#awaebilly

You were in you room laying on your bed with four books scattered all around your bed. You kept turning page after page from different books as you wanted to understand what today’s lesson would be about. you started to panic a bit once you only saw difficult words and strange drawings that was supposed to look like math. You sighed loud and just closed every single book one by one, - “This is hopeless…” – you said to yourself as you pushed the books off your bed, you didn’t want to look at them again.

The books fell with loud thuds on the floor as your sister Ruby entered the room. – “Y/n are you almost…” – she paused her sentence as she saw the books scattered all over the floor. – “Are you at war again with your books?” – she said as she came in and started to collect them. – “Maybe…” – you replied as you watched her place the books on your desk. – “Why don’t you ask for help?” – Ruby asked you as she took your hands and pulled you up from your bed.

You sighed soft as he didn’t want to admit it that it was getting harder for you. – “I’ll figure something out!” – you called out and Ruby gave you a look as she didn’t believe you. – “If you need me, just shout, Y/n…” – she leaded you towards the door as it was time to get to school. Before she pushed you out of the door, you quickly rushed back into your room and grabbed 2 books from your desk.

Ruby closed the door behind you as you were standing next to her again, you looked brief at the books in your hands and placed your head on them as you hoped you could follow during class. Both of you rushed downstairs and you placed the books in your basket and seated yourself down the table to have a quick breakfast. Your mother moved her hand over your hair as she gave you a quick kiss against your forehead.

Ruby looked quick at the clock and jumped out of her seat, still having a piece of bread between her teeth. She took it from between her teeth and spoke fast, - “We have to go, Y/n!” – she then placed it back and putted on her coat as you got up and dragged your feet to your coat and basket. Your mother waved the two of your goodbye as Ruby waved happily back.

On the way to school Ruby was telling you all about how much she adored Gilbert and if he would notice her new hair look. You acted like you listened, but you were panicking inside that you hoped you wouldn’t be tested today. Miss Stacy was a wonderful teacher but the things she sometimes explained seemed like a foreign language to you. The closer you get to school, the more it felt as you wanted to run away.

Ruby ran towards her friends as you knew they didn’t like it when you were there when they talked about ‘mature’ things. You sighed deep as you started to make your way over to the school building as the boys were playing football, you seated yourself down against the wall and just stared in front of you. Gilbert who was playing with the boys paused for a moment and walked over to Billy. – “Blythe we are playing! Why are you pausing?” – Gilbert just sighed and explained to him that he thought it was a good idea to invite you over. – “You serious? You want Y/n to play with us?” – Gilbert nodded soft as he looked brief at you.

“No way!” – Billy called out, - “Football is for boys, not for little girls!” – Gilbert sighed deep as he was a bit disappointed in his behaviour. – “Fine than I’ll just go over to her and talk!” – Gilbert than walked away as Billy called out his name again because now he had a player less. You had to blink a few times as you saw Gilbert walk over to you. – “May I?” – he asked you as he pointed at the spot in front of you.

You nodded soft, still confused that he would come over to you. If Ruby saw this, she would have squealed loud and shout in your ear that you had a moment with him. you watched him sit in front of you as you felt nervous around him. – “how are you, Y/n?” – he asked you as you swallowed deep to avoid any high-pitched tones. – “Go... good, how are you?” – you replied as you were glad it came out in a reasonable tone.

He chuckled soft as he noticed the books in your basket, - “Are you studying these?” – he asked you as he took a big heavy book from your basket to examine the cover. You nodded shy as he frowned at the cover, - “Y/n this is way too hard for you…” – he said calm as he kept looking at the cover and back. You started to get a bit angry that he thought you were dumb or something, so you grabbed the book from his hand and placed it back. – “I am very smart!” – you shouted back at him.

He was surprised for a moment but soon chuckled again as you exclaimed that. – “I never doubted that Y/n…” – he said soft as you still felt like he was ridiculing you. – “My uncle gave me this book to help me out with studying because he thinks I need it since I can barely follow or anything…” – “you need help with studying?” – Gilbert interrupted you as you hated yourself for telling him that. – “No…” – you replied bossy as he chuckled again at your behaviour.

“Y/n, you can be honest with me?” – he said soft as he lowered his head a bit, to look at you clearer. You tried to keep your lips sealed but you knew you were collapsing underneath all those fancy words and difficult problems. You sighed deep after some moments, - “Gilbert can you help me study? I …I … I feel like the walls are closing in on me, … I barely understand a subject fully as we are already on the next one…” – you let your head fall in the palms of your hands as you felt ashamed for being so dumb.

Gilbert pulled your hands down as he gave you a sweet smile, - “Y/n I would love to help you study… but why didn’t you ask me before?” – you shrugged your shoulders soft as you had no idea why you were ever afraid of calling for help. – “I’ll help you out but first…” – he started as he moved his hand towards your basket again, - “No more difficult books!” – he took the big heavy book and placed it on his lap. You wanted to say something, but he paused you by speaking again, - “Even I don’t understand this book, Y/n so I don’t think you are dumb or anything but this…” – he picked up the book again and showed it to you, - “This is way too hard…”

You smiled soft at him as you felt relieved that Gilbert would help you study. – “I’ll pick you up after school!” – he called out as he stood up and reached his hands out to you, you took them and let him pull you up. – “But…” – you started but he shushed you by placing his finger against your lips, - “No but’s, I’m picking you up after school and we’ll study at my place… I know we won’t be disturbed there.”

You gazed at him for a moment as he removed his finger from against your lips, the school bell than rang and Gilbert smiled sweet at you as he made his way over to the entrance. He paused halfway as he looked back at you, - “Are you coming Y/n?” – he called out as you blinked a few more times and hopped towards him. Gilbert chuckled soft and waited for you to walk inside.

During class you tried to pay as many attentions as you could, after a while you thought your head would explode from all the unknown words that would swirl around your mind. Miss Stacy asked everyone to gather around the table as everyone rushed quickly to get a good spot. Everyone was faster than you and you were standing in the back as you couldn’t see anything with all those taller people in front of you. Suddenly you felt someone pull you towards him and push you to the front, you looked over your shoulder and saw Gilbert standing behind you with his hands on your shoulder.

He gave you a quick wink as it made you swoon inside, you then looked back in front of you as you had a good view of the table. Gilbert kept standing behind you and if he noticed that you couldn’t follow he would whisper the explanation of it short to you by using simple words. You started to understand it more as Gilbert whispered the easy version in your ear, his breath sometimes tickled your skin as you thought it felt nice on your skin.

During lunchtime Gilbert stayed inside as he was looking for good books in the teacher’s room. He kept looking at each book and scanning each cover if it would be a perfect book to help you study. He barely had time to eat as he wanted to help you out, he kept biting from his bread in between movements. By the time lunchtime was over he had collected six or seven books, he walked out of the teacher’s room and arranged with Miss Stacy that he could borrow them.

For the rest of the time you tried to keep up with everyone’s pace but you felt the walls closing in on you, you felt like giving up at some point but then you remembered that Gilbert was doing his very best to help you, you couldn’t give up on him now so, you pushed yourself to continue even if you only understood half of it.

School was finally over, and you walked with your sister home as your head was full of weird words and difficult sketches of math problems. You didn’t tell Ruby that Gilbert was coming to pick you up at your house or she would have asked, you to come along and that was the last thing you wanted. She would only get in the way and besides you wanted some alone time with Gilbert as you had a small crush on him but never dared to engage on that out of freight of Ruby.

As soon as you got home, you collected all sorts of books and placed them in your basket. You barely took off your coat and ran back downstairs with a heavy basket full of books. Your parents frowned at your behaviour as you only told them that you were going to play with a friend. Ruby found it weird that you were waiting in the hallway, you were sitting on a bench in the hallway as you waited for Gilbert to arrive.

You heard a knock on the door and called out that it was your friend as you opened the door a bit and before Gilbert could walk in you rushed outside and pulled him back with you. He didn’t have the chance to say goodbye to your parents as you were already walking back towards the woods with him again. Gilbert decided to let it rest as he figured it had something to do with Ruby, he noticed your basket full of books and chuckled soft as he thought it was cute how much effort you putted in it.

During the walk the basket got too heavy for you to carry as it almost fell out your hands. – “Allow me…” – Gilbert spoke as he helped you lift the basket again and took it from you. He placed it in his left hand as the weight didn’t do him anything, you gasped soft as you admired his strength. – “We’re almost there, Y/n” – he said soft as he suddenly took your hand and leaded you under a low hanging branch. You felt yourself blush at his touch as you saw the top of his house already in sight.

Gilbert welcomed you in and took your coat, you seated yourself down as he walked back in with your basket. He placed it on the table and then walked away, he came seconds later with his own stock of books. – “Are those all for me?” – you asked him soft as he seated himself next to you, - “Yes, and I expect you not to know any of these in one day so, if you don’t mind I think we’ll need to come together a lot more…”

You started to blush again as you looked nervous at the table, - “I don’t mind…” – you replied soft as Gilbert was already picking a first book, you frowned at the cover and knew this was going to be hard for you, but Gilbert helped you a lot. Soon as you were already half way the first book, Gilbert got tired of sitting down so he had leaded you to his living room where you were laying on his carpet next to the fire place. Slowly you started to understand things as Gilbert was excited for you, you were laying in front of him on your stomach as he laid the same with the book in his hand.

