or ayu or whatever you like to be called.

you see those pictures below? what do you think?

i think, smile really good on you.

you are such a radiant person,

kind in every kind of way.

you may not the fairest of them all,

or the most clever of them all,

or the most perfect of them all,

however,

do you know what makes you stand out?

you are being you.

you are always true to yourself.

and close to your root.

dearest tary,

i choose this name because this is your childhood name,

the name that your family call you.

because i know, your family is number one.

you lost them once but not anymore.

that's why you are being so protective towards everyone and everything that you call family.

Family always comes first.

dearest tary,

the older you get, you know,

life become more complicated,

dull, boring, yet exhausting.

Nevermind.

You just need to keep smile to everything, whether it's the good or the bad.

kita ga akan pernah tau bakal hadapin apa ke depan tapi bukan berarti itu jadi masalah, 'kan?

aku tau kamu benci banget sama ketidakpastian.

aku tau kamu benci banget di posisi harus nyiapin apa untuk menghadapi apa.

you are a clueless little creature.

inget-inget aja, bahwa kita hidupnya hari ini. salah,

kita hidupnya detik ini. saat sekarang ini.

bukan lima menit lagi,

bukan besok,

apalagi sepuluh tahun lagi.

bukan, sayang.

jalani aja hidup ini seperti kamu udah ngejalanin hidup selama hampir 30 tahun ini.

padahal hidup jaman dulu lebih susah, 'kan?

kamu bisa bertahan gitu.

ngelewatin badai yang entah ada berapa banyak.

aku bangga kok sama kamu.

kamu tuh kuat, mandiri, tau apa yang kamu mau, berkarakter dan berprinsip.

kamu tau nilai apa yang cocok denganmu dan mana yang enggak.

kamu bisa bebas memilih.

hebatnya, kamu juga membebaskan orang lain untuk memilih.

you are a pro choice.

that's my girl.

dearest tary,

jalani hidup dengan penuh optimis dan ikhtiar

dan keep on stay true to yourself.

sesusah apapun hidup dan pilihan-pilihannya ini,

you always know you.

semangat, beb.

i love you so much.

xoxo,

29 tahun tary.