#ayeon

𝒮𝚆𝙴𝙴𝚃 ' 𝕄͟𝔼͟𝕃͟𝕆͟𝔻͟𝕀͟𝔼͟𝕊͟  〜  시적인

i personally like to think a-yeon‘s favorite painting from francis bacon’s portfolio is his 1954 figure with meat. more specifically, it’s something like the figure with meat is a long held favorite since she was a child but as of late, for whatever reason, she’s taken more interest in the may-june 1973 triptych than she ever did as a child. while i personally view figure of meat as a painting that’s meant to show the world as it is in all of it’s raw agony (the idea that people, as much as we play them up and give them meaning, are all flesh and blood and animal at heart; something i think is very symbolic for how a-yeon views the world), the may-june 1973 triptych is visceral and poignant. something more emotional, something full of the loss that comes with caring. i like to imagine her never being able to understand it or interact with it her entire life, not like she could resonate with any other painting, and kind of sidestepped it despite it being his most emotionally charged work. maybe she admired it, but she couldn’t really connect to it; not like she’s beginning to be able to now. not to say that she understands even a minuscule amount of bacon’s grief, but more the idea that she is possibly beginning to understand how the painting could have been created & what emotions it was borne from. how does loss exist? how does guilt exist? because of love, because of care.