@azrdrg // FIFTY WAYS TO KISS SOMEONE.Randomised: 11. In joy.This got so long PLEASE FORGIVE â
    Oâ Hydaelyn, why is it that you preserve those whose penance is forged in the belief of their demise? Broken bones cannot be knit in a day, nor can the grief of actions past.
     âSurely it is enough!â Ysayle argued, voice cracking against the might of the mother crystal as she lay suspended in a star-scape glittering around them like snow falling from the heavens. Mayhap she should have been overjoyed in being blessed with her grace, knowing that her actions had earned an audience with the goddess herself, but all she could feel was outrage thick on her tongue that swelled deep within her throat. She had weighed her risks; knowing her limits, her stamina and realising the truth. Ysayle was ready to die.
     âThere is more for you yet, child of Eorzea,â she answered, their surrounds shifting to an atmosphere that was crimson and clouded with burning eyes piercing through the haze as beneath her she could see the Warrior of Light and Alphinaud struggling. But against what? It was only as the haze continued to clear that she saw the blood-bathed red and the grotesque growths upon his arm and shoulder. Estinien ââ no ââ NIDHOGG.
    Her hand extended, aching fingers placed over the top of Alphinaudâs own as if though her shade might manifest corporeal and aid him. Yet, despite the distance between them, the boyâs eyes looked up, realisation washing over his face with wide eyes. She smiled, for it was all she could manage.
    âBelieve,â the voice echoed, vanishing amongst the cracking energies as Ysayle poured every ounce of energy she could into thwarting the beast whose rage was responsible for a thousand years of war. If this was to be her last duty, she would do it diligently ââ it was all she had ever wanted.
    The eyes separated, Alphinaud and the Warrior of Light flew backwards, and red turned to bright azure as it swept over the battlefield and the rage of the beast dissipated in the denial of his power and subsequent death as he rose from the body of the Azure Dragoon. Ysayle rose to her feet, eyes lifting to the sky, and as she felt the sunlight beam down upon her face the world slowly bled white and cast her from that mortal plane. She closed them, ready for the end.
    Yet, when she awoke, she was surrounded by dragons.
    Oâ Hydaelyn, what should one do when their purpose has been fulfilled?
     A miracle, the dragons hailed, and the mortals to whom Ysayle was well acquainted would be hard-pressed to argue. When Hraesvelgr found her bloody and broken beneath the floating lands of the Sea of Clouds, even he believed her lost to them. When she was brought back to Anyx Trine, nursed to health by Vidofnir, even she remarked at her luck.
    âWhat might you do now?â She asked, gait slow as Ysayle took her first tentative steps across the castleâs broken foundations. Yet, despite her pain, the elezen was resolute and did her best to obscure it.
    âOf that I am unsure. Mayhap I will find purpose in Ishgard.â
    âThey would welcome you,â Vidofnir said, causing Ysayle to smile. âAs would the Scions.â
     And they did. She saw the way they tried to hide their tears ââ anger at her decisions lifting in the success and of her apparent âresurrectionâ. But there was once face among the crowd she did not see, and her question was answered to her shock.
    âEstinien still slumbers?â
    âWe donât know if heâll yet wake,â they replied.
     No, she thought, surely Hydaelyn would not force such an exchange.
     Three days passed without the man awakening, and Ysayleâs visit was punctuated with Alphinaud draped over Estinienâs bed â salt yet lingering on his cheeks from where his tears had dried. She knew how much the boy cared for him; their trip across the Forelands was proof enough. But, as the door closed behind her with a light click, she spoke softly as to not surprise him.Â
     âYou should rest, Alphinaud,â she advised, footsteps laboured over creaking wood, accompanied by the cane she gripped firmly in her left hand. As the younger Elezen looked up to her, his lips seemed to move as if he thought to protest, before a sigh and a slump of his shoulders admitted defeat. She smiled as he lifted himself from Estinienâs bedside, eyes casting back like a child afraid they would miss the gifts of Starlight.
     âYes, perhaps sleep is the best course,â he agreed.
     âHe will not abandon you. You know this as well as I.â As embarrassed as he might have been at the truth in her words ( if the colour was enough to go off, it was quite a bit ) it was not enough to resist them. With a bow and a polite utterance of her name he left, knowing that he would be one of the first alerted if Estinien awoke.
     And she was alone.
     Pulling up a chair beside the Azure Dragoon Ysayle settled, placing her cane against the bedside table as chilled hands sought one of his resting upon the woollen blankets. His was warm by comparison, her fingertips tracing the callouses on his palm, and the lump in her throat was swallowed down to keep her strength. Who knew a man she once hated could worry her so deeply? Star-crossed, one might have claimed, and yet there was nothing to suggest such might or could change.
     As she sat there, pensive in her silence, there was a flutter of eyelids that caught her gaze; a shift of frame uncommon for someone locked in indefinite sleep. As her eyes widened Ysayle leaned over and spoke to him, her voice soft in the quiet.
     âEstinien?â His name earned her a grunt and another shift of frame, his eyes opening slowly and groggily to the world. They narrowed upon seeing her face, the hand in hers reaching towards her as if to ascertain that she was real. She allowed it, feeling the touch that was so uncannily soft when considering just how violent the man could be, and relief washed over her keenly.
     âYouâre supposed to be dead,â he said flatly, prompting her to laugh. âThe battle ââ
     âI was dead,â she answered, leaning into the touch. âHydaelyn saw it fit that I should yet live to bother you a little longer. Are you disappointed?â
     He didnât say anything, yet Ysayle didnât mind. It was better than a no, and he had to conserve his strength. For as much as there were things they had yet to say, she knew that now was not the time. He was awake; he was alive. That was all that mattered.
     âI should alert Alphinaud that youâre awake. No doubt my acceptance into the Scions hinges âpon him being the first to see you. Second now, but the boy has been worried sick.â Pulling away for just a moment ( was it fear or something else? )  fingers smoothed silver hair away from his forehead as Ysayle pushed herself to her feet, leaning over to press her lips against his skin and speaking plain her joy at his survival. After everything, it was not fair that they should die.
     âThere has been too much loss for him to mourn your absence.â