#ba.p

looking back, well at the full spread, bambam realized he cooked a lot. in fact, he ended up storing most a lot of it away. and he knew why, he was nervous. this would be the first time dongyoon came to his home and it would be the first time he saw him since the sn project. on top of that, he’d be cooking for him so he wanted to do something well. he just did it too well, but he couldn’t himself time to think about it. the table was set, the food was hot and ready and his date? would be hear soon enough. 

and then when he heard the sound of of the doorbell, bambam realized he was here. he went for the door, not bothering to call out. he was sure, dongyoon wouldn’t have been able to hear him. by the time he made it to the door though, the blush was back of his face. one final deep breath and then he pulled open the door, grinning. “welcome to my home, i just finish setting out the f-.” that had made him realize something. 

he had to come out of hiding at some point. 

even if he didn’t want too, he could only pretend to be a ghost for so long. sure, the other trainee’s saw him but he had wanted to deny it while longer. the episode would be out soon enough, their thoughts would be concerned. and he couldn’t let other’s see it hitting him so hard. being cut was hard enough, facing everyone was even harder.

backdated to; late january - early feb. 

he had said it to minhee in passing, he didn’t think anything would come of it. and of course, bambam blamed it on his lack of physical assets. but she managed to do it, and up until the day off, he had been fine. he had chosen the place - small restaurant not to far from his personal home - it was nice and homey, the woman who owned it knew him by now. most of the time he hadn’t even stopped by for food, simply because he wanted some company. he told her in advance, that he was meeting up with his friend and she gave them a nice little table towards the back.

backdated to; early feb.

as soon as he had been released from nova, bambam felt like he was on a time limit. he had to make it home, shower and change and then head right back out. but he was ready to do it. even if he had been a little nervous. things had gone well enough before. bambam was sure that dongyoon had flirted with him or maybe he wasn’t. it was just a little confusing. it was what he wanted to believe but at the same time, he didn’t want to assuming anything. either way, they made plans to hang out again. this time the mall, simply because he wanted to shop for a few things. thankfully, dongyoon agreed and they’d met up there. 

and he wasn’t late. bambam was sure he would be but it seemed like they had arrived at the same time and so far the outing was going well. the mall wasn’t filled with a lot of people since it had been a little later at night. and now they passing store after store with bambam being invested in the ones they passed.  “oh!” he came to a stop in front of a skin care store, one of the employee's had already spotted him with a smile. “i’m going to stop in there. i don’t know if you like this kind of stuff but i have a few things i want to buy.” 

last week, it had been them working on songs together. this week, bambam wanted to try and help out his fellow trainee. if there was anything he could help anyone with, it’d be dancing. this time he was ready for it. he was sure it wouldn’t be too much of a task. chaeyoung was a hard worker, he’d just be around to improve on the little points. it seemed like they had arrived at almost the same time. he watched her head into one of the rooms just a few seconds before him. 

he knew he had would have to start practicing quickly enough. they only had a week to get it down by bambam still wanted to take a little time to go through all of his options. the sun had only been up for a few hours but he had been going at since he woke up. being up early, the only there was time to do everything he needed. showering, packing his bag for training even if he was just going to be a few floors down. it might’ve been silly to some but it was still him.