After a while as you both were a bit tired of studying, closed Gilbert the book and placed it next to him. – “I’ve we keep up this pace, I’ll think I’ll have to get more books as I never want this to end…” – you smiled shy as he started to run his fingers through his hair, - “Let’s take a break than?” – you suggested as you seated yourself better.

You wanted to grab the book and Gilbert noticed it as he moved his hand towards yours, before you touched the book he let his fingers get in touch with yours. You looked nervous at him as you let him move his fingers through yours. He was touching them in a gentle and soft way as your stomach started to tingle. You had to supress a squeal as you didn’t want to sound like your older sister Ruby, you just pressed your lips together as he finally placed his hand in yours and pulled your hand close to him.

“I’m really grateful that you asked me to help you study, Y/n…” – he said soft as it sounded like a whisper, you licked your lips soft as you heard wood crackle beside you. – “I’m glad I did…” – you replied as Gilbert took the book again. You frowned as you thought you were going to take a break, he held the book close to his face as you only saw his eyes. – “Gilbert, I thought we postponed our study session…” – you said to him as you moved your head closer to him and lowering his book with your finger.

Gilbert saw that you were close enough now and he dropped his book on his lap and grabbed your face. He pulled your face closer to him as he pressed his lips onto yours seconds later, you were shocked for a moment but let him kiss you as you felt yourself surrender under his love. He pulled away moments later and looked shy at the book on his lap, he only looked up when you called out his name and placed your hand on his knee.

“I liked that very much…” – you replied uncertain as you had no idea how to react on a kiss. Gilbert chuckled soft, - “Me too, Y/n… me too…” – you took his hand again and watched the fire dance on the wood as Gilbert turned himself better, so you could let your head rest against his shoulder. You did, and Gilbert let his head rest against yours, - “Can we study again tomorrow…” – Gilbert asked you as he enjoyed this moment. – “I’d like that very much…” – you replied as you pulled yourself closer to him.

Gilbert smiled in instant as he couldn’t wait to see you tomorrow and the days after to help you study and perhaps sometimes steal a kiss from you as he loved you very much. He never knew he did, but this experience made his mind clear about his feelings towards you.

You and your brother were like the black sheep of the school, Moody was clumsy and could never follow with everything that happened and just let it overwhelm him as you were equally clumsy and was the one that people easily looked past. You were almost never invited to anyone’s house or playtimes as they never wanted you around.

In time you got used to it that people looked past you and that you were doomed to be the black sheep of the class alongside your brother. You and your brother were each other best friends as you hardly had anyone else. On school days you would walk with him to school and at school you would talk to Ruby, but she also had other friends. It was possible that you had to sit alone as Ruby was sitting with the other girls.

You and Moody had just arrived at school as he saw the boys already playing football, - “Alright I’m going to play sis. What are you going to do?” – Moody spoke as he was eager to play with them but wanted to make sure that you were alright. - “Probably talking with Ruby…” – you replied as you looked around for Ruby. You saw her talking to Anne and Diana as you took a deep breath, glad that Josie wasn’t with them.

She had a habit of calling you out and making you the main attraction to laugh at. Moody gave you a quick hug before he ran over to the boys, you took another deep breath as you started to walk towards Ruby. – “Good morning Ruby!” – you called out as he turned around to face you, - “Oh, good morning Y/n…” – Ruby turned her body again to Diana and Anne as you stood behind her a bit lost.

You looked nervous around you as she was ignoring you again, you then noticed Gilbert arriving and a silly smile appeared on your face as you noticed everyone greeting him. – “There is Gilbert!” – Ruby called out and she took Diana and Anne’s hand leading them to him to greet him. You watched them run past you as you followed them curious, you knew he would never greet you but still you wanted to see him.

A group had formed around Gilbert as they greeted him, you wanted to join the group as suddenly a person pushed you back. – “Move chubby!” – you were being pushed outside the group as you looked at the devious grin on Josie’s face, - “You really think you can be a part of us!” – she laughed in a mocking tone as you looked ashamed at the ground. – “Nobody wants you here chubby!” – Josie spitted at you as she pushed you hard.

You tripped over your own feet and fell with a loud thud to the ground, it made her laugh even harder as she turned her body to close the small opening in the group. You seated yourself down as you looked at your elbows that looked red from the fall. – “Are you alright?” – you suddenly heard from in front of you.

You looked up and noticed Gilbert pushing Josie aside to look at you clearer. You freaked out for and tried to pull yourself up as Gilbert came closer to you, extending his hand to you. You ignored his helping hand as you stood firm on your feet again, - “I… I’m alright… no need to worry about me…” – you said soft as you looked at your own feet, your hands folded together.

“Are you sure Y/n?” – Gilbert asked you as he tried to look at your face, you nodded soft as you bit your under lip soft, - “I’m alright… thank you …” – you stuttered soft as you lifted your head to find him smiling soft at you. – “Gilbert!” – Ruby called out as she grabbed his arm and started to lead him again to the group.

You sighed disappointed as you lowered your head and turned your body to walk away. Gilbert couldn’t stop Ruby’s pulling so he looked over his shoulder to you as you looked at the same time over your shoulder. You gasped soft as he smiled soft at you for looking at the same time, you quickly turned your head again as it was turning red. Gilbert looked one more time over his shoulder to you but this time you didn’t look back.

He sighed soft as he had hoped you would look at him again at the same time. Gilbert was again the centre of the group as he hoped to talk to you more, he never had to chance to get to know you. He only knew you as Moody’s sister and he wished he could discover another side of you than the one everyone gives you.

Gilbert didn’t think you were at all clumsy or stupid, he just thought you were misunderstood. He hated it that everyone formed your personality for you, you were none of those things to him. You walked over to a spot where you could sit down and watch Moody play. You waved happily at your brother as he paused the ball underneath his foot to wave at you.

He mouthed an ‘are you alright?’ as he heard Billy shout at him to pass the ball to him. You gave him a soft ‘yes’ as you didn’t want him to worry, Billy kicked the ball from underneath his foot as he got inpatient. Moody moved his hands in the air as he couldn’t believe that Billy would do that, he then lowered his head and putted his hands in his pocket as he walked over to you.

“Not playing anymore?” – you asked him as he seated himself next to you, - “I guess not…” -  he replied as he gazed in front of him. – “I thought you would be with Ruby?” – he asked you on his turn, you shook your head soft as he already knew the answer. You sighed loud as you placed your arm around his and rested your head against his shoulder.

“I don’t think we are meant to be more than what they think of us…” – you breathed out soft as Moody placed his hand on yours that was around his arm, laying on his lap. – “I know … I’m so glad I have you Y/n … I wouldn’t know what to do without you.” – he squeezed your hand soft as you gazed in front of you, knowing that without Moody you would be lost.

Gilbert had finally escaped the group as he noticed you and Moody sitting down, he bit his lip soft as he felt sorry for the both of you. The others shouldn’t treat you like that, it bothered him that they thought so little of you. – “I’m going to show them all how great Y/n is!” – Gilbert said to himself as it became a mission for him. He heard Miss Stacy ring the bell and he rushed inside, you and Moody got up and walked inside together.

You seated yourself down as Miss Stacy started to explain today’s topic, she asked the class a question and Gilbert answered it in all his glory. – “He’s so smart…” – you said dreamy as Ruby was gazing at him from next to you. – “I know isn’t he dreamy…” – she added as she kept gazing at him. – “I wish I was that smart…” – you said soft, - “Like that is ever going to happen, stop dreaming Chubby!” – Josie suddenly mocked at you as she turned herself around in her seat.

You gave her a look as you tried to ignore her remark but deep down it bothered you. You suddenly froze as you heard your name, - “Y/n can you tell me what happens when I combine electricity with gas?” – Miss Stacy asked you and everyone looked at you as they were eager to know if you could answer this.

“This is going to be fun!” – Josie said grinning as she was glad that she could see you fail, all the colour in your face had disappeared as you saw everyone stare at you. You started to rub your sweaty hands together as you could only hear your heartbeat in your throat. – “… … …” – you opened your mouth, trying to get words to come out but nothing happened.

Moody was giving you a terrified look as he hoped you wouldn’t be laughed at, Gilbert on the other hand had clenched his fist as he whispered soft at himself, - “Come on Y/n … you know this…” – you looked around terrified as you locked eyes with Gilbert. You felt more at ease as he gave you some encouraging looks, you took a deep breath and managed to speak. – “Fire…” – you replied still uncertain that your answer was right.

Miss Stacy smiled bright as she told you the answer was correct, you widened your eyes as you couldn’t believe her. Gilbert got up from his seat and started to clap loud to you, Moody followed his lead as he was very proud of you. You looked confused at them as you had never had an encounter like that, soon Ruby, Diana and Anne followed his movement as he encouraged them to clap for you.

You started to let soft laughs escape your mouth as you were never this proud at yourself. Even Miss Stacy clapped for you as she was very proud of you, Josie was the only one who was sitting grumpy in her seat. Moody jumped out of his seat and rushed over to you to cheer with you. – “Y/n! you did it, you proved them wrong…” – he called out as he wrapped his arms around you.

