#baaarney

oh no

I just had a thought

Gordon pretty caused this shit w the combine bc of the crystal thingy (fuck I can’t remember what it was called)

and was like one of the only people to survive the black mesa incident

and then at the end of 2 Eli is fucking MURDERED and a bunch more people die

but Gordon’s still there

still alive, maybe even when he shouldn’t be

“something secret steers us both” refers to GMan I know that but what if it referred to /us/ too

he’s got more power then he realizes and that’s why he’s still /alive/ luck and power and maybe he thinks about it all and goes “shit I should be dead why am I not dead how am I still here” and just

Gordon freeman with survivors guilt pains my little heart so much