipper waiting for you, you leave your stuff there and walk fast to Beidou's quarterdeck. You are right now just standing silently in front of the door. "Should i knock?" You mutter to yourself.

"Just come in. I saw your shadow from here" she said. You enter the quarterdeck. From the entrance, you can see Beidou sitting on her desk with a few pieces of paper in her hand. Rather than paper, you could say it's.. photograph.

"You know, while walking around the cabin to catch the crew who were slacking off, I saw.. a rather interesting thing." She shows you the picture in her hand. "It's a pic, of myself. Care to explain yourself?"

You were sweating, don't know how to respond. You grip yourself and bite your lips. You're panicking. You admit it's yours. You have it because Beidou has been your crush for a while. Even the reason you choose to work as a crew of The Crux is because of her.

"Are you a spy?" She raises her eyebrow. Without hesitating, you shake your head and step forward. "It's not like that"

"I-- I.. uhh" you are trying to explain yourself. It's not like you can straight tell her about your feelings. You're scared if she'll find yourself weird about having a crush of the same gender. This kind of thought makes you wanna cry.

"I'm waiting" she hugged herself. Waiting for your explanation. "What is it y/n? Just say it. I don't mind."

Well if she said that.. you take a deep breath and "I actually have a crush on you, Captain" you say it in one breath as u close your eyes. You did it. And now you wanna die.

You hear she chuckle. Then you hear steps coming towards you. You concern. Why is she coming closer?is she gonna expose me? Or she's gonna kill you to shut your mouth for the sake of peace?

"Hey, eyes on me" Beidou said as she grabbed your cheek to make sure your eyes met. She's taller than you. That makes you look up to meet her eye. Her deep ruby colored eye look at your eyes deeply. Probably trying to find the truth.

Your face becomes red because of how close you and Beidou are right now. So close that you can feel her breath. You can't help but look at Beidou's lips.

"Why don't you kiss it?" She teases you. Your eyes widened as you look back to her eye.

"C-can i?" You stutter. Trying to make sure of what you hear just now is real.

Beidou just nodded a little as she looked at your lips. You slowly close the gaps between you to touch her lips with yours. Then you instantly step away with your hand on your mouth. Did you really kiss her??

"It's not a kiss stupid" Beidou said that as she grab your head and bring you close to her. Your lips are touched. She slipped her tongue to your mouth and played with your tongue. She closes the door behind you as she pushes you to the wall.

She breaks the kiss and lets you breathe. "Are you ok with it?" Said her as she was stroking your cheeks and looking at you with loving eyes. Her fingers start touching your lips as you remain silent for a while "I asked, are you ok with it? Can we continue?"

You grab Beidou's hand. "I've.. never done it before. So I'm not sure if my little experience will please you, Captain"

This time Beidou remains silent. But she didn't break the eye contact. She's looking at you as she is waiting for something. That means what u replied before wasn't the answer she wanted. "But.. but if Captain is fine with it, I definitely fine with it"

You can see her eyebrows twitching like she's so excited with your answer. Beidou's finger rubbing your lips and slowly letting her thumbs in your mouth. Without resisting you just open your mouth. You try your best to not accidentally bite her thumb. Her smile widened.

"You are such a good girl. Just follow my lead"

I tbh want to write nsfw but.. I lost my confidence. Help. I want to call her mommy also.