“I … I couldn’t have done it without Gilbert’s encouraging looks, …” – Gilbert heard his name and smiled soft as he seated himself down again and looked in front of him still smiling. Miss Stacy calmed everyone down after some moments and Moody walked back to his seat as you felt the excitement flow through your body. You were glad that Gilbert looked after you, you thought the world of him and now seeing him help you was like heaven on earth.

As it was soon lunch time you were the topic of the day, everyone was amazed that you gave the right answer for the first time. Most of the time you blabbed something unknown as you couldn’t handle the attention. – “Y/n!” – you heard behind you as the last people were congratulating you, you looked over your shoulder and saw Gilbert coming in your direction.

“Gilbert!” – you squealed as you were surprised that he would walk up to you, the boy you looked up to for so long just walked over to you and only you. – “Y/n!” – he called out again as he was near you, - “You were amazing … I knew you could do it!” – you smiled shy at him as you started to fumble your dress. – “Chubby over here just got lucky!” – Josie scoffed at you as Gilbert gave her a filthy look in seconds.

“Shut up, Josie!” – he shouted at her as you looked embarrassed at the ground, you looked at your size and had to hold back your tears as you didn’t like to be called out like that. – “Please Gilbert we both now, chubby over here is pathetic!” – Gilbert clenched his jaw as he made a fist, - “Say one more word and I’ll punch you!” – Gilbert yelled at her as she raised her eyebrow in disbelieve that he would ever dare to touch her.

Gilbert faked that he would punch her as she ducked down and looked shocked back up as she saw his hand not even near her. – “Get the hell out of my face before I hit you for real!” – Gilbert yelled angry at her as she started to run away. He breathed a few times to calm himself down as you had started to cry soft. Gilbert heard you and turned his head in seconds towards you, - “Y/n … don’t believe a single word she says!”

You shook your head as you wished her words wouldn’t hurt you, but they did. – “She’s right…” – you answered soft and Gilbert had to hold back, - “No!” – he shouted at you, making you jump back a bit out of fright. – “You are not! Y/n you are a smart beautiful girl!” – “Beautiful!” – you cut him off as he was surprised by your little outburst. – “I am not beautiful, I am the opposite of beautiful!”

“No, you’re not!” – Gilbert grabbed your shoulders as he was trying to make a point, - “Y/n you are beautiful and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise! And … and if you ever say that again about yourself than you are telling me that I have a bad taste is girls…” – you gasped soft as you couldn’t believe a single word he was telling you.

“Y/n you are beautiful, remember that!” – he said calm as he looked with his hazel brown eyes at you. You smiled faintly at him as he started to rub your arms soft. – “will you believe me now, Y/n?” – you nodded soft and he smiled bright at you. He then placed a soft kiss against your sleep as you blushed underneath his touch.

There was a time that you loved Billy with all your heart but lately you felt like there was something missing and Billy couldn’t fill it up. His anger issues and arrogance got the best of him, it changed him in someone you didn’t love. In time your love for him started to fade away, Gilbert was the only who noticed the changes around you.  

You were quieter than normal, more on edge and depressed. He was the only one who listened to you and started to care for you. He never expected to fall in love with you but it just happened and you started to fall for him as well.

At the time your feelings for Billy were as good as gone and you wanted more than anything to be with Gilbert, that was why you were planning to break up with him but Billy found out before you could explain things to him. He had seen you and Gilbert almost kiss, which leaded him to the actions of earlier.

You kept running through the woods, breathing heavily and pushing every low hanging branch out of your face as your vision was blurry from crying. You fell a few times on your knees as you pulled yourself up, scared that Billy was still chasing you. You've never seen him so angry and it frightened you.

Billy was capable of many things and you knew all too well which ones. You had no idea to where you were running, you just kept going and going until your feet couldn’t carry you any longer. You fell to your knees as you fell over a branch, scratching your knee that started to bleed.

You pulled your knees closer to you as you buried your head between your knees, crying out loud. You heart told you that you did the right thing, releasing yourself from Billy as your mind told you it was a stupid thing and that Billy was going after either you or Gilbert. If Billy was angry, you better stay away from you because he showed no one mercy.

“He’s not the one!” - your heart kept shouting at you as your mind kept shouting at you. - “Go back and ask for forgiveness before it’s too late.” - you screamed out loud, making several birds fly away out of fright.  

After an hour or so you pulled yourself up and dragged yourself to Gilbert, you thought he deserved to know that things are over with you and Billy and that he might come his way to beat him up or so. Your face was all red from crying, your wrists were cherry red from his grip and your knee was bleeding but you didn’t care anymore.  

You didn’t care if Billy came after you but he better kept his hands of Gilbert, if there was one person who he wanted to beat up or scream at, it had to be you. You were the one that ended things, not Gilbert.

Gilbert was just walking towards his house as he noticed you in the corner of his eye. He quickly looked again as he noticed in what state you were. Gilbert dropped everything and ran towards you, afraid of how you looked. - “Y/n?” - he shouted as he made his way over to you.

You started to cry again as Gilbert was near to you, - “What happened? Y/n tell me!” - he placed his arm around you as he started to lead you inside. - “I … I broke up with him...” - Gilbert abruptly paused you and moved in front of you, holding you by your shoulders. - “You did what?”  

“I … I broke up with him. I couldn’t take it anymore, Gilbert!” - you started to cry again and Gilbert wanted to take your hand but when he touched your wrist you jumped back from the pain, it was then that he noticed your bruises and bleeding knee.  

“Y/n! Did … Billy did this to you?” - Gilbert tried to supress his sudden rage but you could still hear it in his voice. “I’m fine!” - you called out between your tears, - “I just came to warn you that Billy might come after you!” - “Let him come, I will gladly punch him for hurting you!” - Gilbert couldn’t hide his anger anymore and he started to pace around you, controlling his rage to punch something and Billy’s face most of all.  

“Gilbert please” - you tried to catch his attention as he kept pacing around you. “Promise me when he gets here, you will avoid him.” - Gilbert suddenly stopped pacing and walked in front of you again. “I can’t, Y/n not after what he did to you!” - you wiped some tears away as you grabbed his hand. “Promise me!”  

Gilbert sighed deep and for a moment you thought he was going to give in but he didn’t. - “I’m sorry Y/n but I can’t, not anymore.” - you took a few deep breaths knowing that you couldn’t change his mind. Gilbert than leaded you inside to take care of your knee.

Billy was stomping his way over to Gilbert’s house. “I got cheated on, broken up.” - he shook his angry. “This is not my day! And someone is going to pay for it!” - Billy kept marching angry as he was figuring out ways to make you pay. “No one cheats on me! Especially not Y/n!”

Meanwhile Gilbert had practised his doctor skills on your knee and wrists. You had no idea what was coming your way. It was like Billy’s rage hang in the atmosphere, everything he passed by started to feel dreary and afraid. Several animals crawled back in their home’s as Billy passed them, flowers started to shrink at his aura as he stepped close to them.  

Even the sky started to get grey, giving you a sign that danger was coming your way. You noticed the weather change and got up, leaving Gilbert’s house. Gilbert knew what you were going to do so you blocked the door behind you, preventing him from leaving.  

“Y/n open the door! Right now!” - Gilbert shouted as he kept pounding against the door. “I can’t let others get hurt because of my mistakes!” - you shouted back as you made you way over towards the woods. - “Y/n!!!” - Gilbert shouted as he kept turning the doorknob and punching his fist against the door.

You wiped your tears away as it felt like you were walking in slow-motion towards him. Billy was close and once he noticed you he paused for a moment. You kept walking over to him as Billy also got into motion again. “Y/n!” - he shouted, making you jump out of your skin.

“Billy it’s over. Leave!” - you shouted back as he was close to you. - “You think you can leave me like that!” - Billy grabbed your hand tight and you immediately felt the stinging from before. - “Billy I’m not yours and I will never be!” - you shouted at him which made him grab your face tight, squeezing your cheeks together. - “You want to say that again! Y/n you are mine or no one’s!”  

You kept trying to pull your face away as he kept grabbing you tighter in every spot; your face, wrists, hair, … - “Where’s your Gilbert now!” - he kept his face inches away from yours, intimidating you as you kept struggling against him.

“He’s right here!” - you suddenly heard from behind you. Billy’s eyes widened for a few seconds as he held you tight. - “Gilbert walk away!” - you shouted at him, trying to keep him save.

Gilbert ignored you and turned his attention to Billy and only him. “Hands off her!” - he shouted so loud it made you shiver. Billy laughed cocky as he pushed you to the ground and made his way over to Gilbert.

“You’re going to pay for this!” - Gilbert shouted as he pulled his fist back to punch him. Gilbert’s punch hit Billy in the face, making him fall on the ground with just one punch. Gilbert jumped on top of him and punched him again several times as Billy couldn’t move.

“Gilbert!” - you shouted as you made your way over to him, trying to pull him of Billy. You kept pulling his arm back as he kept pulling it back to his face. “Gilbert that’s enough!” - you shouted and just like that Gilbert stopped punching him and got up, wrapping his arm protective over yours as Billy tried to recover from the punches.

“If I ever see you around Y/n again, your death!” - Gilbert shouted as he pulled you closer to him, you buried your head in his neck as Billy got up slowly. Billy looked one more time at the two of you before disappearing.  

