I just had the worst dream, Nichole. It woke me up early in the A.M. and i can’t go back to sleep. So here’s what it was… We were taking a break from eachother. During our break you sort things out with a guy friend that likes you. You like him too. That’s why we’re on the break; you want to see if you miss me while you’re with him. So i painfully wait. I spend each hour of each day wondering if I’ve been replaced. I feel defenseless. I know I should be fighting for you but I can’t this time. I was scared.
Then, I’m finally able to see you. I come over on a real nice day and everyone- your family and neighbors are really friendly to one another. You and I are hanging out and it feels right; as if the hole in my life has been completely filled. I feel like I’m the one for you again, until I hear a conversation with your mom and neighbor. They are talking about an upcoming event that would be fun for all friends and family. They start talking about you. They conversate about how much fun you would have and they mention that your boyfriend should come too. I looked at you and I smiled but you weren’t smiling back. You said “You can come too. You’re still a really good friend.” My heart sank and I raised my voice at you, which you know I never do. I said “She was talking about him!?!?” You then had this look of sadness, fear, and lonlieness on your face. You put your shoes on and you ran out of the house. I was crying as I chased you. I realized the mistake that I made. When I finally caught up to you I woke up.
I was laying here, sweating- I never sweat from dreams. My heart was going a mile a minute and I was glad it wasn’t real. I will never talk to you badly no matter what happens ok? Always remember that. You’re my favorite person on this planet and you would never deserve that.
