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had a great day today, saw some art, drank a coffee ice cream float, ate some sandwiches

I’ve been wanting to write our love story because it could be a John Green book or even Levithan’s, well on his perspective. It’s not a typical boy-meets-girl-girl-meets-boy-girl-falls-in-love kind of tale and it needs to be told. I want everyone to know how it all started and how it almost didn’t start. This is quite long. But ain’t all happy endings begin with many chapters before the sweet magical kiss?

“Year 2013, the boy met the girl in the noisy crowd. He thought she was a common girl, loud and bubbly. Days passed, he began seeing her as strong and independent. He was truly intimidated by her presence. He saw that she was not like any other girl. Days turned months and months turned years. He knew he loved the girl but she was not noticing him at all. They became friends. He didn’t know if it helped him or pained him more, the fact that they’re only friends. He tried to get really close to her, to make her feel his love, but it’s still not enough. He was hurting already because he couldn’t have the girl he wanted.

Year 2013, the girl met the boy in the noisy crowd. He was a typical boy for her, playful and flirt. She didn’t like him nor hate him. Days passed, everyone was calling him “Kuya” and she was not an exception. Days turned months and months turned years, they became friends and civil. But she knew he was special. He was trying to get close to her, she could feel that. But she built a wall between them because she wasn’t ready for anything. He tried so hard to break that wall but she kept it strong. She was hurting already because she couldn’t let him in. Her fears were stronger.

But fate had its own way. They finally had a chance to talk alone and clear things out. For the first time, they talked as themselves, without worrying other people. The world stopped and the time was all theirs. The boy told the girl how he had been for the last years and how much he loved her. The girl was surprised but knew it was all coming. She knew then that she had lost the game. The boy won her heart and was able to break all her defenses. She let herself fall but still too afraid to drown in the feelings she had been ignoring. She let herself love him.

But one night, she was going to reject him because fears were taking over her. She couldn’t accept the fact that the boy she loved was not completely hers, that she wouldn’t be his priority. She didn’t want to bargain because she would love him whole, undivided. She saw his eyes, alived and glimmering. But when she uttered the first words of goodbye, they hit him hard and he was defenseless. The life in his eyes left and all was there is pain. The girl couldn’t look at him. She was hurting more because she knew she made a mistake. She loved him but she’s pushing the boy away.

The next night, the girl had decided and would make choices. The boy readied himself for the worse. He was dying inside but the girl was worth every pang in the heart. Both were afraid and anxious. Both were waiting for the right time. Suddenly, the clock ticked. The boy asked the girl again and with love and still having doubts, she looked at those eyes and felt him. Was this boy worth every fear she had in her mind? But finally, she let him in her heart.”

Now, it’s been a month since that night, the night I said “Yes”, the night I allowed myself to be happy and to take my chances at Love. I still have fears but I’d rather face them with him than regret the things I didn’t do in the end. It’s been only a month, but it felt like a long time already. We can never tell the future, of what will happen to us. Will this really be a happy ending? Our story is still not finish, I know. There are many pages left and we’re going to write it together. And yes,this is the continuing story of us.

Mahal, happy 1st month to us! Now, here are 30 Reasons Why I Love You:

1.       I love the way you courted me. (Mangingisda! HAHA)

2.       I love your chin. (Really!)

3.       I love your facial hair! (Ugh <3)

4.       I love your hair! (Please please please just don’t use gel anymore!)

5.       I love your natural smell. (You smell so fckin’ good, Mahal.)

6.       I love your tummy. (That DAD BOD! Hahaha)

7.       I love it when you’re sweating. (Extra hot! Whoo!)

8.       I love your sweaty hands. (You have soft and smooth hands, Mahal. Huhu)

9.       I love it when you kiss me on my forehead every time I arrived at school.

10.   I love it when you hold my hand.

11.   I love your stolen kisses. (That kiss in the rain! Hihi <3 )

12.   I love it when you curse. (MAKYU! :P )

13.   I love it when you’re having “sore eyes”. (If you know what I mean. Hahaha)

14.   I love how playful you are but still you respect me.

15.   I love how much generous you are not only to me but also to our friends.

16.   I love it when you try to get to know my friends.

17.   I love it when you always eat what I offer you and what I cook for you.

18.   I love your big appetite and your fondness of Chocnut and Chupa Chups. (HAHAHA)

19.   I love it when I see how much you value your family and kids.

20.   I love it when you tell me your plans, and I’m actually part of it.

21.   I love your passion and big love for playing chess.

22.   I love it when you’re not afraid to shed tears in front of me. (I just feel your sincerity and realness.)

23.   I love it when you defended me and our relationship when everyone couldn’t understand us.

24.   I love it when we made promises to our families that we won’t do something that can affect our future.

25.   I love you because you never fail to tell me and show me everyday how much you love me.

26.   I love you because you always want to hear from me how much I love you too.

27.   I love you because you waited two years and didn’t stop trying to win me.

28.   I love you because when we argue, we won’t end the day fighting.

29.   I love you because you love me hard and real.