As he left you started to cry again and Gilbert comforted you soft. “It’s alright Y/n. He won’t hurt you anymore.” - you nodded soft and wrapped your arms around him as he touched your cheek soft.

“Y/n look at me.” - Gilbert said soft as he lifted your head to meet up with his hazel brown eyes. “know that I love you.” - his voice sounded like he was convincing you that he wasn’t going anywhere and that he still loved you.  

“I ...I love you too, Gilbert.” - you replied soft. Gilbert then pressed his lips against yours, hoping he could kiss away your pain and fear.

Suddenly you felt dizzy and almost fell to your knees. Gilbert and Billy both reacted in seconds by pulling you up and supporting you. - “Y/n are you alright?” - Gilbert would ask you as he looked concerned at you. - “Sis, everything alright, tell me if you are having any pain?” - Billy would ask you at the same time. You shook your head soft as you pulled yourself up by supporting on them. - “I’m fine, I’m fine.”  

Billy felt your temperature as he held his hand against your forehead. - “Y/n you are feeling a bit warm?” - “Billy I’m fine...” - you replied as you pushed his hand away. Billy looked over at Gilbert. - “You should feel her, I’m telling you she is feeling warm?” - Gilbert placed the back of his hand against your forehead. - “Your right, she is feeling a bit warm.”  

“What do we do?” - Billy asked him concerned as Gilbert thought deep. You sighed and let go of them, walking over to a big branch sitting down. They both tried to grab you as you went over to the branch but you shook them off. you seated yourself down and took some deep breaths. - “If you need me, I’ll be sitting down while the two of you bicker on about what to do.”

They both ignored your comment as they were too worried about what to do. - “Maybe we can bring her home?” -  Gilbert asked Billy as he shook his head. - “Our parents are home and they would find it odd that Y/n is sick again.” - “Right.” - Gilbert replied as he scratched the back of his head. - “Bring her to school and constantly watch over her?” - Billy suggested as Gilbert slowly started to nod at his suggestion.  

“I think that could work, we take shifts during class for looking at her and asking if she is fine...” - Gilbert started as Billy finished his sentence. - “And during Lunch we can both sit with her and make her as comfortable as she likes?” - you sighed from where you were sitting, you loved it that they cared about you but sometimes they could exaggerate.  

“Your uncle and father are really something...” - you joked at your unborn child as you placed your hands around your bump. - “But they are really sweethearts.” you noticed Both Gilbert and Billy walking over to you, extending their hands to you. You took each hand and let them pull you up. - “Don’t worry Y/n we got it under control.” - Billy told you as he squeezed your hand soft.

Both Gilbert and Billy then placed a kiss against your cheek at the same time, Gilbert kissed your left cheek and Billy your right. - “if you boys are ready with smooching can we go to school then?” - you teased them as they both looked at each other, laughing soft. - “Sure love.” - Gilbert took your hand again and Billy tangled his arm around your other.

As you were walking closer to school you noticed several students looking over at you and whispering. You knew they were talking about your protective boys that looked like they were guarding the Queen of England or so. It made you feel like you were under a loop and everyone was taking turns to get a good look at you.  

Both Gilbert and Billy ignored the others as they walked inside with you. You wanted to take of you coat but Billy stopped you and pulled your coat out, like you were a small child that couldn’t dress itself. - “Billy you know I can still undress myself!” - you gave him a look as he ignored you. Gilbert than leaded his hands to your scarf, taking it from your neck. you sighed again but it was no use.

Gilbert and Billy then placed their hands on your back as they leaded you to your seat. Prissy and Jane looked at you as they thought it was silly that Billy gave you so much attention. They even thought Gilbert was trying too hard. - “I’m telling you Jane, something is up with those three?” - Prissy whispered to her as she had her arms crossed looking over at you.

“I agree! Those three are definitely hiding something.” - Jane whispered back as she narrowed her eyes at you. You noticed your sisters looking over at you and you had a feeling they were getting tired of this sudden behaviour. - “Gil, Billy I appreciated it but I think you can leave me for a few moments?” - Both of them gave each other a confused look. - “Y/n we are just …" - “I know!” - you interrupted Gilbert. - “People are staring Gil...” - “let them!” - Gilbert was the one to interrupt you now.

You sighed as you placed your hand against your forehead. - “I’ll be fine just do what you normally do!” - you begged them as they kept standing overprotective next to you. - “Just a few moments, I'll be fine... I promise.” - they both sighed deep and nodded. - “Alright a few moments!” - Billy called out as he made his way over to Moody. Gilbert kept standing by your side a few moments longer but left as you gave him a look.

Billy motioned for Gilbert to come to him and Gilbert quickly ran over to him. - “We need to talk about Y/n’s future?” - Gilbert nodded as he looked brief over at you. - “Your right, she can’t stay at school. I won’t have the others make fun of her or scold at her!” - Billy nodded as he pulled Gilbert closer to him so only he could hear it. - “We need to come up with a plan? Y/n should be home-schooled maybe and what about you?”  

“I’ll speed up my studies to provide for her!” - Gilbert replied soft as Billy patted his back. - “I’ll speed up my studies as well to help you out!” - Gilbert looked at Billy like he has never done before. - “Thank you, Billy you’re a good brother.” - Billy laughed soft as he placed his arm around Gilbert’s shoulders. - “And you are a good boyfriend and ….” - he looked suspicious around him as he came closer to Gilbert and whispered to him. - “Father.”  

Gilbert smiled wide and pulled Billy close for a hug. Prissy and Jane each widened their eyes as they watched them hug. - “This is the top, Gilbert and Billy are hugging each other?” - Jane said soft as she looked confused at Prissy. Prissy bit her underlip angry as she turned around and walked over to you. - “Y/n what is going on with the three of you!” - She raised her eyebrow in her big sister way as you swallowed deep.

“There is nothing going on Prissy.” - you casually said as you tried to wave the subject away. - ”Y/n I know your lying to us!” - jane slammed her hands against the desk as she leaned angry against them. You jumped a bit back from the sudden outburst as Jane and Prissy kept glaring at you. - “Can we not do this here?” - you shout-whispered at them as you looked around suspicious.

“So, there is something going on?” - Prissy called out as she crossed her arms again. - “Prissy I’ll explain everything to you but not right now!” - you spitted between your teeth. Jane and Prissy both huffed. - “why can’t you tell us now? We are your sisters, or aren’t we?” - Jane spitted back as she slammed her hands against the table again.  

“Enough!” - you shouted, slamming your hands against the table, startling everyone in class. - “I told you to be patient!” - you shouted as you started to crawl out of your seat. - “I have had enough of everyone thinking they can tell me what to do!” - you had removed yourself from your seat and wanted to leave but you felt a sudden pain in your stomach.

You grabbed your stomach as you fell to your knees, still holding a hand against the table. Billy and Gilbert had seen you fall to your knees and rushed as fast as they could to your side, pushing everyone aside that came swirling around you. - “Y/n!” - Gilbert shouted as he kneeled beside you and held his hand on your back.

Billy also kneeled beside you and tried to help you. - “Y/n! Tell me are you alright?” - you wanted to get up but felt another sting of pain go through your stomach. You screamed out of pain as you fell back to your knees. - “Y/n!” - Gilbert shouted as he started to breath quicker out of fear. Gilbert placed your arm around his shoulder as he wanted to support you. - “how did this happen?” - Billy asked you concerned as he kept holding your arm.

“She just got angry and collapsed...” - Jane called out, anxious that it might be their doing. - “We didn’t mean to upset her!” - Prissy added as Gilbert looked at both of them with disgust in his eyes. - “Are the two of you out of your mind!” - Billy shouted as they both jumped back a bit. You kept screaming out of pain as you held your hand around your stomach. - “Gilbert!” - you shouted as you squeezed your nails into his shirt. Fear struck his eyes as he only had to look brief at Billy and he understood what they needed to do.  

Gilbert helped you to your feet and they both picked you up and leaded you outside. Prissy and Jane felt guilty so they followed the three of you outside. They ran to a secure place, far from the school building as they seated you down. You started to breath out in puffs as you tried to control the pain. - “Y/n tell me is the baby alright?” - Billy asked you as he ran his hands desperately through his hair.

“Baby?” - Jane and Prissy both called out as they rushed over to you. Billy widened his eyes as he saw his sister ran past him to kneel in front of you. - “Y/n what is Billy talking about?” - Prissy called out as she held her hands on your knees. - “I... I wanted to tell you but I never found the right time...” - you said between your puffs. Gilbert kept making circles on your back with his hand to calm you down.

“Tell us what?” - Jane called out as she squeezed your knee. - “That I'm pregnant.” - you said soft as you looked up at Gilbert. Gilbert nodded in approval that it was the right time for them to know. They both kept staring at you with an open mouth as Billy came closer again. - “Y/n are you feeling any better?” - you nodded soft. - “I just pushed myself to hard. The baby is fine just a stress outburst.” - you said soft as you took his hand and squeezed it.  

“Does mother know?” - Prissy asked you curious as she felt a bit overwhelmed. - “No!” - You, Billy and Gilbert shouted at the same time. - “They can’t know... not yet.” - you finished as your sisters nodded soft. - “If mother knew she would kick Y/n out of the house and I don’t want that!” - Billy added as he gave them his brotherly look. - “You know Y/n if they should kick you out, you can always live with me?” - you gave Gilbert a kiss on his lips. - “I know that...” - you replied soft.

