ᴀᴍ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴘʀᴏᴄᴇꜱꜱ ʜᴀʀᴜᴍᴀ'ꜱ ᴘᴀꜱꜱɪɴɢ. ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ ɪᴛ ᴀꜰꜰᴇᴄᴛꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴍᴜᴄʜ.. ɪ ᴀᴍ ʜᴜᴍᴀɴ ᴏꜰ ᴄᴏᴜʀꜱᴇ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴇᴍᴘᴀᴛʜʏ ᴀɴᴅ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ꜱᴀᴅɴᴇꜱꜱ. ʙᴜᴛ ᴇɴᴅ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʏ ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴋɴᴇᴡ ʜɪᴍ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴᴀʟʟʏ.
ᴀʟꜱᴏ ʙᴇɪɴɢ 1990 ʙᴏʀɴ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴀᴍ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴅɪᴇ ʜᴀʀᴅ ꜰᴀɴɢɪʀʟ. ɪ ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀ ᴊ-ᴅʀᴀᴍᴀꜱ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʙᴏᴘ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜᴇᴅ ꜱᴏ ᴍᴀɴʏ. ᴀɴᴅ ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴀʟꜱᴏ ᴀ ᴊᴅʀᴀᴍᴀ ꜰᴀɴ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛʜᴇɴ, ʏᴏᴜ ᴘʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴅ ᴏꜰ ɢᴏᴋᴜꜱᴇɴ..
ɪ ꜱᴀᴡ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴇᴀꜱᴏɴꜱ, ᴀɴᴅ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴀ ꜱᴜᴄᴋᴇʀ ꜰᴏʀ ʙᴀᴅ ɢᴜʏ ɪ ꜰᴇʟʟ ꜰᴏʀ ʜᴀʀᴜᴍᴀ'ꜱ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ. ʜɪꜱ ᴛᴀʟᴇɴᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ʟᴏᴏᴋꜱ ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴇɴᴅ ᴜᴘ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ ɢᴏᴋᴜꜱᴇɴ ɪ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜᴇᴅ ᴋᴏɪᴢᴏʀᴀ (ꜱᴋʏ ᴏꜰ ʟᴏᴠᴇ) ᴛʀᴀɢɪᴄ ᴀɴᴅ ʙᴇᴀᴜᴛɪꜰᴜʟ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ꜱᴛᴏʀʏ ʜᴇ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴏɴʟʏ 16/17 ᴀɴᴅ ꜱᴏ ᴛᴀʟᴇɴᴛᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜɴɢ ᴀᴄᴛᴏʀ.
ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ʙʟᴏᴏᴅʏ ᴍᴏɴᴅᴀʏ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴜʀɴɪɴɢ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ ɪɴ ʜɪꜱ ᴀᴄᴛɪɴɢ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ ɴᴏᴛ ᴏɴʟʏ ᴅɪᴅ ʜᴇ ᴍᴀᴛᴜʀᴇ ʙᴜᴛ ᴀʟꜱᴏ ʜɪꜱ ᴀᴄᴛɪɴɢ ꜱᴋɪʟʟꜱ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴍᴇ more ᴠᴇʀꜱᴀᴛɪʟᴇ
I don't know what caused him to take that decision, my only sadness would be if someone caused his depression. There are information surrounding his passing. And it's hard to process everything right now let alone I don't want to think what his family, friends must be going through.
As a fan I also grew older became mature my fangirling side surprised. But hearing this sad news made me so sad like I lost my old friend.
The scariest thing in the world for me is to hurt or cause pain to someone else. We live in a world were bullying, using power to force people to do things they don't want to, don't caring if the person is working to death, not caring if they are okay!
Unfortunately everyone has there reason if they are suicidal. Also the place you live in is also important, if they cannot provide you the help you need, or being depressed is a taboo, afraid to think people find you weak. And most tragic would be if people wouldn't want to listen cries for help.
I hope the rumors are not true, I hope they did everything for him, I hope they did listen and try to help him, comforted him and told him how awesome actor he is and loved by so many!
You did well Haruma, I and many would not forgot your beautiful smile and charismatic aura!