“Can … can I feel it?” - Prissy asked you as she moved her hand near your stomach. You looked back at Billy and Gilbert and they nodded soft that she could feel it. Prissy moved her hand to your stomach and her hand jumped a bit back as she felt your bump. She then placed it better and closed her eyes trying to feel the baby. - “Can I also feel?” - Jane asked you as she already had her hand near your stomach.

“Yes.” - you said soft and Jane also placed her hand next to Prissy’s against your stomach. They both looked at each other and laughed as they felt the baby. Gilbert moved his head closer to you as he kissed your forehead. - “I love you Y/n” - he whispered soft. - “I love you too.” - you replied as you looked at your sisters smiling bright.

Billy had also kneeled beside you and held your hand tight as he moved his hand to your stomach to feel the baby. You felt yourself almost cry at the sight of it, your siblings smiling bright as they felt your baby and Gilbert placing his arm around you as he kissed your sleep again.  

You chuckled soft as you looked outside the window, picturing the perfect scenario that Gilbert would marry you one day and that your Brother approves of it and still loves you. That your parents would support you and your sisters planning all sorts of baby stuff with you... “If only that could happen” - you said to yourself as you sighed deep and let your head rest against the window.

As you were close to your home it was no use to go back to school since the day was almost over, you decided to just go home and come up with some excuse to why you weren’t at school for either your parents and your brother Billy. He would constantly worry about you and especially if you didn’t show up at school. You sneaked up to your room and waited for your brother to storm in the moment he got back from school.

“Y/n where have you been?” - Billy slammed open your door as you just sat on your bed, knowing how he would react.  you sighed just deep as he moved in front of you, furious. - “I was feeling sick!” - Billy kneeled in front of you as he grabbed your hands. - “Why didn’t you say something?” - “Because I wasn’t feeling so well and besides I don’t have to tell you everything!” - you replied soft.

“Yes, you do! You’re my sister!” - Billy almost shouted as he got up and seated himself next to you on the bed. - “Billy just let it go!” - you sighed again and got up, walking towards the door. - “Y/n where are you going?” - Billy jumped up and rushed towards you, preventing you from leaving.

“I’m going to Gilbert!” - you tried to leave by walking underneath his arm as he pulled you back. - “Y/n you are sick, you're not going anywhere!” - you sighed deep again as you gave Billy a look. “You can look at me like that all you want but it’s not going to change anything! You are staying home.” - Billy pulled you back in and placed you down in your bed, holding his hand against your forehead for a second.  

“Billy!” - you called out. “I’m not a little child anymore, I can take care of myself!” - you tried to escape your bed but Billy kept pushing you in it. - “You are staying in bed and that’s final!” - Billy pointed his finger stern at you as you puffed annoyed. Billy then left your room and you sighed deep knowing he would just come into your room every five minutes.

You waited until nightfall to escape your house, you had to tell Gilbert about your pregnancy and he needed it to know right now. You climbed down you window, trying to be as quiet as you could. You knew Billy would find out eventually but those were worries for later.

You ran as fast as you could to Gilbert’s house, hoping he wasn’t sleeping already. - “Gilbert!” - you shouted as you were almost at his door. - “Gilbert, I need to talk to you!” - you started to knock at his door. - “Gilbert are you in?”

Gilbert woke up abruptly as he opened the door with his sleepy head, his hair was all messy and he couldn't keep his eyes open. - “Y/n?” - Gilbert started to rub his eyes as you walked passed him inside. “Gilbert I’m pregnant!” - you blurted out. Gilbert who was still sleepy was suddenly wide awake. - “I’m sorry? Did I just hear you correct?” - Gilbert had closed his door and walked over to you.  

“Yes, Gilbert I’m pregnant and its yours.” - you seated yourself down, sighing deep as Gilbert looked overwhelmed around him. - “I... I … I don’t know what to say? Does anyone know?” - he started to pace around in front of you as you started to cry soft. - “No, you are the first.” - you started to cry soft as you felt yourself falling from cloud nine. Gilbert noticed you cry and walked over to you, holding your hands. - “Y/n it’s alright...” - he kissed your hands soft as you kept crying.  

“No, it's not... because you are going to leave me and Billy is going to kill me and...” - it was hard for you to breath as you kept crying. Gilbert placed himself better as he grabbed your head and placed it against his chest. - “I’m not going anywhere!” - he started to stroke your hair as you kept sobbing against his chest.

“Y/n I love you, I promise you I’m not going anywhere.” - Gilbert removed your head from his chest and tilted your head to kiss you. You felt yourself climb back up to cloud nine as your heart started to beat with love.

“But Billy can never know!” - you said to him as you released yourself from his kiss. “Because if he does, I’m sure he would not only kill me but you as well.” - Gilbert started to laugh soft at your comment as you slammed him against his arm. - “That’s not funny Gil! I mean it.”  

Gilbert bowed down to meet up with your stomach as he let his hands run over it. - “I won’ let anything happen to you.” - he whispered to your stomach, he then pulled himself up again. - “Both of you.” - he then kissed you again as you wrapped your arms around him.

You stayed with him until the sky started to colour peachy pink, both of you had fallen asleep on his bed in each other's arms. You softly woke up as Gilbert was still a sleep next to you. You blinked a few times and stretched you out as you abruptly got up. - “Billy!” - you whispered soft.

Gilbert awoke from your sudden movement. - “Y/n is everything alright? Are you feeling sick? Is there something with the baby?” - Gilbert kept overflowing you with concerned questions as you rolled out of bed. Gilbert tried to pull you back in as you didn’t answer him. - “Y/n tell me? Is everything alright?” - Gilbert almost shouted out of desperation as he had no idea why you acted so sudden.  

“I’m fine...” - you replied without looking back at him, gathering your belongings. - “I have to get home before Billy wakes up and comes and check on me!” - Gilbert rolled out of bed and moved some hair aside as he kissed your neck soft. - “Let him be... I like waking up next to you, in a slow way not so sudden as now.” - you sighed as you turned around to face him. - “You don’t understand I have to be home! If Billy even finds out …"

Gilbert sighed deep - “If Billy would just get over his obsession of keeping an eye on you or stop his hatred against me...” - you kissed his cheek brief. - “I know but nothing can change his mind.” you started to move towards the front door as Gilbert followed you.  

He paused you in the front door. “Are you sure I can’t change your mind... you can stay here and enjoy breakfast with me?” you shook your head soft as you kissed him one more time. Gilbert sighed again. - “Promise me you’ll look after yourself and our unborn child.” - Gilbert moved his hands again towards your stomach as you blushed soft. - “I promise.”  

You then made your way back home, hoping you would be back in time before your parents would suspect anything or Billy.  you climbed back into your room as you were just in time. You had laid yourself in your bed as seconds later, Billy barged into your room. - “Feeling any better Y/n?”  

You nodded soft as you had pulled the covers up till your chin. Billy moved over to your bed and seated himself next to you, feeling your forehead. - “I still think you should stay in bed for a few hours.” - you puffed annoyed as Billy got up again. - “I’ll stop by from time to time.” he then closed the door and you exhaled deep.

The next few weeks you tried to hide from Billy’s constant concern as you sneaked out to Gilbert as many times as you could. Your stomach started to show a little bump as you got more concerned about Billy finding out.

You changed your usual dresses to once that fell wider and looser, hoping to cover up your bump. You knew you couldn’t keep it hidden forever but you tried to cover it up as long as you could. You were getting dressed as Billy barged into your room. - “Billy!” - you shouted as you quickly pulled your dress down.

“Y/n tell me what I saw was a mistake!” - Billy closed the door angry behind him as he walked over to you. - “Tell me you're not.... not pregnant!” you couldn’t avoid it now, Billy knew it and it killed you. You started to cry soft as you fell to the ground. - “Billy I’m so sorry...”  

Billy sighed deep as he saw you break down on the ground. - Y/n... Y/n … I didn’t mean it like that...” - Billy kneeled beside you as he wrapped his arms around you. You looked confused at Billy with red puffy eyes. - “You... you're not mad at me...?”  

“No, Y/n I could never be.” - Billy started to shush you as you kept sobbing. - “Is it Gilbert’s?” - he asked you curious as he pulled your hair out of your face. you nodded soft against his chest as he kept stroking your head. - “It’s alright Y/n” - he shushed you soft.

You wiped your face clean as you laughed soft. - “I thought you were going to kill me...” - Billy moved your head back to look at you. - “Y/n I can’t believe you would ever think that! Yes, I’m protective over you and the others but that is because you are my sister. I love you so much Y/n” - Billy kissed your forehead soft. - “I love you too Billy.” you then embraced him as Billy kept stroking your head, making sure you were alright.

You moved your trembling hand in front of you as you slowly opened it and let the dirt slip through your fingers. It hit the casket in front of you and scattered around the top, you then felt someone pull you a bit back as several men started to shovel up more dirt to throw it in the hole. You looked over your shoulder as the unknown man was holding you on a distance from the hole. You looked past him and saw several classmates of you standing there with their parents.

You turned your attention back to the front as you could barely see the casket, a last deafening thud of dirt hitting the casket pulled you back in an emotionless state. You heard some footsteps behind you and everyone started to move home or your house to sit together and talk about your father. You ignored their movements as you kept looking at the hole that was closing, the pastor walked over to you and placed his hand on your shoulder. – “God be with you, child…” – he patted your shoulder soft before moving on.

You dragged yourself to your house after a long pause and as everyone was already gone, you saw their heads turn towards you as you walked in. you gave them no attention as they started to talk again, you made your way upstairs as you didn’t want to be a part of the celebration downstairs. You paused at the stairs as you heard a familiar voice, you turned around as you saw Billy standing a few steps behind you.

“Y/n…” – he said soft as he tried to say something after it but didn’t really know what to say. – “I know…” – you replied soft as you didn’t need to hear his words, but you knew what he meant. Billy placed his hand on yours that was resting at the stair railing, you exhaled deep at the touch of his hand, but you turned your head away and moved back up the stairs. Billy watched you go upstairs as he wished he had said something more helpful, but he wasn’t good in these sorts of things.

He had never lost anyone important yet so, he couldn’t possibly know how you were feeling. You let yourself fall on your bed as you closed your eyes and went into a deep sleep. The murmur from downstairs started to fade away after some hours as everyone went home. The Andrew’s were almost the last to leave and before they left, Billy placed a handwritten letter on your cupboard in sight that you would see it. He had been writing a letter to you while you were upstairs, he felt like he needed to do something more for you.

He gave the letter a last look before he followed his parents out of your house. The next morning you woke up feeling horrible, your muscles hurt, and you wanted to cry so bad, but you never had a chance. You needed to go back to school and pretend like nothing happened and that your life is perfect and full of sunshine’s and rainbows. Your life had gone to the brink of destruction and despair, you were barely holding it together and yet you had to pretend like everything was alright.

You got dressed on a slow tempo as you dragged yourself downstairs, you walked past the cupboard with the letter on it and took a quick breakfast. You avoided everything that reminded you of your father. You sighed deep as you took your coat and felt your father’s picture staring at you, you walked over to the cupboard and placed his frame down as your eyes fell on the letter next to it.

It had your name written on it in some curly letters as you took it in your hand and turned it around to see who it was from. The back was empty, and you felt some emptiness consume you, your clock awoke you and you putted the letter in your pocket as you rushed out of the door. It was very early, and you sighed as you heard the birds chirp and the wind blow gentle.

You tried to think of anything else than yesterday as you suddenly walked past a death squirrel. Your eyes were fixed on the little body that was starting to be consumed by nature. You started to breath quick and short as your mind jumped back to the events from yesterday, your knees started to shake as you felt your heart skip beats. You had to hold on to a branch or you would have fallen, your body was screaming, demanding for you to cry, grief, feel anything but you pulled yourself back up and supressed the feelings away.

You were not going to break when everyone around you, expected you to be brave and strong. You took some leaves and threw them at the death corpse of the squirrel, you then puffed loud as you walked past it with your head held high. You putted your hands in your coat as you felt the letter in your pocket, you just held it in your hand as you walked frustrated further.

You saw some classmates walking nearby as they kept their distance from you, you saw the looks on their eyes as they tried to feel sorry for you. You turned your head away from them angry as you didn’t need their pity, you just needed a few days to grief, but no one seemed to give you any space. You kept walking towards school as you tried to hold back your tears as their eyes followed you everywhere.

As you arrived at school you saw everyone pause with what they were doing and gazed at you. You stopped and felt anxiety hit you as your hands started to get sweaty, you rubbed them nervous together as your started to breath quick and short. It was like they were closing in on you as they all stared at you, your knees started to shiver as you had to hold back your tears.

Billy noticed it that you were feeling anxious and wanted to run towards you as he suddenly saw you ran away inside. Billy clenched his fist as he started to yell at everyone that was staring at you just a few moments ago. He growled loud as everyone stared at his sudden outburst, Billy ignored their confused looks as he ran after you. He saw you sitting down at your desk with your head buried between your hands.

“Y/n…” – he said soft as he placed his hand on your shoulder and walked in front of you. – “Are you alright?” – he knew this was a stupid question, but he still thought it was necessary to ask. – you lifted your head as you placed some hair over your shoulder, - “I’m fine…” – you replied as you tried to smile at him without breaking apart. – “How are you fine…” – Billy tried to grab your hand as you moved it slightly back, - “You don’t look fine, Y/n…”

“I said I’m fine, Billy…” – you said soft as you pulled your hands close to your chest. Billy wasn’t going to give up that easily as he took your hand in his and held it tight, you looked shocked at him as he just held your hand. You tried to pull back as you didn’t want his pity, but Billy held it tight. Miss Stacy walked in and everyone else started to walk in as Billy looked quick around him, you took advantage of the situation and pulled your hand back.

Billy sighed deep as he walked slowly back to his seat, your hand started to tremble as Billy had hold it moments ago. You moved your trembling hand underneath your desk as you didn’t want anyone to see that you were falling apart.

During class held Billy a close eye on you as he noticed you never raised your hand or participated in class. He saw you move nervous around in your seat as you tried to stop your body from shaking, Billy had to control his urge to jump out of his seat and comfort you. Suddenly Miss Stacy walked over to your desk and whispered only to you, - “Y/n … if you ever need someone to talk to…” – you felt the anxiety kick in again as everyone started to stare at you again.

“Y/n…” – Miss Stacy wanted to place her hand on your shoulder, but you slapped it away, got out of your seat and rushed outside. Everyone gasped as they watched you leave, Billy responded in seconds as he jumped out of his seat and rushed after you.

You were running away as Billy rushed after you, trying to stop you. – “Y/n!” – he shouted as he was just running behind you. He stepped up his pace as he took your arm and pulled you back to him, you bumped against his chest as he wrapped his arms around you. You tried to push him off, but he stood his ground and wrapped his arms tighter around you.

“Let go of me!” – you shouted at him as your lip started to tremble, - “Not before you take the time to grief!” – he yelled back at you as you kept trying to push yourself out of his grip. – “Why should I!” – you yelled back as he tried to calm you down. – “because you are falling apart, and I can’t watch you tear yourself apart!” – Billy shouted back at you as you suddenly stopped pushing and pulling.

Billy took a deep breath as he seated himself down and pulled you alongside of him. You were still quiet as he placed you on his lap and wrapped his arms around you as your head was resting against his chest. – “It’s alright Y/n … you can grief…” – he said soft as you felt tears come up, you looked up to him for a moment as he smiled sweet at you.

Your face showed wrinkles as you buried your head against his chest again and finally started to cry. You finally cried out all those supressed feelings, your body was shaking hard from the outburst as Billy kept holding you and stroking your hair. He kept quiet as you kept crying against him, you grabbed his shirt tight as you pulled it closer to your face. You wanted to disappear in his embrace as you felt safe and sound.

After some moments as you had calmed down, Billy removed your head from his chest to look at you. – “Did you get my letter?” – you wiped some tears away as you frowned at him, - “Did you write me this letter?” – you started to reach for something in your pocket as you held the letter with your name on it. He smiled soft at the sight of it as you bit your under lip soft, - “I haven’t read it yet…” – you said soft as you thought he would be angry.

“No worries Y/n… should I read it to you?” – you nodded soft as Billy took his letter from your hand and opened it, you placed yourself back against his chest as your arms were around him. Billy cleared his throat soft as he started to read his letter out loud. You listened to his calm voice as it sounded like a melody in your ears, you sighed in a save way as you closed your eyes with the voice of Billy on the background.

Diana and Ruby sighed along with you as Anne gave you all her motherly look. “It’s getting late and tomorrow is another day!” - “Did you say something Anne?” - Cole who was working outside on some clay figures popped up his head between the curtains. - “Yes!” - she replied “It’s time to go home!”  

“I’m almost done so I think I’ll stay a few more minutes.” - meanwhile you had gathered all your material and was ready to head home with the girls. “Well see you tomorrow then Cole” - you patted him on the back as you walked past him and stepped outside of the clubhouse.

You took a few deep breaths, taking in the fresh air. “Cole is really good isn’t he Y/n?” - Diana had come by your side as you watched the several claw figures around the clubhouse. They came in all sorts of shapes and figures, some were posing as others showed an emotion. “He really is!” - you replied, tangling your arm around Diana.

***

It was pretty early the next day, not even the birds were awake and singing. The sun was shining faintly as the dew on the plants and flowers started to fall down. A few animals showed their faces out of there hole they washed their fur.  

The silent was disturbed by someone walking through the woods, the steps sounded heavy as someone was carrying something heavy. The steps were joined by others that sounded lighter and quicker. “Are you sure this is safe?” - one of the persons spoke as several animals hid quickly away at the sight of them.

“Yes, I’ve done this before with my father!” - Billy spoke as he was leading the expedition so early in the morning.  - “But isn’t this dangerous?” - Moody spoke as he sprinted quick to walk next to him. - “Moody stop being such a child, I told you I’ve done this before!”  

“Does … does Y/n know about this?” - Moody asked him curious as he ran after him. Billy suddenly stopped, making Moody almost bump into him “No and she is never going to! This isn’t something she should know, you know how she is around animals and all!” - Moody held his hands up as Billy poked him in the chest.  

“Now follow me!” - Billy continued to lead the expedition to hunt the wild fox that was terrorising all the farms. Almost every farmer was complaining that the wild fox was killing their chickens and all. Billy thought he was doing an act of heroism by killing the fox.

You loved animals and Anne had told you about the beautiful ginger fox with a dark tail that sometimes walked around your clubhouse. You and the others had sworn to protect the fox for its life is as equally important as anyone else’s.

Billy and his two friends came to a ticker part in the woods that they had never walked before. “Look!” - Billy said soft as he pointed at a little house between the trees. He started to make his way up to it when he started to notice the clay figures around it.

“Who do you think comes here?” - Moody asked him curious as he walked around a few figures, admiring their strange shapes and forms. - “I think I know who does!” - On Billy’s face appeared a devious grin as he took the rifle from around his shoulder.

“Wha … what are you doing?” - Moody replied uncertain and afraid as Billy pointed the rifle a one of the clay figures. “Billy stop!” - Moody called out as he tried to take the rifle from him but Billy would just push him of.

Bang

A clay figure exploded into a thousand pieces as only the lower half of the figure stood, Moody couldn’t believe his eyes and looked terrified at the statues.

Bang

Another one exploded, leaving just the foot standing as the rest fell on the ground with big pieces. “Billy stop!” - Moody called out once more as he was trying to get to his feet.  

Bang, bang, bang

Several others exploded, leaving nothing but destruction and deformed figures alive. A few lost their limps as others were completely broken down.  

Bang, Bang, bang

The clay figures couldn’t escape his shots as they broke one by one, leaving nothing alive. As the figures were all broken and destructed, Billy turned his attention to the little house.

“Billy stop!” - Moody grabbed his arm tight as he prevented him from going inside. - “Either you help me or you get the hell out of my face!” - Billy shouted as he pulled himself free. Moody watched Billy enter, knowing that there was nothing he could do about it.

“I’m not going to be a part of this!” - Moody said to himself as he ran away, hoping Billy wouldn’t destroy too much.  

Soon the entire house and clay figures were destroyed. Billy hadn’t found the fox but he did find something else that he shouldn’t and little did he knew what the consequences were for his behaviour.

***

You dropped your basket at the sight of the clay figures, you started to breath quicker as you made your way over to the clubhouse, hoping whatever you were feeling wasn’t true.

You fell to your knees besides Anne who kept staring at the destruction with tears in her eyes. “How... how... who did this?” - you stuttered as you tried to hold back your own tears. Anne fell to her knees besides you as she started to cry, grabbing the grass in front of her tight.

“My … my …. I ... I...” - you heard from behind you, you looked over your shoulder to Cole who was kneeling down beside his destructed figures. He took some parts cautiously in his hands as he pulled his face away, crying.  

You wiped your face as you got up, walking over to Cole who was crushing the broken parts in his hands. “Whoever did this is going to pay!” - he called out in cold blood, like a part of his soul had been broken. You kneeled beside him and Cole placed his head against your shoulder. - “Y/n my... my … art.” - his voice started to break as you wrapped your arms around him, comforting him.

“We have to get to school.” - Anne came standing behind the two of you, wiping her face clean of the tears. “I can’t!” - you cried out “Not after finding our secret place like this!” - Anne started to pull you to your feet. “Y/n I know but we still have to go, we … we’ll come back after school and tried to see what we can repair?” - “Repair?” - Cole shouted making both of you jump a bit back “what is there to repair, Anne?” - Cole moved his hands desperately in the air, “there is nothing left!”  

“We’ll figure it out!” - Anne called out back, not letting this pull her down. “I will bring hell to whoever did this!” - you nodded firm at her comment and tangled your arm around hers.

As the three walked inside the classroom with your heads low, you heard someone gushing about his victory. Before you could react, Cole jumped on top of Billy, pulling him to the ground. - “Cole!” - you called out as you ran towards him.

“Billy!” - you then called out, pulling them a part but Cole kept wrestling with Billy. “Anne!” - you called out desperately as she ran over to you, helping you pull them a part. Gilbert also came to your side and the three of you pulled them a part.

Anne and you held Cole tight as Gilbert had Billy in a tight grip. “Let me go Y/n, Billy destroyed our clubhouse and my statues.” - you gasped for air soft as you couldn’t believe your ears. “Billy!” - you shouted at him “is this true?”  

Billy saw the look in your eyes and immediately started to back away as you let go of Cole and stomped angry towards him. “Tell me!” - you shouted at him as Gilbert stopped him from running away. - “Did you do this! Billy did you destroy our clubhouse!” - you shouted at him.  

“Y/n I … I ...I” - Billy tried to grab your hand carefully as you couldn’t control your tears anymore “Answer me!” - you shouted between your tears. - a soft ‘yes’ released itself from Billy’s lips as you broke down.

You slapped him in the face, continued by constantly punching him against his chest and grabbing his shirt tight, shaking him back and forth as Billy just let you be. He stood frozen as you kept punching, slapping, shouting at him. “How could you!”  

Gilbert came standing behind you and picked you up, leading you away from Billy as you kept punching him. You screamed hard as Gilbert held you tight, far from Billy.

Billy didn’t know how to react to this, something broke inside of him as he felt the burn on his cheek and chest from your punches and slap. “Y/n I … I … I” - he tried to come close to you as he moved very cautious and slow.

“You stay away from me!” - you shouted as you watched him get close to you, Gilbert had to keep you back as you were shaking out of rage. “I don’t know who you are anymore!”  

“Y/n, please I didn’t mean to, I … I … didn’t know it was yours as well!” - Billy couldn’t care anymore if everyone watched him cry, he was losing you and that was the last thing he wanted. - “Didn’t know?” - you shouted again as you tried to break free from Gilbert’s grip. “How dare you destroy something that isn’t yours! I … I … I hate you!” - you screamed out as you could hear glass shatter.

Everyone gasped at those three evil words that could destroy someone, they all looked at Billy who fell to his knees, making his hands into fists as he kept crying out loud. “please, please don’t say that! Y/n please don’t … don’t say that!” - he begged you as he kept staring at the floor in front of him.  

“I never want to see you again!” - you had pulled yourself from Gilbert’s grip as you looked at Billy with disgust in your eyes. “Don't ever touch me again!” - you held your hand up in the air as you looked down at Billy who was crying on the floor.  

Stomping your foot angry against the floor, making Billy jump out of fright, you stormed out of class. Billy lifted up his head, crawling to his feet “Y/n come back!” - he shouted as he tried to run after you but Gilbert prevented him. “Y/n!!! Come back! I need you, please!” - he called out as he tried to break free from Gilbert’s grip. “You’ve really done it this time Billy” - Gilbert said calm to him as he sighed.

“Gilbert let go of me, I need to fix this. Please! I can’t lose her, not like this. Please!” - Billy begged him as he kept trying to push himself out of his grip. - “Just calm down, Billy!” - Gilbert noticed Miss. Stacey walking in the class so he pulled him to his seat.

***

It had been weeks now that you told Billy that you never wanted to see him again. In those weeks Billy tried several times to talk to you. He would wait for you in the woods but you just ignored him and ran off or he would come over to your house, trying to talk to you. You never let him in so Billy just kept waiting every single day at your porch until you had to come out somehow.

He even tried to speak to your parents to how he could fix your relationship, if he knew how things ended once he destroyed that clubhouse, he would have never done it. This was all because of the clubhouse, suddenly an idea crossed his mind and he cursed at himself for not thinking about it sooner.

“I just have to rebuild the clubhouse!” - he shouted out loud as he jumped to his feet, running to the demolished place without stopping. When he arrived, he picked up a wooden plank and started to rebuild the clubhouse.

Even if you wouldn’t want him back, he was determined to rebuild the clubhouse for you and your friends. Billy came every possible time he could to work on the clubhouse and after weeks and weeks of working all by himself it was done.

Anne was the first one who he showed her the new clubhouse. “I’m really sorry Anne, do … do you like it?” - he asked her nervous as Anne started to walk inside of the clubhouse. “Do you think Y/n would forgive me?” - Anne sighed deep “Billy its beautiful and thank for rebuilding it but I can’t speak for Y/n, you’ll just have to wait and see.

“Can ... can you maybe lure her to this place, just … just so she can see it and maybe that I can talk to her. I really don’t want to lose her.” - Billy let his foot slide nervously over some grass as Anne walked over to him. “I’ll do my best but I can’t promise you anything.” - Billy nodded soft.

The next day Anne leaded you to the clubhouse. You noticed to where you were going and you got suspicious “Anne why are we going to where our clubhouse USED to be!” - you crossed your arms annoyed as you paused for a moment. Anne sighed as she pulled you alongside “Just wait and see!”  

You gasped soft as you saw the back of the new clubhouse. “Anne, how... how … did you do this?” - you asked her as you were perplexed by the sudden new clubhouse. “It wasn’t me!” - she replied as she shook her head, leading you to the front of the clubhouse.

“You!” - you shouted angry as you saw Billy standing in front of the house. You then turned to Anne furious “You tricked me?” - “Y/n … please...” - Billy started to come closer to you as you held your hand up, stopping him from talking. “I’ve had enough of you!” - turning around, away from him and the clubhouse.

“Y/n please...” - Billy ran a bit faster to catch up with you, “Please I build this for you!” - “Well congratulations you want a reward for that!” - you snapped back at him. Billy jumped in front of you. “Please Y/n I know you still love me and I know what I did was stupid but please give me another chance. I can change … I will change for you, please …" - Billy started to search your face for clues of how you were feeling.  

“Your too late!” - you tried to walk passed him but he grabbed you tight “I don’t think so Y/n, I think there is still a chance for us! I’ll walk through hell for you!” you tried to break free from his grip. “Please Y/n I need you, I was out of control and wrong. I know that now, please forgive me. I love you too much to lose you.” 

He started to place his forehead against yours, letting his fingers slide against your arms. You tried to hold back but his touch stirred up those feelings that you had supressed so long for these past weeks. “Billy just …" - you whispered soft at him as he cupped your cheek before pressing his lips against yours.  

A bomb exploded inside of you, releasing all your love for him that you had caged for weeks now. You moved your hands around his neck as you followed his movement perfectly. “I still love you Billy” - you whispered underneath your breath as you felt him smile wider underneath your kiss.

Sometimes going away from each other can break your relationship and sometimes it makes your love for each other stronger once you are one again.

You were sitting in a corner at school, reading a book as you heard a glimpse of a conversation. - “My father has bought us a dog!” - Moody called out as you peeked from above your book to listen closely. - “A dog?” - Billy replied as he seated himself in front of Moody, facing you with his back.

“How big?” - Charlie asked him curious as Moody showed everyone the size of it. - “Father thought it would be nice for us to have a dog, you know for protection and fun!” - every one hanged on his lips as Moody kept telling everyone about his new dog.

You lowered your head, reading your book again as your mind went to Ginger, your light brown horse. You were already thinking about feeling the wind in your hair as Ginger carried you on her back. You loved it the most as she jumped over high things with you, Ginger was an excellent jumper and it made you feel as you could touch the clouds.

“Can we play with your dog today?” - Billy asked him curious as Moody nodded. - “If I ask father, he would allow it besides he need the exercise.” - Billy cheered happy as he was already looking forward to play with Moody’s dog.

As soon as school ended you made your way home, thrilled to finally ride your horse again. You’ve never ran so fast as you passed several of your classmates but they didn’t notice you... like always.

As you arrived at your house, you quickly changed into some more suitable clothes, this was the only time you could wear a pants and you loved it. You putted on your brown pants with white shirt, underneath that you wore some black boots.  

“Y/n are you going out again?” - your mother asked you curious as you ran down the stairs. - “yes, mother! I found a new path that I can use to train Ginger. - “alright then but be back before sundown!” - you nodded soft as you started to gather some fruit and bread for on the road.

You placed some food and a rope in a sack as you made your way over to the door opening. - “Y/n!” - your mother called out making you pause in the doorway. She started to walk over to you and tilted your head with her finger. - “Before sundown! Not like last time!” - She gave you her typical motherly look.

“Yes, mother I’ll be back before sunrise!” - you called out as you ran outside. - “Sundown!” - your mother shouted at you as she held the door open, watching you spurt towards the stables. She then sighed as she got back inside.

“Did you miss me Ginger?” - you placed your sack on the ground as you made your way over to her box. - “Hey girl!” - you started to pat her on the back as she neighed soft. You then started to prepare her further, leading her eventually out of the stables.

“Ready to explore?” - you asked her as she neighed loud, you attached your sack to her saddle and climbed on her back. Signalling her to run and Ginger neighed loud as she held her front legs in the air, she then placed them on the ground and chased of, catching the wind.

Meanwhile Moody and Billy had already collected his dog as they were heading towards the woods. - “Come 'on buddy!” - Moody called out as he patted his knees to call his dog to him. The dog barked a few times as he ran happily towards Moody. - “Good boy!”

Billy started to stroke the back of Moody’s dog as he was wagging his tail back and forth. - “Who’s a good boy!” - Billy kept calling out loud as he ran his hands all over the dog’s back. Moody had picked up a stick and showed it to his dog.

“Hey buddy, you want to play fetch?” - As Moody kept wagging the stick in front of the dog, the more excited he got, sticking out his tongue out of excitement. - “Fetch!” - Moody called out as he threw the stick away and his dog chased it down happily.

You and Ginger were galloping through the woods, feeling the wind in your hair. You leaded her to the new area that you wanted to show her. The new area had lots of fallen branches to train on. You leaded Ginger to some branches and she jumped gracefully over them.  - “Good girl!” - you complimented her by patting her against her neck.  

You jumped with her a few times over branches and galloping through thick parts of the woods as you started to get hungry. You decided to take a rest by a big tree, taking the sack of her saddle.

As you opened the sack, Ginger could already smell the sweet scent of apples as she moved her head closer to you, trying to put her nose in the sack. - “Ginger!” - you called out giggling and pushing her head away. Ginger neighed loud as you shook your head soft. - “You just couldn’t wait, could you?” - you handed her an apple that she happily consumed.  

You took some bread for yourself and filled your stomach until you couldn’t eat anymore. You rested your head against the tree for a few moments, closing your eyes as Ginger laid herself down next to you. She neighed soft as she placed her head on your lap.

You peeked at her brief as you opened one eye and shook your head soft as you started to stroke her soft. The two of you were just enjoying the sounds of the forest as you heard some noises not far from you. It sounded as distant shouting as you opened your eyes slowly.

You abruptly got up as you heard the shouts loud and clear. - “Buddy come back!!” - you recognized it was Moody’s voice followed by Billy’s voice. - “Buddy come back!!” - you got up and looked behind the tree to find Moody and Billy running after his dog.  

The dog was running wild as he was chasing down some squirrels, ignoring the calls from Moody or Billy. You quickly placed your sack at her saddle as you pulled out a rope from it. You jumped on Ginger’s back as you held the rope in your one hand. - “Come on Ginger!” - you shouted as she neighed hard, lifting her front feet in the air.  

Her front feet hit the ground with a loud thud as Ginger galloped away towards the boys. You jumped over branches as you ran as quickly to their side. Billy and Moody freaked out once they saw your horse jump over a branch close to them. 

You stopped her in front of the boys for a few seconds. - “Don’t worry, I got this!” - you shouted as you rushed off again. - “Who...who is that?” - Billy asked Moody confused as they kept running behind you. - “I don’t know but I think I know her?” - Moody replied as he tried to catch his breath.

You let go of the reins and took the rope in your hand, making a quick loop and circling it above your head. - “Closer Ginger!” - you ordered her as she neighed out of understanding. - Billy and Moody watched you circle the rope above your head as you tried to catch his dog.  

“She’s amazing!” - Billy called out as he ran faster to keep up with you. You were close to his dog that was still chasing down a squirrel as you ordered Ginger to go a bit faster. You were near the dog and you threw your rope at the dog, catching it in seconds.

The rope went around the dog’s neck as it stopped him abruptly as you ordered Ginger to slow down. You jumped of your horse and ran towards the dog, checking if it was alright. Both Moody and Billy joined your side, out of breath.  

“Who...who are you?” - Billy said quick between his breaths, demanding to know your name. You remove the rope from the dog and it started to lick you as you giggled soft at his touch. - “Billy it’s me Y/n?” - you said shy as you leaded the dog to Moody.  

“Y/n?” - Billy repeated soft - “How is it that I never noticed you?” - you smiled shy at his remark as you walked back to your horse. - “Don’t worry Billy you're not the first one to not notice me. Everyone at school does, I don’t blame you!” - “But it should, Y/n I'm sorry for not noticing you. You certainly have my attention now!” - Billy had come closer to you and was now standing in front of you.  

“I’m glad to hear that Billy!” - you replied as you pulled yourself into the saddle. Billy came closer to you as he grabbed the reins and looked up at you. - “Y/n, I … I can’t thank you enough for today. You were a real hero!” - you started to blush soft as Billy touched your knee soft. - “Y/n I see you now and I hope you can forgive my blindness towards you?”  

“I can... need a ride?” - you asked him curious as you extended your hand to him. Billy looked a bit uncertain at your horse. - “I assure you! She means you no harm!” - you moved yourself a bit to the front to make some room for Billy. After some hesitation Billy took your hand and you lifted him up into the saddle with you.

“Hold on tight!” - you called out as Ginger started to neigh loud. Billy clamped himself onto you in seconds afraid that he might fall. - “Are you sure this is safe Y/n?” - you heard fear in his voice as he looked at the ground. - “Just hold me tight!” - you took his arms and wrapped them tight around your waist.  

You felt him loosen up a bit as you assured him it was completely safe and that he had to wrap his arms firm around your waist. You felt some butterflies as he had his arms tight around your waist, his chest being pressed against your back as you could feel his heartbeat.

“We’ll just go slow, alright Billy?” - you felt Billy tighten his grip around you as you signalled Ginger to walk. Ginger started to walk slowly as Billy pressed his body closer to you. He kept looking at the ground scared but soon his fear faded away as he now felt the freedom of riding just like you always did.

And for the first time you were noticed, you weren’t the unknown girl in class anymore, you had a name now and it made you very happy that you made a new friend. Who knew all you needed was Ginger and some faith by your side.